我们要有宝宝了 We are having a baby.
早 肖恩 Morning, Shaun.
你在看我睡觉吗 Were you watching me sleep?
是的 Yes.
我们要有宝宝了 We are having a baby.
这个宝宝让我觉得自己像是 And that baby is making me feel like
吃了过期三个月的寿司 I ate three-month-old sushi.
早上好 浆果 Good morning, Berry.
你为什么要让妈妈有这种感觉 Why are you making Mommy feel this way?
我们要给他取名叫浆果吗 Are we naming it Berry?
暂时是 因为他只有蓝莓那么大 For now, because he's the size of a blueberry.
我能想象你的脸长在 I can just picture your face
一个蓝莓大小的宝宝身上 on a little blueberry-sized baby.
第七周 胚胎就长出了有蹼的手和脚 At week seven, the fetus has developed webbed hands and feet,
而你已经开始形成粘液栓了 and you have started to form a mucus plug.
你的口气真要命 肖恩 Ooh, your breath is killing me, Shaun.
我刷了两次牙因为我以为我们可能会做爱 I brushed my teeth twice because I thought we might have sex.
牙膏里的薄荷味... The mint from the... the toothpaste is, um...
让人... It's... Mm-mm.
别一副脑补我没穿衣服的傻笑样了 Stop smirking like you're picturing me naked.
不用脑补 已经看过了 Don't have to picture it. Saw it already.
你晚了点 You're running a little late.
我昨晚耽误你太长时间了吗 Did I keep you up too long last night?
别自我陶醉了 Don't flatter yourself.
我没迟到 而且昨晚也没有那么久 I'm not late, and it wasn't that long.
你要干什么 What are you doing?
给我们俩遮雨 Shielding us from the rain.
你以为这是在拍《恋恋笔记本》吗 What do you think this is, The Notebook?
下雨了 我给你撑伞 It's raining, and I shared my umbrella.
发生关系不代表我俩有什么 Having sex doesn't make us a thing.
我们得划清界限 We need to make clear boundaries.
我不需要你的浪漫之举 I don't need romantic gestures from you.
我只是给你撑伞 并没有求婚 I shared my umbrella. I didn't propose.
但我已经清楚地听到了你的信息 But I hear your message loud and clear.
你讨厌我 我讨厌你 You hate me, I hate you.
今晚见 See you tonight?
需要帮忙吗 Can I help you?
你好 克莱尔 Hello, Claire.
我叫迈尔斯·布朗 My name's Miles Browne.
我是... I'm...
你父亲 your father.
你到这来干什么 What are you doing here?
长时间以来我都欠你很多答案 而且... I've owed you a lot of answers for a long time, and...
回家吧 Go home.
我只是 I just, uh...
我希望 我是位更好的 Well... Well, I wish I... I was a... a better...
我不希望你... I don't want you to...
你能把胳膊抬起来吗 Can you lift your arms?
别放下 Keep them up.
好 跟着我说 Okay. Repeat after me.
「覆水难收 后悔无益」 "Don't cry over spilled milk."
覆水... D-Don't...
蓝收... F-fry...
得送你去医院 We need to get you to the hospital.
我觉得你中风了 I think you're having a stroke.
良 医
第四季 第十三集
快步舞是我的报应 The quickstep is my nemesis.
我失足摔在了一位九十岁的法官身上 I lost my footing and landed on a 90-year-old judge
撞到了他的手肘 with very sharp elbows.
尽管我没事 他还是坚持让我来医院 And he insisted I come in even though I'm fine.
只是有点酸痛 Just a little sore.
对 但玛雅觉得「有点酸痛」 Yeah, but Maya's "a little sore"
对普通人来说就是酷刑了 is a normal person's excruciating.
接受我的表扬吧 宝贝 Take the compliment, babe.
你在发抖 You're shivering.
腹部紧张且肿胀 The abdomen is tense and distended.
她有低血压 She's hypotensive.
我们得做超声波检查 We need to do an ultrasound
看看有没有急性腹部损伤 to check for acute abdominal injury.
我没事 I'm fine.
你什么时候开始觉得头晕的 When did you start feeling lightheaded?
大约一小时之前 About an hour ago.
腹部的内容物有明显压力 There is significant pressure in the abdominal contents.
这是什么意思 What does that mean?
她有腹膜后出血 She has a retroperitoneal bleed.
我们要马上给你做手术 We need to get you into surgery right away.
你好 布朗先生 Hi, Mr. Browne.
我是艾伦医生 I'm Dr. Allen.
这是朴医生 This is Dr. Park.
你感觉如何 How are you feeling?
好多了 Much better.
我知道克莱尔的美貌遗传谁了 I see where Claire gets her good looks.
血压看上去很好 124/83 BP looks good. 124 over 83.
你以前有过这些症状吗 Have you had these symptoms before?
我有时偏头痛时也会这样 Happens sometimes when I get migraines.
我一有压力就会偏头痛 Migraines come when I'm stressed.
覆水难收 后悔无益 Don't cry over spilled milk.
听着 我不想占用你太多时间 Look, I don't want to take up too much of your time,
我们能找个安静的地方谈谈吗 but is it possible we can go somewhere quiet and talk?
也许我们可以喝杯咖啡或吃点点心 Maybe we could grab a coffee or dessert.
你以前喜欢吃石板路冰淇淋 You know, you used to love rocky road ice cream.
这还是你最喜欢的口味吗 Is that still your favorite flavor?
你刚刚出现了严重的神经问题 You just had a major neurological event.
我们需要做CT扫描来查明原因 We need to run some CT scans to identify the cause.
找到出血点了 钳子 Found the bleeder. Clamp.
需要打开腹膜后间隙来止血 Need to open up the retroperitoneal space and pack.
血压还在下降 BP's still dropping.
她不凝血 She's not clotting.
她有血友病或凝血障碍的病史吗 She have any history of hemophilia or bleeding disorder?
-没 -推注新鲜血浆 血栓素和纤维蛋白原 - No. - Push FFB, TXA and fibrinogen.
加上更多棉垫 排出血肿 Pack more lap pads and evacuate the hematoma.
血压在上升 Pressure's rising.
这位年轻女士 This young lady almost died
差点因为撞到手肘丧命 from a collision with an elbow.
她一定还有别的问题 There must be something else going on here.
把问题找出来 Find out what it is.
我们先扫描你的腹部 We'll start by scanning your abdomen.
我扶你上床 I'll help you up on the bed.
你说得对 You were right.
不是偏头痛 It wasn't a migraine.
我是癌症晚期 I have terminal cancer.
他的肿瘤医生已经给他开始化疗了 His oncologist started him on chemo.
肿瘤缩小了 但是迈尔斯没有做完 It shrunk the tumor, but Miles didn't finish it.
癌细胞转移到的地方 The location of the metastases
还是不太好做手术 still likely leaves it inoperable.
我不知道 I don't know.
如果我们使用肝动脉 If we use transcatheter
化疗栓塞术 hepatic artery chemoembolization,
我们也许可以攻击肿瘤 保住肝脏 we might be able to attack the tumor and spare his liver.
克莱尔 你觉得呢 Claire? What do you think?
这要由病人来决定 It's the patient's decision.
你应该去问他 You should take it to him.
让他来决定 Let him decide.
你的血小板体积异常大 You have abnormally large platelets.
这是一种罕见的巨血小板综合征 It's a rare condition called Bernard-Soulier syndrome,
它让你的血液很难凝固 which makes it very difficult for your blood to clot.
所以你在手术中差点失血而亡 It's why you almost bled out during surgery.
治得好吗 她会没事吗 Is it treatable? Will she be okay?
治不好 不过可以控制 There's no cure, but it is manageable.
小心疼痛 淤青 Keep an eye out for pain or bruising
以及其他难以消失的症状 or any other symptoms that don't go away.
那有可能是更大问题的征兆 That can be a sign of a larger problem.
只是肌肉拉伤 It's just a pulled muscle.
你又不知道 You don't know that.
我的左腿疼了几个星期了 My left leg has been bothering me for a few weeks.
几个月了 Months.
我不是反应过度 I'm not overreacting.
我们要给你的臀部和股骨照一个CT We'll need to run CTs of your hip and femur
排除骨关节炎或隐性骨折 to rule out osteoarthritis or an occult fracture.
214 莉亚·迪拉罗 信息技术部主任
-感觉怎么样 -奇怪 - How does that feel? - Weird.
好点了吗 Better?
当然 Sure.
为什么我要这个 Why do I need this?
背痛是孕期常见症状 Back pain is a common symptom of pregnancy.
只是预防 It's preventative.
你要一天吃两次这个 与食物或牛奶同服 You should take these twice a day with food or milk,
最好是食物 preferably food.
我已经在吃孕期维生素了 I already have prenatal vitamins.
你的是咀嚼软糖维生素 You have the chewable gummy kind.
药丸对胎儿更好 Tablets are better for the fetus.
你可不可以不要叫它胎儿了 Will you please stop calling it a fetus?
是胎儿啊 It is a fetus.
是我们的宝宝 It's our baby.
我不需要你这样做 肖恩 I don't need you to do any of this, Shaun.
那你需要我做什么 What do you need me to do?
就当个爸爸 而不是医生 Just be the dad, not the doctor.
你觉得我要喝这个 Do you think I'm gonna drink this?
里面是什么 What's in it?
尿 唾液 热带鱼 Urine? Saliva? Tropical fish?
咖啡 Coffee.
朴医生 要和你讨论下我们的移植手术病人 Dr. Park, need to talk to you about our implant patient.
我们再做一次分层厚皮移植 Let's do an additional split-thickness skin graft.
这个手术很耗时而且很复杂 That's a pretty long and complicated procedure.
如果你要做手术 If you're gonna scrub in,
你可能比我更需要咖啡因 you'll probably need the caffeine more than I do.
我听到你最近睡得很晚 I hear you've been keeping some pretty late nights.
术前摄入太多咖啡因会导致手不稳 Too much caffeine before surgery leads to unsteady hands.
我保证 我休息够了 I can assure you, I'm well-rested.
我不需要咖啡 I don't need the coffee.
你父亲拒绝手术 Your father refused surgery.
他口齿不清是化疗的副作用 His slurred speech was a side effect of chemo.
治疗几乎要了他的命 Treatment almost took him out.
他不想再试了 He doesn't want to try again.
谢谢你告诉我 Thanks for letting me know.
我知道许多女孩没有父亲 I know a lot of girls who didn't have their fathers,
但你父亲做了她们的父亲没做的 but yours did something theirs didn't.
他回来了 He came back.
他回来了 为了让自己不内疚 He came back to absolve himself of guilt.
我不会让他得逞的 It's a gift I'm not giving him.
那是他该承受的负担 That's his burden to carry.
原谅不是为了需要被原谅的人 Forgiveness isn't for the one you're forgiving.
是为了你自己 It's for you.
是迈尔斯 It's Miles.
他的肝脏在出血 His liver's bleeding.
走 Go.
他们看起来是一对很好的情侣 They seem like a very nice couple.
很... 亲密 Very... connected.
我真希望自己知道该怎么做 I wish I knew how to be like that.
他们不是情侣 They're not a couple.
利奥是同性恋 Leo's gay.
同性恋真能感觉出其他同性恋吗 Can gay people really detect other gay people?
如果你看他的社交网络主页 你也可以 You can if you check out their Instagram.
莫菲医生 Dr. Murphy...
我觉得她不是关节炎 I don't think she has arthritis,
但我不知道那是什么 but I don't know what this is.
她的疾病让她的腿里形成了充血的假肿瘤 Her disorder caused blood-filled pseudotumors in her leg.
血液侵蚀了她的骨头 The blood ate away her bone.
你的肝脏在出血 Your liver was bleeding
因为你的肿瘤供血不足 because your tumor exceeded its blood supply.
这可能引起严重的并发症 It puts you at risk for serious complications,
甚至有生命危险 even a fatal one.
请重新考虑一下手术 Please reconsider the surgery.
我不怕死 I'm not afraid of dying.
我女儿在哪儿 她为什么不来这亲口告诉我 Where's my daughter? Why isn't she here telling me any of this?
我想是时候回家了 I think it's time for me to go home.
3D打印的支架怎么样 What about 3-D-printed scaffolding?
我们可以再造骨头形状 移植新的干细胞 We could re-create the shape of the bone, graft new stem cells,
异体移植 促进新的增长 and allograft onto it to generate new growth.
她潜在的病情会侵蚀新的骨头 Her underlying disorder would eat away the new bone.
不管我做什么 莉亚都感到烦 朝我发火 Everything I do upsets Lea and makes her mad at me.
我猜我在这就是因为这个吧 Oh. That's what I'm doing here, I'm guessing?
对 Mm-hmm. Yes.
你俩在这 是因为我有两个问题 You're both here because I have two questions.
如果我告诉我的病人她的股骨坏死了 When I tell my patient her femur bone is destroyed,
她会问我能不能保住她的腿 she is going to ask if I can save her leg,
我没法回答那个问题 and I don't have an answer to that.
莉亚和我很相爱 我们快有宝宝了 Lea and I are in love. We're going to have a baby.
我们现在应该觉得很幸福 We should feel very happy right now,
但我感觉像是跟个陌生人住在一起 but I feel like I'm living with a stranger
那人还不喜欢我呼气到她脸上 who doesn't want me to breathe on them.
我们可以做一个可扩展的 We could do an expandable
植入式假肢 osseointegrated limb replacement.
-太冒险了 -要做太多手术了 - Too risky. - Too many surgeries, yeah.
你要有孩子了 肖恩 Well, you're gonna have a kid, Shaun.
你 你不能指望所有东西都一成不变 You... you can't expect everything to be the same.
莉亚正在经历很多变化 Lea's going through a whole lot of changes.
你们都在经历 You both are.
不 我没有变 N-No, I'm the same.
或许那正是问题所在 肖恩 Well, maybe that's the problem, Shaun.
你现在身处一段包括三个人的关系之中 You're in a relationship with three people now.
你总要做些调整改变 You're gonna have to make some adjustments.
你们都要 Both of you.
好吧 Okay.
我们可以用高密度的聚乙烯材料 We could use high-density polyethylene
把股骨末端固定到肌腱上 on the distal femoral segment to anchor it to the tendons.
我不喜欢调整改变 I don't like adjusting.
你要见我 You wanted to see me?
如果我们放他出院 他会死的 If we discharge him, he's going to die.
我不指望你对迈尔斯有除了鄙视外的情感 I don't expect you would feel anything but contempt for Miles.
他本该照顾你 但他没有 He was supposed to take care of you, and he didn't.
现在我在求你为他做他没能为你做过的事 And now I'm asking you to do for him what he never did for you.
不 他有照顾过我 No, he did take care of me.
只是他后来放弃了 He just quit.
他曾每天来接我放学 He used to pick me up every day after school.
后来 有一天 他没有来 And then, one day, he just stopped showing up.
后来很多年 我一回到家 And for years after, I would come home,
就会确保窗帘都拉开了 然后我就等 I'd make sure the curtains were open, and I'd wait.
如果有辆车在屋子前慢下来 If a car slowed down in front of the house,
我会幻想那是他回来接我 来拯救我 I'd imagine it was him coming to grab me up and rescue me,
我以为只要我足够想他 他就会回来 and I thought if I wanted it enough, he'd come back.
所以我只要 我只要更加用力想他 So I just... I just had to want it more, you know?
最后 我放弃了 我不再看向窗外 And finally, I gave up. I stopped looking out the window.
很久以前我就哀悼过埋葬过我父亲了 I grieved and buried my father a long time ago, and I'm just...
现在我不想去了解他 I'm not interested in getting to know him
只为了再哀悼他一次 just to grieve him all over again.
但他仍是你的父亲 你也仍是你 But he's still your father, and you're still you.
如果你现在离他而去 有一天你会恨自己 Some day you'll hate yourself if you turn your back on him.
我们会把钛合金假体 We would secure the titanium prosthetic
固定在髋臼和胫骨上 to the hip socket and tibia
用骨水泥椎体增加支撑和稳定性 using cement augmentation for stability and support.
你会获得全方位的灵活性和活动范围 You would have full flexibility and range of motion,
辅以理疗 你应该可以重新开始跳舞 and with physical therapy, you should be able to dance again.
前提是你能撑过手术 If you survive the surgery.
-我可能死在手术台上 -是的 - I could die? - Yes.
大约有10%至15%的可能性 There is a 10% to 15% chance, approximately.
股骨置换是一个非常复杂的手术 Femur replacement is a very complicated procedure,
再加上你的自身情况 更加冒险 made even riskier by your underlying condition.
最保险的手段是截肢 The safest route is to amputate.
手术过程中几乎不会有严重的并发症 Very little chance of major complication during surgery,
而且现在的假肢有了很大的进步 and there have been great advancements in prosthetics.
我的舞蹈生涯就结束了 My dance career would be over.
应该是的 但你能够活命 Most likely, but you would still have your life.
舞蹈就是我的生命 My life is dance.
我... I...
尽一切方法保住这条腿吧 Do whatever it takes to save the leg.
小玛 Oh, My.
这太冒险了 It's too big a risk.
你知道这对我来说意味着什么 You know what this means to me.
但如果我明天可能就死了 But if there's a chance I could die tomorrow,
有一件事我一定要先做 there's something I have to do first.
BGM: Dive by Ed Sheeran
♪ Maybe I played my cards wrong ♪
♪ Oh, just a little bit wrong ♪
♪ Oh, baby, I-I-I ♪
♪ Apologize for it ♪
♪ I could fall, or I could fly ♪
♪ Here in your aeroplane ♪
♪ And I could live ♪
♪ I could die hanging on the words you say ♪
♪ And I've been known to give my all ♪
♪ Sitting back ♪
♪ Looking at every mess that I've made ♪
♪ So don't call me baby ♪
♪ Unless you mean it... ♪
这两位没有睡在一起真是令人难以置信 It is very hard to believe these two are not having sex.
♪ If you don't believe it ♪
♪ Let me know the truth ♪
♪ Before I dive right into you ♪
你今晚过来我家吧 You should come over tonight.
除非你阴茎手术后需要修养一下 Unless you need to rest up for your Franken-penis surgery.
你在领导面前让我难堪 You embarrassed me in front of a superior.
你被开除了吗 Did you get fired?
你被踢出手术了吗 Did you get pulled off the surgery?
我只是在报复你给我那杯发酸的咖啡 I was just getting you back for giving me that rancid coffee.
那只是一杯正常的咖啡 It was coffee.
清咖加一颗奶一块糖 Plain coffee with one cream and one sugar,
跟过去三年 the exact coffee I've seen you have
我每天看见你喝的一样 every day for the last three years.
我只是在对你好 I was being nice.
就像我在你的大头上方撑起一把伞 Same reason I put an umbrella over your gigantic head.
我只是在做一个善良的人 I was being a decent human being.
我们之间什么时候开始要这样了 When did we start doing that?
我怎么知道你没在我的咖啡里下毒 How was I supposed to know you didn't dose my coffee?
因为我不是个情感发育不良的人 你才是 Because I'm not an emotionally stunted person. You are.
任何像是亲密关系的事都让你害怕 Anything that resembles intimacy freaks you out,
然后你就开始攻击对方 手段卑鄙 and you start throwing blows... low ones.
如果约炮让你那样越界 And if hooking up causes you to cross boundaries like that,
那我们还是回到之前吧 it's better to go back to the way things were.
不是朋友 更不是炮友 Barely friends, no benefits.
你爱上他了 You're in love with him.
对吗 Aren't you?
所以你才要做手术吗 Is that why you're having the surgery?
你害怕如果不能跳舞 你会失去利奥 You're afraid that if you lose dance, you lose him?
你冒着生命危险 就为了挽救 You are risking your life to save something that...
不真实的东西 Isn't real.
我和利奥共享我们的生活 Leo and I share a life together.
在任何意义上 我们都是同伴 We're partners in every sense of the word...
那一个除外 Except one.
我的青梅名叫瑞秋 My best friend growing up was a girl named Rachel.
我们在一个宗教信仰虔诚的圈子长大 She and I lived in a very religious community,
大家都默认了我们会结婚 so it was kind of assumed we'd get married.
我对此毫无异议 因为瑞秋她 Which was fine with me, because Rachel was...
漂亮 Beautiful...
聪慧而又有趣 And smart and funny.
我也爱她 And I loved her.
但接着我爱上了街边一个男孩 But then I fell in love with the boy down the street.
他从不知道 我们之间什么也没发生 He never knew. Nothing ever happened between us.
但就好像一瞬间 But it's like all of a sudden,
整个世界 the world...
都被照亮了 Lit up.
接着我意识到我和瑞秋是不够的 And I realized Rachel and I wasn't enough.
我一直在骗自己 也在骗她 I had been lying to myself and to her.
她值得被爱 被需要 She deserved to be loved and wanted in a way that...
能照亮别人世界的那种 Lit up someone's world.
多年来她爱着我 And she spent years loving someone
我却不能给与她那种爱 who could never give her that.
你要告诉利奥你的感受 You need to tell Leo how you feel.
我们分享着秘密 分享着痛苦 We share our secrets, our pain.
当我遇到了糟糕的事情 他会倾听 He listens to me when I've had a bad day.
当我害怕 他会握住我的手 He holds me when I'm scared.
我不希望我们的关系有任何改变 I don't want anything to change between us.
BGM: Falling like the Stars by James Arthur
♪ I swear to God When I come home ♪
♪ I'm gonna hold you so close ♪
♪ I swear to God When I come home ♪
♪ I'll never let go... ♪
你想要转个圈吗 Would you like me to spin you?
好 Okay.
♪ Like a river, I flow... ♪
好的 Okay.
♪ To the ocean I know... ♪
♪ Guiding me home... ♪
好了 摇摆让我非常想吐 Okay, the s-swaying is making me feel really pukey right now.
我们下次再跳吧 Can we maybe try this at another time?
♪ We're fallin' like the stars ♪
♪ Falling in love ♪
我感觉 I feel...
与你和孩子分离开了 Disconnected from you and the baby, which...
你和孩子已经紧密联系在一起了 Yes, you are very connected to already,
但是我没有任何感觉 but I don't feel anything.
因为它还不算是个孩子 Because it is not a baby yet.
它只是个胚胎 并且 It is a fetus, and...
它让我女朋友难受 并冲我发脾气 It is making my girlfriend sick and mad at me.
我感到非常 And I feel very...
孤单 Alone.
你是如此 You are being so...
自私 Selfish.
肖恩 我怀着你的孩子 I'm growing your baby, Shaun,
要看书 做检查 and reading books and making appointments
吃掉大瓶大瓶的维他命 and taking vitamins the size of my face
还要全职工作 and working a full-time job.
在这之上 你还要跟我说 And on top of that, you just dropped on me
你对我们的孩子毫无感觉 that you don't feel anything for our baby
还期望我让你感受到爱和理解 and expect me to make you feel love and connected and...
不 你知道 No. You know...
利姆医生建议我跟你谈谈 Dr. Lim suggested I come talk to you.
我知道你值得比我更好的 I know you deserve better than me.
你本该拥有一个父亲 我让你失望了 You deserved a father, and I failed you,
我永远都弥补不了 and I can't make up for that.
我和布蕾兹是高中相爱的 Breeze and I were high school sweethearts.
我们以为可以一起征服世界 We thought we were gonna take over the world together.
那时我们年轻 天真且愚蠢 We were young and naive and stupid.
毕业前布蕾兹就怀孕了 And we got pregnant before graduation.
我当时有霍华德医学院的奖学金 I had a scholarship to Howard,
但它不涵盖家庭房租 but it didn't cover family housing.
所以我放弃了 因为我想要我们的家 So I gave it up, because I wanted to be there.
然而 你离开了你为之放弃奖学金的家 And yet, you left the family you gave it up for.
你本该拿着奖学金的 You should have taken the scholarship.
我们结婚了 起初一切还好 We got married, and we gave it a go for a while.
但是我对布蕾兹的心理疾病束手无策 But I could not handle Breeze's mental illness.
我们分手的时候 她不让我见你 When we broke up, she made it hard to see you.
不要因为你没做到的事责备她 Don't blame her for what you didn't do.
我没有责备她 I am not blaming her.
我那时不成熟 I was immature.
至少她在那儿 At least she was there.
她在我身边 At least she stuck around...
醉着 病着 疯着 Drunk and sick and out of her mind.
我等过你 爱过你 而你离开了 I... I waited for you, and I loved you, and you left.
克莱尔 我一直爱着你 Claire, I've always loved you.
什么都改变不了这一点 Nothing could change that.
我每天都在思念你 I thought about you every single day.
你知道吗 我不在乎 You know, I don't care.
思念远远不够 Thinking about me wasn't enough.
这对我来说毫无意义 It didn't do anything for me at all.
你 You...
你原本可以为我而战 You could have fought for me.
你本可以早点回到我身边 You could have come back before now.
我逃走了 I ran away.
我是个懦夫 I was a coward.
为了逃离我的内疚 我一直没回来 And I stayed away because I was running from my own guilt.
不管你的人生里有没有我 你都该接受这场手术 Whether I'm in your life or not, you should get the surgery.
因为如果你不做手术 Because if you don't...
你仍是懦夫 Then you're still a coward.
我也会害怕 I feel scared, too.
你害怕什么 What are you scared of?
这一切 Everything.
我也不想独自经历这一切 And I don't want to go through this alone.
我不想度过这九个月 I don't want to go through nine months
时刻想着你把这孩子 knowing you view this baby
当成一种身体状况 并对此毫无感觉 as a medical condition you don't feel anything for.
我会怨恨你的 I'll resent you.
而且那使我无比害怕 And that scares me more than anything.
我想让你感到连接 And I want to help you feel connected.
不 抱歉 我们现在没有要做爱 Oh, no, sorry. We're not having sex right now.
我意识到那有误导性了 I realize that was misleading.
我想让你把手放在我的肚子上和浆果说话 I want you to put your head on my belly and talk to Berry.
说些什么呢 About what?
随便什么 Anything.
你好 Hello...
浆果 Berry.
我的患者是个26岁的交际舞演员 My patient is a 26-year-old ballroom dancer
患有巨血小板综合征 with Bernard-Soulier syndrome.
她出现了腹膜后出血 She presented with a retroperitoneal bleed
但现在需要完全置换股骨 but now needs a total femur replacement.
这是种风险很高的手术 It is a very risky surgery.
我是你的父亲 I am your father,
而且我是外科医生 and I am a surgeon.
和它说话 让你好受些了吗 Did that make you feel better to talk to him?
没有 No.
胎儿十八周才能听见声音 A fetus can't hear any sounds until 18 weeks,
而且我们不知道是不是男孩儿 and we don't know if it's a him yet
因为孩子的生殖器官还未发育完全 because it doesn't have fully formed genitals.
我们一会儿做检查见 I will see you at your appointment later.
我觉得你不该来 I don't think you should come.
有可能现在太早 还听不到胎心 There's a chance it's too early to hear a heartbeat,
这会让我难过又害怕 which will make me feel sad and scared.
如果我听到心跳 我会很开心 And if I can hear it, I will feel happy.
不管怎样 你可能什么都感觉不到 And either way, you will probably feel nothing.
这会使我比原本更加孤独 And that'll make me feel more alone than I already do,
所以你就别去了 so you should just not come.
好吧 Okay.
利奥爱玛雅没有玛雅爱利奥多吗 Isn't it possible Leo loves Maya as much as she loves him?
他不想和她做爱又能怎样呢 Does it matter that he doesn't want to have sex with her?
性爱不仅仅是性 Sex isn't just about sex.
这包括亲密关系和内心欲望 It's about intimacy and desire
以及相互肉体的密切接触 and a deep mutual physical connection.
她认为这些要求她都满足 And she thinks she has that.
那是股骨近端的最后一个 That's the last of the proximal femur.
我们先找出远端 Let's get the distal end out.
也许玛雅与利奥的关系十分坚固 Maybe Maya and Leo have such a strong relationship
因为这完全建立在情感交流上 because it's based entirely on an emotional connection.
她血压过低 She's hypotensive.
她的呼吸管周围有分泌物 There are secretions around her breathing tube,
氧饱和度正在下降 and her oxygen levels are dropping.
她的血小板发生了排异反应 She's rejecting the platelets.
停止输入 Stop the transfusion.
加大氧气和呼吸支持 Increase her oxygen and respiratory support.
注射多巴胺和肾上腺素 Start dopamine and epinephrine.
血压是87/52 正在稳定 BP's 87 over 52. She's stabilizing.
但停止输入血小板 But without the transfusions,
出血的风险会越来越高 her risk of bleeding out goes way up.
我们是继续手术还是截肢 Are we going to move forward or amputate?
她的伴侣是监护人 对吧 Her partner's her proxy, right?
他得来做决定 He's got a decision to make.
天啊 My God.
她相信我能守护她的愿望 She trusted me to protect her wishes.
她想要跳舞 And she wants to dance.
你应该尽力救下她的腿 Y-You should try to save her leg.
玛雅深爱着你 Maya's in love with you.
所以她才来做手术 That's why she's having the surgery.
她觉得要是不能再跳舞了 She thinks if she loses dance,
你们的关系就要结束了 your relationship will end.
只有你知道她的选择是否正确 And only you know if she's right.
如果她是正确的 If she is...
如果她失去了腿 意味着 If losing her leg means
失去了她最爱的两样东西 losing the two things she loves most,
那么也许你应该坚守她的愿望 then maybe you should honor her wishes.
但如果她错了 But if she's wrong...
如果你真的爱她并且无论怎样都对她不离不弃 If you do love her and will stay with her no matter what,
那你就应该不惜一切代价挽救她的生命 then you should do whatever it takes to save her life.
我当然爱她 Of course I love her.
毫无疑问 我深爱着她 There's no question that I love her.
所以 唯一的问题就是 So, the only question is...
你有多爱 How much?
迈尔斯很稳定 Miles is stable.
但我们发现CT结果上未检测到巨大的息肉负荷 But we found significant polyp burden not detected on his CT,
我们送去了活检 and we sent to biopsies.
他的癌症是由家族性腺瘤性息肉病引起的 His cancer was caused by familial adenomatous polyposis.
是由基因决定的 That's genetic.
如果你的双亲中有一个患病 50% chance of carrying the gene
那你就有一半的几率是致病基因携带者 if you have an affected parent.
你需要做基因检测 You need to get a genetic test.
即使你拥有那个基因 Even if you have the gene,
定期进行结肠镜检查 我们就可以掌控... with regular colonoscopies, we'll be able to catch it...
谢谢你 Thank you.
这是什么 What's this?
男性 近三十岁 Male, late 20s.
需要双侧腕管松解术 Needs bilateral carpal tunnel release surger
缓解他在美国国际象棋联合会比赛中获得的痛苦 that he got playing in the United States Chess Federation.
你喜欢和凯兰下象棋 You like to play chess with Kellan.
你玩得太差了 你可能会学到一些东西 Your game sucks. Figured you might learn something.
这就是体面人该说的话 This is you being a decent human.
也许有时候也没有那么糟糕 Maybe sometimes it's not terrible.
说得真好 This is delightful.
我也可以给别人 I can give it to someone else.
谢谢 Thanks.
你在你父亲临终前去看望他 高兴吗 Are you glad you went to see your father before he died?
没有 No.
我父亲伤害了我 My father hurt me.
他是个坏人 做过很多坏事 He was a bad man who did bad things.
我早就知道了 I already knew that.
我父亲也伤害了我 他离开了我 My father hurt me, too... By leaving me.
他甚至都没有试着做一个好父亲 He didn't even try to be a good dad.
你为什么这么肯定他没有 How can you be sure he didn't?
也许他确实试过了却没成功 Maybe he did try and he couldn't.
如果你觉得某些事重要 你就会想办法让它成功 Well, if something is important to you, you make it happen.
那要是做不到呢 But what if you can't?
要是你想与你的孩子连接 What if you're trying to connect with your child
就是行不通呢 and it just doesn't work?
对于还不认识的人 It is difficult to feel something
很难感觉到什么 for someone you don't know yet.
你想知道你父亲是什么样的人吗 Do you want to know what kind of man your father is?
你们为什么 为什么要给我截肢 Why... Why would you do this to me?
我说了我愿意冒险 I told you I was willing to take the risk.
我不愿意 I wasn't.
我爱你 我不能拿你的生命冒险 I love you. I couldn't risk your life.
我很抱歉 I'm so sorry.
但我在你身边 But I'm here.
我哪里都不去 I'm not going anywhere.
你不会失去我的 You're not gonna lose me.
我们会渡过这关的 小玛 We're gonna get through this, My.
我们会好好的 We'll be okay.
我睡很多但还是觉得累 I sleep all the time and I'm still tired.
你上一次排便是什么时候 When was your last bowel movement?
说不好 几天前吧 I don't know. A couple days.
肖恩 你来这儿干什么 Shaun, what are you doing here?
-笑一下 -什么 - Smile. - Uh, what?
你牙缝里有东西 There is something in your teeth.
肖恩 Shaun.
你吃很多黑甘草吗 Do you eat a lot of black licorice?
-是的 -你不该吃那么多 - Uh, yes. - You should stop.
过量摄入黑甘草会引起钾水平降低 Eating too much black licorice can lower potassium,
造成疲乏和便秘 which causes fatigue and constipation.
别吃了 Stop eating it.
就这样 That's it?
是的 Yes.
莉亚不想让我陪她去产检 Lea doesn't want me at her OB-GYN appointment.
等候室里有一位女士 There's a woman in the waiting room
长了一颗很有趣的痣 with a very interesting mole.
曼蒂出生那年 The year Maddie was born,
我参加了双倍多的手术 I took on twice as many surgeries.
我 我躲在医院里 I... I hid at the hospital.
我害怕惹我太太生气 I was afraid that I was gonna piss off my wife.
听起来耳熟吗 Sound familiar?
惹我女儿不开心 Upset my daughter.
我以为你很享受当爸爸 I thought you liked being a dad.
我是很享受 我 I did. I...
我只是觉得我不太擅长 我 I just didn't think I was very good at it. I...
我也不是自然而然地学会的 不像 It didn't come naturally to me. Not like...
不像脑部手术 Not like brain surgery.
我错过了许多 I missed a lot.
有时候我想着 如果我给她裹过被子 Sometimes I think if I had been there for the swaddling
给她换过尿布 给她... and for the changing of the diapers and...
看她蹒跚学步 See her first steps, you know?
肖恩 帮你自己一个忙 Shaun, do yourself a favor
尽可能地参与这些点滴 and be there for as many moments as you can.
圣何塞圣文德医院 东门
走观光路呢吗 Taking the scenic route?
车在修 优步又来得太慢 Car needs brakes and Uber's taking forever.
象棋哥们超酷 Chess guy's super cool.
他准备康复期间教我彼得罗夫防御 He's gonna teach me Petrov's Defense while he heals.
我不是故意要在安德鲁斯面前让你难堪 I didn't mean to take things so far in front of Andrews.
我是有点反应过度了 I guess I had a tiny overreaction.
有时候... 我们可以对对方好一点 It's okay for us to be nice to each other... Sometimes.
回家吗 Headed home?
要是你想 我不介意有人陪我 I wouldn't mind some company, if you're up for it.
看吧 See?
好好的 多好 Nice is good.
有时候 Sometimes.
你家见 I'll see you at your place.
利奥呢 Where's Leo?
我不知道 I don't know.
我问他这样就够了吗 I asked him if this could be enough.
我对他来说... If I could be...
他爱我 He loves me.
我是知道的 I knew that.
但这不够 But not enough.
我想我也是知道的 I suppose I knew that too.
只要他在这里 我就不会考虑其他人 As long as he was here, I would never make room for anyone else.
所以我让他走了 So I asked him to go.
我很遗憾 I'm sorry.
没关系 It's okay.
我想肯定有很多好男人 I'm sure there are a ton of great guys
愿意和一个独腿的 who'd want to be with a one-legged,
有慢性鼻出血的失业前舞者在一起 unemployed former dancer with chronic nosebleeds.
很久以来我都好恨你 I've been mad at you for so long.
我... I...
我都感觉不到其他情绪 That I couldn't feel any other emotion.
只有愤怒 Just anger.
恨你 Angry at you.
也恨我自己 一辈子都默默地期盼 Angry at myself for secretly wishing
你会出现在我的门前 you would turn up on my doorstep my entire life.
我以为我已经长大了 I thought I'd outgrown it.
但今天你上手术台的时候 But when you went into surgery today...
我没有感觉到愤怒 I didn't feel anger.
我感到... I felt...
害怕 Fear.
好好休息 Get some rest.
等你好些了 你... When you feel better, you...
你可以带我去吃巧克力蛋糕 You can take me for rocky road.
那仍是我的最爱 That is still my favorite.
我爱你 I love you.
准备好了吗 Are you ready?
你来了 You came.
你好 Hello.
我是肖恩·莫菲 I'm Dr. Shaun Murphy.
我是孩子的爸爸 I'm the dad.
很高兴认识你 孩子爸 Nice to meet you, Dad.
我们刚开始 We just got started.
-你上了哪所医学院 -肖恩 - Where did you go to medical school? - Shaun.
她墙上没有挂文凭 Her diploma is not on the wall.
我想了解一下 I would like to know.
做孩子爸就好了 Just be the dad.
坐那儿 安静点 没什么事做 Sit there, be quiet, do nothing.
那是... Is that the...
是胎心 That's the heartbeat.
在那里 Right there.
我们有宝宝了 We're having a baby.