（我不想和你说话）
（本剧改编自真人真事）
在我六岁时 祖母去世了 When I was six, my grandmother died.
我爸把我们载到他的家乡 My father drove us to his hometown
南卡罗来纳州的威金斯 参加她的葬礼 of Wiggins, South Carolina for her funeral.
我从未见过她 因此她的死对我来说没什么影响 I had never met her, so her death didn't mean much to me…
尽管这让我父亲很伤心 though it made my father very sad.
她躺在棺材里的样子让我感到害怕 I was afraid of her in that coffin.
虽然只有六岁 但她是我想了解的某事的一部分 She was part of something that, even at six, I wondered about.
那就是来世 The place after this one.
我担心她正从天堂往下看 由于我们年纪小 她不喜欢我们 I worried she was looking down and didn't like us because we were young.
（威金斯第七浸礼会）
（生命不胜于饮食吗 身体不胜于衣裳吗 ）
（马太福音 第6章25节）
齐切尔曼医生在哪里 Where's Dr. Zicherman?
打扰一下 Excuse me.
齐切尔曼医生在哪里 Where's Dr. Zicherman?
他在度假 He's on vacation.
他没告诉你吗 He didn't tell you?
没 No.
这可不像他的作风 That seems so unlike him.
你每周二都见他 Do you see him every Tuesday?
不 只是… No, just--
只是 你懂的 Just, you know.
不 我不懂 No, I don't know.
只是当我有需要时 Just if I need to.
这样的安排并不常见 Well, that's an uncommon arrangement.
你怎么知道我会来 How'd you know I'd be here?
常规的预约是医患关系的基础 Routine schedule is foundational in the doctor-patient relationship.
但你怎么知道我会来 But how did you know I'd be here?
我不明白你的问题 I don't understand the question.
但我和齐切尔曼医生并没有常规的预约 But Dr. Zicherman and I don't have a routine.
你是怎么知道我今天有预约 How did you know I had an appointment today?
我们每天都有日程表 We have a daily schedule.
上面有你的名字 Your name was on it.
你为何会在这里 Why are you here?
因为我有预约 Because I had an appointment.
不是问你这个 No.
你为何会在这里 Why are you here?
罪行包括了 The charges involved
贩卖未经登记的武器和跨州贩卖武器 selling unregistered weapons and crossing state lines to do so.
你为何会来这里 Why are you here?
我刚告诉你了 I just told you.
那你呢 Why are you?
我来治疗精神疾病 To treat mental illness.
来对地方了 Came to the right place.
我不是执法人员 也不是法官 I'm not in law enforcement. I'm not a judge.
我对我病患的罪行不感兴趣 I don't concern myself with the crimes of the men I treat.
我唯一关心的是保护他们的精神健康 My sole concern is protecting their mental health.
听起来你找到了人生目标 Sounds like you found your purpose in life.
你想我叫你詹姆斯还是吉米 Do you prefer James or Jimmy?
叫我吉米 Jimmy.
吉米 Jimmy.
有些人的心理比你在生活中 Some people's psyches are so much more fragile
遇到的大多数人的心理要脆弱得多 than most people you've probably encountered in your life.
比如说你的心理 Or your own, for example.
你怎么知道我的心理什么样 How do you know anything about my psyche?
我并不了解 但我猜想你的心智相当健全 I don't know much. But I suspect you're of fairly sound mind.
那就好 Good to know.
但我的一些病人却不是 But some of my patients are not.
只需一个错误念头 They're one wrong thought,
一个稍微不良的想法就会使他们发疯 one termite of an unhealthy idea from losing their minds.
如果他们失去理智 If they break,
有时就再也回不到他们之前的样子了 sometimes the person they were never comes back from the break.
他们会失去自我 They become ghosts in their own bodies.
你为何告诉我这些 Why are you telling me this?
我恳请你发挥怜悯心 I'm asking you for compassion
当和牢里的一些人打交道时 when you deal with some of the men in here.
一些人 Some of the men?
吉米 Jimmy…
医生 Doctor.
-我想问… -问什么 - I'm asking-- - Asking what?
你是否会对任何一位我病人的 精神健康构成威胁 Are you a threat to the mental health of any of my patients?
哪些病人 Which patients?
我在给你一个坦白的机会 I'm giving you an opportunity for candor here.
我劝你认真对待这事 I urge you to take it seriously.
哪些病人 Which… patients?
在他们埋葬了我祖母后 我爸开车带我们去了海边 After they buried my grandmother, my father drove us to the ocean.
那是我唯一一次看到大海 It was the only time I would ever see the ocean.
当他们寻找特里西亚雷特勒的 尸体时 拉里开车带马里恩警方 When they were looking for Tricia Reitler, Larry drove Marion PD
在这几条路上一遍又一遍地来回开 up and down these roads over and over and over again.
“我应该是把她埋在这里 "I think I buried her here.
不 是在这里 No, it was here.
或许是在那里 Maybe it was there.
不 我应该是把她埋在树下了” No, I think I buried her under a tree."
正是如此 Exactly.
我带他回伊利诺伊州的前一晚 他们又去了那里 That night before I take him back to Illinois, they go back out there.
同样的地方 同样的结果 Same area, same result.
我觉得她在那里的某处 I think she's there. Somewhere.
所以他才会再次把他们带到那里去 That's why he dragged them back out a second time.
那该死的以玩弄警方为乐 Son of a bitch couldn't get enough of it.
我看看能不能取得这些报告 Let me see if I can get my hands on these reports.
好的 All right.
他们在湖前左转了 They took a left up here before the lake.
这里除了田地什么都没有 There's nothing but fields out here.
在这荒郊野岭竟有这么一个不错的加油站 That's a nice gas station for the middle of nowhere.
（三区域 EZ燃油）
是的 Yeah.
好吧 这里应该有条运输公路 在那右转 All right, there should be a haul road right up here. Take a right there.
-早安 詹姆斯 -早 拉里 - Well, good morning, James. - Morning, Larry.
我昨天没看到你 I didn't see you yesterday.
昨天并没发生前天没发生的事 Nothing happened that didn't happen the day before.
还有大前天 对吧 And the day before that, right?
今天过得还好吗 How was your day?
很好 谢谢关心 It was good. Thanks for asking.
加里来看我了 Gary visited.
-太好了 -是的 - That's cool. - It was.
见到家人总是很高兴 他也喜欢汽车吗 Always nice to see family. Is he into cars too?
一点点 没我那么喜欢 A little. Well, not like me.
那内战的重演呢 But the Civil War stuff?
他没坚持下去 He didn't stick with it.
太可惜了 That's a shame.
他娶了一个臭娘们 He married a stinky bitch.
这… Well…
她认为重演是“变装游戏” She thinks it's "playing dress-up."
她这么说 She said that?
是的 Oh, yeah.
所以我告诉她…我说 So I said to her-- I said,
“要是在内战时期 你就是个老处女 一个老巫婆” "You would be a grandmother in Civil War times. An old hag."
没人会争着要她 Nobody would fight for her.
那时的新娘都很年轻 Brides were young.
都是处女 Unspoiled.
那时人们较早婚 People married younger then.
没错 很早婚 Much younger. Yeah.
我曾祖母14岁就生了我祖母 My great-grandmother had my grandmother when she was just 14.
这在当时是很平常的 That was perfectly normal back then.
直到政府发现了赚钱的方法 Until the government saw a way to make money.
通过提高适婚的法定年龄 By raising the age of consent?
完全正确 Exactly.
那时候没人上高中 Nobody attended a high school back then.
那时没高中这回事 There was no such thing.
但一旦政府意识到 But, once the government saw
可以通过设立高中来赚钱 that there was money to be made in high schools,
结果贪婪就胜过一切 well, then greed trumps all.
这与教育无关 It's not about education.
-无关吗 -无关 而是关于… - No? - No, it's about--
而是关于强迫孩子慢点长大 It's about forcing kids to delay growing up.
这样他们的父母就能 倾尽所有积蓄在补习费上 So that their parents can spend every extra dime on tuition,
那所有人都能赚钱 and everyone makes money.
这就会致使国家有一天破产 And that's what's going to bankrupt the country someday.
我从没这么想过 You know, I never thought about it that way,
但该死的 but damn.
或许真被你发现了 You could be onto something.
你也这么认为 You think?
你的视角很另类 You got a fresh perspective.
以前一定有人这么说过你 You must have heard that before.
谢谢 Thank you.
这些新娘有多年轻 So these brides were how young?
12岁 肯定有13岁的 Twelve, 13 for sure.
可以尿尿的年龄 就可以做爱了 对吧 Old enough to pee, old enough for me. Right?
真好笑 That's funny.
对了… Hey…
那么… So what's the--
和你做过最年轻的是几岁 what's the youngest you ever had?
你说什么 What?
和你做过最年轻的 The youngest you ever had.
你先说 You first.
为什么 我先问你的 Why? I asked first.
你先说 You first.
14岁 Fourteen.
她有反抗吗 Did she fight back?
没有 你的曾经反抗过 No. You had some fighters?
你当时几岁 How old were you?
和那个14岁的 With the 14-year-old?
她当时高一 She was a freshman.
我高四 所以我当时17岁 I was a senior, so I was 17.
-怎么啦 - 17岁 - What? - Seventeen.
拉里 Larry.
还在滴水吗 Is it still dripping?
滴水变成漏水了 Drip's turned into leaks.
他让他们在400号高速往东方向上 来回行驶了好几遍 He had 'em drive up and down 400 East several times.
440高速往南方向被提及了四次 440 South is mentioned four times.
250高速往东方向 以及375高速往南方向也一样 So is 250 East and 375 South.
这毫无意义 This is pointless.
他带他们来回在 550高速往东方向行驶次数最多 He took 'em up and down 550 East the most.
第一回共六次 第二回共五次 Six times the first time. Five times the second.
好的 那个加油站 是在550和400高速公路的交叉口 Okay. 550 intersects with 400 at that gas station.
也许他们停下来买汽水和上厕所 Maybe they stopped for sodas and bathroom breaks.
我想当时那里并不是加油站 I doubt that gas station was there.
那加油站看起来很新 That looked pretty new.
那当时那里是什么 So, what was there?
找到了 Here it is.
建筑工地 在550和400的交叉口 Construction at 550-400 intersection.
你好 经理在吗 Hey, there a manager around?
戴尔一周只来几次 Dale only comes in a couple times a week.
其他时间呢 The rest of the time?
只有我和基斯 他值3点到11点的班 It's just me and Keith. He works the 3:00 to 11:00.
你在这里工作多长时间了 How long you been here?
6点开始 Since 6:00.
不 我不是问今天 你在这里工作多久了 No, not today. How long have you worked here?
半年 Six months.
你知道这地方开了多久吗 Would you know how long this place has been open?
我想有几年吧 A few years, I think.
戴尔和基斯知道确切时间吗 Dale and Keith know exactly?
戴尔从一开店就在这里了 Dale's been here since the beginning.
有他的电话号码吗 Got his number?
谢谢 Thank you.
你们这里有帮人修车吗 You work on cars here?
没有 长官 No, sir.
知道有谁修车吗 Know anybody who does?
没有 本地没有 Not local, no.
这附近最近的汽车配件经销商在哪里 Where's the nearest auto parts dealer around here?
不晓得 我不喜欢车 I don't know. Not into cars.
但约翰迪基… John Dickey though…
“但约翰迪基”怎么了 "John Dickey though," what?
他就像一名修理先生 He's like a Mr. Fixit.
人们有时会带东西给他修 但他是私底下做的 People bring him stuff to fix sometimes, but it ain't, like, official.
他叫约翰迪基 Uh-huh. John Dickey?
约翰迪基汉森 他在这条路上开了家鱼饵店 John Dickey Hansen. He runs a bait shop up the road.
好的 谢了 Okay, thanks.
经理说加油站是于1994年春天开业的 The manager said the station opened in the spring of '94.
他说他们应该是在1993年 大约仲夏时破土动工的 He says he believes they broke ground around midsummer of '93.
该死的拉里霍尔 Fucking Larry Hall.
听说你想弄点货进来 I heard you tried to get some product in here.
别这么做 Don't do that.
耸肩等于不回答 A shrug is a nonanswer,
而不回答等于不尊重 and a nonanswer is disrespectful.
我是有这么想过 I thought about it,
但结果我没能把它弄进来 but it turned out I couldn't get it in here.
假设你把它弄进来了 But let's say you had.
你用它来帮某人解决 And you used it to dig someone out of some trouble
他们在外面遇到的麻烦 they're having on the outside.
这帮了他们 也许也帮了你 Now, that would help them. Maybe it'd help you.
但我不觉得这对我有什么帮助 But I don't see how it would help me.
我并不是很明白 I'm not sure I understand.
一个在别处得不到帮助的人最终会来找我 A man who can't get help anywhere else eventually comes to me.
那他将欠我人情 And then he's in my debt.
我真诚地向你道歉 My apologies. Sincerely.
我搞砸了 我并不知道 I fucked up. I had no idea.
好吧 All right.
我在密尔沃基市打听过你 I asked around about you. In Milwaukee.
你的确如你自己所说的 有着非凡成就 You checked out. Flying colors.
所有人的熟人里都有一个认识你的人 而且你的风评很好 Everyone knew someone who knew someone who knew you and spoke highly of you.
很不错 That's nice.
但没人记得亲眼见过你 But no one could remember laying eyes on you directly.
所有的人都说他们认识见过你的人 Everyone knew someone who said they had,
但实际上没人亲眼见过你 but no one had actually done it themselves.
对于这你有什么说法 What do you make of that?
他们需要多走动走动 They need to get out more.
这就是他们需要做的 Is that what they need to do?
你有孩子吗 Do you have kids?
拉里 你这周过得如何 How was your week, Larry?
我不过是问问 I'm just asking.
你觉得这周过得充实吗 Would you describe it as productive?
我不过是问问 I'm just asking!
你之前也问过 几年来问了好几次 And you have asked before. Several times over the years.
我是如何回应你的 And what has been my response?
我不过是好奇 I'm just curious.
我是如何回应你的 What has been my response?
你不谈论你的私生活 You don't discuss your personal life.
没错 Correct.
我只能和你谈论我自己 That's all that I discuss.
因为你是病人 而我是医生 Because you are the patient, and I am the doctor.
我们就不能试试角色互换 Can't we try, like, role reversal?
这么做能解郁安神 不是吗 Isn't that therapeutic?
如果你是我的医生 你会对我说什么 And what would you say to me if you were my doctor?
贱人 把你做的梦告诉我 Bitch, tell me your dreams!
我敢说他们闻起来一定很香 I bet they smell good.
你的孩子们 Your children.
你有什么心事 What's troubling you?
没心事 Nothing.
你常用挑衅来掩盖内心的脆弱 You often use provocation to mask vulnerability.
我并不脆弱 你才脆弱 I'm not vulnerable. You're vulnerable.
你看起来焦躁不安 You seem agitated.
我再好不过了 I'm perfectly fucking fine.
这是我这么多年来心情最好的时候 而你不喜欢我这样 It's the best mood I've been in for years, and you don't like it.
我为何不喜欢你这样 Why wouldn't I like it?
因为如果我情况好转 Because if I got better
并告诉别人方法 and I told people how,
然后那些人也好转了 and then those people got better…
你就失业了 you'd have no job.
那我就退休 Then I'd retire.
你…那你就退休 You-- Then you'd retire.
并和你的女儿们一起喝茶 And have tea with your daughters.
看她们弯着腰做园艺 Watch them bend over to do their gardening.
是什么让你的心情这么好 What's making you feel so good?
我上诉的案子 My appeal.
你收到了关于它的最新消息 You have fresh news about it?
这么说吧 Let's just say
如果你知道如何解读积极的信号 那你就能知道有好消息了 that there are positive signs if you know how to read them.
难怪你会有如此举止 That would explain your affect.
我的什么举止 What's my affect?
自信 Confident.
几乎自大 Almost cocky.
有时候一个人完全有理由这样 Sometimes a man has every reason to feel that way.
我以前见过你自信的样子 Well, I've seen you confident before.
什么时候 When?
在你谈论内战历史 引擎和旧汽车部件时 When you talk about Civil War history and engines and old car parts.
只是从没见过你这么自大 I've just never seen you cocky.
这种表现更像是你朋友会有的 That seems more like your friend.
哪个朋友 What friend?
你是说詹姆斯 You mean James.
拉里 你知道我说的是谁 他很有魅力 You know who I mean, Larry. He's very charismatic.
你见过他 You've met him?
我们有过短暂接触 Our paths crossed.
我看到了他吸引你的地方 I see what you respond to in him.
他身上散发出永不后悔的气质 He gives off the aura of someone who's never known regret.
他决定了的事就会去做 从不后悔 He decides something, he does it. He never looks back.
你认为 但… You'd think that, but…
但他知道后悔 Well, but he has known regret.
他确实对一些事后悔过 He does regret things.
他经历过痛苦 He has known pain.
但他不会让它影响他 But he doesn't, you know, let it warp him.
你觉得自己是那样吗 被痛苦纠缠 Is that how you see yourself? Warped by pain?
近来不会 Not lately.
因为詹姆斯的缘故 Because of James.
我… I'm…
不再孤单 I'm not alone anymore.
我七年级那年 When I was in seventh grade,
库珀罗斯对我说：“你人真好” Cooper Ross told me, "You're so nice,"
然后他脸红了 and then he turned red
有好几分钟都不敢直视我的眼睛 and couldn't look me in the eyes for a few minutes.
（办公室）
你好 Hello.
（鱼饵店）
我能帮你吗 Help you?
你是约翰迪基汉森 Are you John Dickey Hansen?
你也可以叫我约迪 Well, you can call me JD, if you like.
你这里卖汽车零件吗 You sell auto parts here?
如果我发现有值得 在《汽车交易》上登广告的东西 Well, if I happen across something that's worth putting an ad in the Auto Trader,
我或许会 I might do so.
你是否有见过这男子 You ever meet this guy?
是拉里 That's Larry.
那你和他熟吗 So, you know him well?
不熟 小姐 No, miss.
他只是让人印象深刻 He's just memorable.
那些络腮胡子和其他的 Those mutton chops, whatnot.
“和其他的”指的是 Help me out with "whatnot."
他简直是诡异 恕我直言 He's as creepy as all fuck, you know? Excuse me.
没事 你尽管说 No, speak freely.
我当时卖他一对开槽刹车盘 Well, I sold him a pair of slotted brake rotors
用于1979年制造的道奇B200 for a '79 Dodge B200
大约是在1992 1993年 back about, I don't know, '92, '93.
他看起来像个人畜无害的小家伙 Seemed a harmless squirt of a fella.
长着一副从没被疼爱过的模样 Had that look of somebody who'd never been hugged.
甚至在婴儿时期也没有 Not even as a baby.
我想我对他太友善了 You know, I guess I was too kind to him,
因为后来他即使不需要买零件都往这里跑 'cause he started coming back even when he didn't need a part.
开始在这里闲待着 和年轻女孩们聊天 Started just hanging around, talking up the young girls.
有发生过什么事吗 Anything ever happen?
你是指干坏事 没有 What do you mean, like bad? No.
不久后我们就把他赶走了 We run him off after a while.
我不时会想起他怎么样了 Every now and then I wonder what ever became of him.
既然你们来这里问他的事 我想应该不是好事 Since you're coming around asking about him, figure it ain't good.
你们为何赶走他 Why'd you run him off?
他让很多女孩感到不舒服 He made too many of the girls uncomfortable.
包括我的女儿 Including my own.
奥德丽 Audrey.
她当时还是个十几岁的少女 但拉里喜欢上她 She was a teenager then, but Larry took a shine to her.
我肯定感到不舒服 Sure didn't sit right with me.
奥德丽在吗 Is Audrey around?
她在城里办点事 应该很快就回来了 She's in town running some errands. Should be back soon.
你介意我们在这里等吗 You mind if we wait around?
一点都不 Not in the least.
在我12岁时 我和姐姐买了新运动鞋 When I was 12, my sister and I got new sneakers.
我们几乎立刻就踩到了牛粪 And almost immediately, we stepped in cow pies,
尽管我们的父母叫我们别去那块田地 even though our parents told us to stay clear of that field.
花了好几个小时才把鞋弄干 Took hours for those shoes to dry.
我不记得我们当时说过什么 I don't remember anything we talked about.
只记得我们很开心 Just that we were happy.
做个好孩子 听你妈的话 Be a good boy. You listen to your mother.
我不想听这些 I don't wanna hear this…
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把电话挂了 Hang up the fucking phone!
这个电话 This phone?
请便 Be my guest.
请输入您的帐号 …please enter your account number.
…告密者 …snitch.
院子里不能有这东西 Can't have that on the yard.
…告密者 …snitch.
是的 先生 我明白你的意思 Yes, sir. I understand what you're saying,
但我告诉你一定是搞错了 but I'm telling you there must be a mistake
因为我上周才亲自缴付了那张信用卡 because I paid that credit card myself just last week.
你是说我儿子不能打电话或接听电话 You're telling me that my son can't make or receive calls?
你是这个意思吗 Is that what you're telling me?
好的 拜托 先生 Okay, sir, please.
要不我现在就在电话里把信用卡号码给你 How about if I give you the credit card right here, right now, over the phone.
那你能帮我接通电话吗 Would you be able to connect me then?
好吧 好的 谢谢你 Okay. All right. Thank you.
我很感激你的帮忙 I appreciate you trying to help.
贱人 该死的 Bitch. Motherfucker.
吉姆 我该跟你去 Jim, I should come with you.
不 亲爱的 我没事 我不过需要整理思绪 No, hon. I'll be fine. I just need to clear my head.
好吧 别太激动了 Okay. Well, don't get yourself worked up.
我开车兜风是为了放松 不是为了激动 I'm taking a drive to relax, not to get worked up.
好吧 All right.
回来时能给我们买些甘露咖啡利口酒吗 Can you pick us up some Kahlúa on your way back?
好的 做梦吧 Yeah, imagine that.
木工室 Woodshop.
你说什么 What's that?
我最后见到拉里的地方 Last place I saw Larry.
这些你做了多久了 How long you been working on those?
几周了 Couple of weeks.
你用它们干吗 What do you do with them?
我把它们寄回家 I send them home.
为什么 Why?
唐尼说你今天差点和人打架 Donny said that you almost got into a fight today.
在打电话时 At the phones?
是的 有个囚犯要用电话 Yeah, some con wanted the phone.
我的帐户出了点问题 我无法打电话出去 There's some mess-up with my account. I can't make calls out.
你给帐户进了钱 But you funded the account?
也许你和人结仇了 Maybe you made an enemy.
和谁 Of who?
这里的工作人员 Someone who works here.
你最近是否和任何人有过分歧 Have you had any disagreements with anyone lately?
我昨天和一个守卫出了点小问题 I had some minor words with a guard yesterday.
我不记得那家伙的名字了 但他一直惹恼我 Can't remember the guy's name, but he was just busting my balls.
为了什么事 About what?
没什么 Nothing.
不可能没什么 It's not nothing.
詹姆斯 别这样 你可以跟我说 James, come on. It's me.
拉里 是为了你 It was about you, Larry.
守卫为何会谈论我 Why would some guard talk about me?
他说… He said…
他说你是个儿童猥亵者 He said you're a kid-diddler.
和儿童杀手 And a kid-killer.
我不是想笑 我只是… I don't mean to laugh, I just--
儿童猥亵者 A kid-diddler?
詹姆斯 我这辈子从没强奸过任何人 I've never raped anyone in my life, James.
那你做了什么 So, what did you do?
我和她们发生性关系 I had sex with them.
好的 Okay.
詹姆斯 她们也不是儿童 And they weren't children, James.
直到最近才算是 在19世纪并不是 Not until recently. I mean, not back in the 1800s.
是的 Sure.
詹姆斯 你和多少个女人上过床 James, how many women have you fucked?
-从高中开始 -不 不是高中 - Since high school? I mean… - No, not high school.
我是说你和多少个女人… I mean how many women have--
上过床 我指的是在高中时期 You know, over the high school ages, have you fucked?
- 80个 -什么 - Eighty. - What?
- 80个 -我估计 - Eighty? - I guess.
可能有一 两个我忘了 I mean, there's probably one or two I'm forgetting about,
但我不确定具体数字 but I'm not totally sure the figure.
詹姆斯 这一点都不好笑 真的是80个 That's not funny, James. Is it 80?
是的 Yeah.
怎么可能 How?
你是怎么做到…如何做到… How did you manage to-- How--
-你有固定的搭讪词吗 -不 - Do you have like a line you use? - No.
我只是…我的意思是我跟她们说话 I just-- I mean, I talk to 'em.
她们也跟我说话 最终大家都会把衣服脱了 And they talk to me, and eventually, our clothes come off.
-但是怎么做呢 -我刚说了 - But how? - I just told you.
不 你没说 No you didn't.
拉里 我不明白 很抱歉 I don't follow, Larry. I'm sorry.
没有女人会只是“跟我说话” No woman will ever just "talk to me."
但年纪较轻的女孩会 But younger girls will.
其中一些 Some.
是的 Yeah.
她起初很友善 She was nice at first.
谁 Who's that?
-拉里 谁很友善 -杰西卡罗奇 - Who was nice, Larry? - Jessica Roach.
她的脚踏车爆胎了 她当时正沿着碎石路行驶 Her bike had a flat, she was driving up this gravel road.
尽管她的是一辆越野脚踏车 Even though she had a mountain bike--
岩石和碎石混在一起 You know, rocks and gravel mix in with each other
而岩石可能会很锋利 所以… and rocks can be sharp, so…
女孩们自以为很聪明 但她不会修爆胎 Girls think they're so smart, but there she was with a flat.
你把它修好了 You fix it?
-不 我只是载了她一程 -好的 - Oh, no. I just offered her a ride. - Right.
詹姆斯 他们把我说得 像是扑向这些女孩并攻击她们 They make it sound like I jump on these girls, James, and attack them.
这并不是事实 That's not reflective of the truth.
她喜欢和我说话 她真的喜欢 She liked talking to me. She did.
我当天载着我的脚踏车 我打开了货车门 I had my bike that day, and I opened up the doors to the van
给她看 并且… and I showed her, and…
告诉她我有多喜欢骑脚踏车 然后我们聊了起来 I told her how much I like cycling, and we talked about that.
拉里 听起来你跟她说话一点问题都没有 Sounds like you had no trouble talking to her, Larry.
没有 None.
是的 她很友善 就像我说的 Yeah, she was nice, like I said.
但后来就不友善了 Until she wasn't.
她突然攻击你啊 She turned on you, huh?
像一只患狂犬病的松鼠 就这样 Like a rabid squirrel, just
你还记得为了什么事吗 You remember why?
你为什么这么问 Why are you asking?
该死的 拉里 我以为我们只是在聊天 Shit, Larry, I thought we were just talking.
我们在聊天 Is that what we're doing?
我是在聊天 That's what I'm doing.
她上我的车时还好好的 She got into my van just fine.
她看了看我的脚踏车和清洁用品 She looked at my bike and my cleaning supplies.
她问我是不是本地人 以及我为何蓄留这么大的角鬓 She asked if I live locally, and why I had such big burnsides.
她称角鬓为鬓角 She called them sideburns.
我跟她说了重演的事 I told her about reenactments,
她也问了很多好问题 and she asked really good questions, you know?
她很好奇 也很聪明 She was so curious and so smart.
所以我吻了她 And so I kissed her.
就在那时 她变得不友善了 简直可怕 扇我耳光又打我 And that's when she turned mean. Just awful, slapping me and hitting me.
我只好用沾了起动液的抹布来制服她 And I just had to rag her with the starter fluid.
我必须这么做 I had to.
之后我们行驶了一段路 So we drove for a little while.
我想找个不错 安静的小地方 I was trying to find, like, a nice, quiet, little place.
我后来找到了 尽管不知道那是什么地方 And I did, even though I didn't know where I was
也不知道我们要去哪里 但我找到了一个地方 or where we were going, but I found one.
接着发生了什么事 Then what happened?
我… I-- Well, I, you know.
我进到车后座 和她一起 我又用抹布捂了她几次 I went into the back of the van with her, and I ragged her a few more times.
她一直醒过来 She kept waking up?
她抓了我 She scratched me.
很用力 伤痕很深 So hard. It was deep.
后来当我清理她指甲下的肉时 And when I cleaned out the flesh from under her nails later on,
发现里面有很多我的肉 there was a lot of me under there.
很多很多 A lot of me.
你有没有和她发生关系 You have sex with her?
我就知道你会问这个 没有…很奇怪 I knew you were gonna ask that. No-- It's weird.
我不太记得了 I don't totally remember.
我就像是失去知觉 然后就像做梦一样 It was like I blacked out, but then it was like I was in a dream
我看到自己在打她 在用布捂她 where I see myself beating on her and ragging her,
在打她 在用布捂她 beating on her and ragging her.
然后我醒了 她没穿衣服 And then I woke up, and her clothes were off,
我也没穿衣服 and my clothes were off.
所以我… So, I…
我想我们做爱了 I think we had sex together.
听起来是这样 兄弟 Sure sounds like it, buddy.
然后她哭了起来 Well, then she started to cry.
她们有时会这样 Sometimes they do that.
她们以为自己想要 They thought they wanted it,
但事后又改变主意 but they changed their mind after the fact.
不 她哭着要找她妈妈 Well, no, she was crying for her mother.
她这么做啊 She was, huh?
“我要我妈妈 "I want my mommy.
带我去找妈妈” Just take me to my mommy."
我不喜欢那样 I did not like that.
这让我很生气 它毁了一切 It made me mad. It ruined everything.
因此 我带她下了货车 So, I took her out of the van,
然后把她带到了田地深处 and I walked her pretty far back into the field.
我找到了一棵树 我之前做了这个… And I found this tree, and I had made this…
像是用两条皮带绑在一起做成的工具 Tool, I guess, that I had made by putting two leather belts together.
我有这么一根棍子 And I had this stick--
我让她背靠着树坐下来 Well, I told her to sit down with her back against the tree.
我不想看到她的脸 你懂吗 I didn't want to see her face, you know?
然后 And,
是的 然后我迅速地 把那两条皮带绕在她脖子上 So yeah, so then I quickly whipped the two belts around her neck,
拉紧了并插入棍子 and I squeezed and put the stick in.
我就开始拧它 就像那种… I just started twisting it, like one of those…
叫什么来着 What do you call it…
-止血带 -就是止血带 - Tourniquet? - Tourniquet, exactly.
是的 Yeah.
我就一直拧 直到她停止发出… I just kept twisting until she stopped making…
就是 You know.
声音 Sounds.
听起来你也是迫不得已 Well, it sounds like you did what you had to do.
没说过什么十分恶心的话 只是奇怪的话 Never said anything totally gross, just off.
他说的话总是很奇怪 Always off.
怎么说 How?
他会说：“你的脚踝真漂亮” He'd be like, "You have really pretty ankles."
或他有一次对我说：“你的耳垂熟透了” Or, said to me once, "Your earlobes are very ripe."
那是拉里闲聊的方式 That was Larry making small talk.
其他时候 他就会坐在 其中一张野餐长椅上盯着你看 Other times, he'd just sit at one of the picnic benches and just stare.
而如果有时候你被他烦死了 And, if it got to you like sometimes it did,
你会问：“拉里 怎么了 ” you'd be like, "Larry, what's up?"
他就会说：“你知道大多数的 清洁剂都含有碱液吗 ” And he'd be all, "Did you know that most cleaners contain lye?"
然后他会要你去他的货车里 看清洁剂的成分 And then he'd want you to go to his van and look at the list of ingredients.
-你去过吗 -当然没有 - Did you ever go? - Fuck no.
你知道有谁去过吗 You know anyone who did?
没有 这里没有 我们全都怕了他 Not around here, no. We were all creeped out by him.
然后 当他开始送我东西 Then, when he started to give me stuff…
他送你东西 He gave you stuff?
曾经送我一对耳环 A pair of earrings once.
小挂盒 A locket.
一双用过的芭蕾平底鞋 Pair of used ballet flats.
是你的尺码吗 Were they your size?
是的 让人感到更加不舒服 Yep. Made it worse.
你有没有可能还保存着任何一件 No chance you kept any of this stuff?
我们每个季末都会有失物招领大甩卖 We have a lost and found sale at the end of every season.
有一样东西我没扔掉 There is one thing that I didn't throw away.
我们最后一次见到他时 他给了我这个 Last time we ever saw him, he gave me that.
我从没骑过它 一次也没有 I never rode it, not once.
每次看到它 我都感到恶心 Every time I look at it, it makes me wanna take a shower.
我妈妈说我一直是个乖孩子 My mother said I was never any trouble
除了当我执着于我想要的东西 except when I fixated on something I wanted,
就像是一只狗盯上了一块猪排 like a dog on a pork chop.
因此她把我想要的东西说成我的猪排 So that's what she'd call it. My pork chop.
六岁时 我的猪排是条金鱼 When I was six, my pork chop was a goldfish.
九岁时 是一包蝴蝶发夹 When I was nine, it was a pack of butterfly hair clips.
五彩缤纷的 Multicolored.
但我最大的猪排 是让我十分着迷 But my biggest pork chop, the one I obsessed over
也必须等我过13岁生日 and had to wait until my 13th birthday for,
而且还得挣够五个月的零花钱才能得到的 and still work off five months' allowance to get,
它是一辆越野脚踏车 was a mountain bike.
我算过了 我活了超过五千天 I did the math. I lived over 5,000 days.
超过十三万五千个小时 Over 135,000 hours.
那些都是属于我的时间 All that time was mine.
一个人可以死 但所活过的日子无法抹去 You can die, but you can't un-live.
我活过了 I lived.
这里 Here.
以及这里 And here.
太美好了 It was great.
这并不足够 It's not enough.
胡说 That's bullshit.
听说过证据链吗 Heard of chain of evidence?
我们有证人能肯定霍尔给了她这个 We have a witness who swears Hall gave it to her.
这脚踏车的序列号呢 Where's the serial number of the bike?
有人用酸液把它灼掉了 Someone burned it off with acid.
没有办法确凿地证明 这是杰西卡罗奇的脚踏车 There's no way to conclusively prove that this is Jessica Roach's,
除非上面同时有霍尔和罗奇的指纹 unless matching fingerprints of both Hall and Roach are found on it.
已经过了四年 我敢说不可能找到了 And after four years, I'm fairly confident it won't be.
我们有几位目击证人 指认拉里霍尔出现在… We have witnesses who place Larry Hall in the area…
我不会再接新案子了 I'm not trying a new case here.
他声称雷特勒所埋的地方… Where he claimed to have buried Reitler…
我所要辩护的是第二次上诉 I'm defending against a second appeal.
他也是在那地方 把杰西卡罗奇的脚踏车给了别人 And where he gave someone Jessica Roach's bike.
这并不足够 It's not enough.
还差得远 Not even close.
但你们做得很好 But you did great work here.
真的做得很好 这真是一流 You did. This is top-fucking-notch.
嘿 看着我 Hey, look at me.
你们是做得很好 但还不足够 You did. But it's not enough.
怎样才算足够 What would be enough?
我不知道 I don't know.
但这些还不算足够 But this ain't it.
詹姆斯 James?
詹姆斯 James.
詹姆斯 你睡了吗 James, you up?
好吧 晚安 Well, good night.
睡个好觉 Sleep well.
（改编自著作《与魔鬼同行》）
（詹姆斯基恩和希勒尔莱文著）
字幕翻译：萧碧霞