「良医」前情回顾 Previously on The Good Doctor...
你想让我什么都不要做 You don't want me to do anything.
我每天每分每秒都和你在一起 I spend every minute of every day with you.
既然你觉得我们在一起是需要彼此忍受 Since you feel that our time together is something to be endured,
我就决定让你更自在些 I decided to make that easier for you.
你女儿很漂亮 Your daughter's beautiful.
你要赶快好起来 这样你才能抱着她 Needs you to get better so you can hold her.
我读到过冰冻治疗 I read about the CHILL study.
她是个合适的候选人 我会对她负全部责任 She's a good candidate. I'll take full responsibility for her.
告诉他 他会好起来的 Tell him he's going to be fine.
我做不到 I can't.
大部分用上了呼吸机的新冠患者 The majority of COVID patients
就再也离不开呼吸机了 who go on a ventilator never come off.
戴上口罩 马上 Put on a mask. Now.
是新冠 我们都暴露了 It's covid. We've both been exposed.
我妈妈有条项链 My mother had a necklace.
我会找找看 See if I can find it.
一切都会好起来的 Things will be okay.
早上好 Good morning.
早 肖恩 Morning, Shaun.
真希望你在这 I wish you were here.
我也是 Me, too.
紧急状态
第八周
急诊
早 达利赛 Morning, Dalisay.
早上起来体温40度 Woke up with a temp of 104.
我需要加热湿润的高流量氧气插管 I need heated, humidified oxygen on a high-flow cannula.
妈 慢点 让她先检查你 Mom, slow down. Just let her examine you.
怎么 好让她重复我刚说的话吗 Why, so she can find out exactly what I just told her?
雷兹尼克 你回来了 Reznick. You're back.
生病 好转 检测了两次 Got sick, got better, got tested twice.
总这样争强好胜 Always the overachiever.
雷兹尼克医生 她脉搏血氧值是90 Dr. Reznick, her pulse ox is 90.
我们得收你住院 We need to admit you.
我妈会没事吗 Is my mom gonna be okay?
别担心 我会没事的 Don't worry. I'm gonna be fine.
记住给我的番茄浇水 Just please water my tomato plants,
给达茜一个大大的拥抱 说奶奶很想她 give Darcy a big hug, and tell her Nana loves her so much
迫不及待想再跟她一起玩 and can't wait to play with her again real soon.
好的 妈 Okay, Mom.
犹豫得不错啊 Nice hesitation.
怎么不让他去给我的房子估个价 Why not just suggest he get my house appraised?
抱歉 花了好一会儿才找到 Sorry. It took a while to find it.
新冠肺炎警告 强制体温监测站
谢谢 Thank you.
能拿着项链 并留在我身边 Being able to hold this and keep it with me...
是种联系 It's a connection.
感觉她还在我身边 Like she's still here with me.
本集「良医」根据仍在持续的抗疫实情改编
致敬英雄
医生 护士及其他前线工作者 他们许多人为此献出了生命
尽好本分 戴好口罩
只是些东西而已 克莱尔 不重要了 It's stuff, Claire. It's meaningless now.
每个东西可能讲述了被打断的故事 Each one of these tells an interrupted story,
再也听不到的语音留言 a voicemail that'll never be heard,
一张购物列表 却再也烹饪不了的家常菜 a shopping list for a home-cooked meal that'll never be made.
真美 Beautiful.
为死者的家人做培根蛋酱意面 Cook spaghetti carbonara for a dead guy's family,
然后悲伤就会一扫而空 and the grief is gone.
你是来嘲笑我 还是来帮我的 Are you here to mock me or to help me?
你为什么来这里 Why are you here?
唐纳德·索金 "Donald Sulkin."
我们在降低 We're reducing the pressure
肺部的气压 of air going into his lungs
并监控他的氧含量 and watching his oxygen level.
目前状况不错 氧含量稳定 So far, so good. O2 steady.
好 Okay.
对 但他的呼气末二氧化碳含量在下降 Yes. But his end tidal CO2 is falling.
这是什么意思 What does that mean?
比氧含量下降强 但强不到哪去 It's not as bad as his O2 falling, but still not good.
重新上压力支持通气 Turn the pressure support back up.
呼气末二氧化碳含量还是很低 End tidal CO2 is very low, not improving.
出什么事了 What's going on?
我认为他肺里有血栓 I think he has a blood clot in his lung,
导致气体交换困难 interfering with his gas exchange.
给他推肝素 先用滴注 Give him a bolus of heparin, start him on a drip.
带他去导管室 Let's get him to the cath lab.
-我们走 -出什么事了 - Let's go. - What's going on?
你们要把他带到哪去 Where are you taking him?
安德鲁斯医生 Dr. Andrews?
莫菲医生 Dr. Murphy?
马丁 Martin.
这是等渗压盐溶液 也就是盐水 This is isotonic saline, salt water.
四摄氏度 It's 4 degrees Celsius.
我要把它注入你的血液中 I'll run this into your bloodstream
直到你的体温降到34摄氏度 until your body temperature drops to 34 degrees Celsius.
我给你的麻醉药能让你 The paralytic I gave you will stop you from shivering
在低温使你的心脏 大脑和所有代谢减缓时 while the cold slows your heart, your brain,
不出现寒颤 all metabolic functions.
所有省下来的能量 All the energy saved there
都会被用于治疗你的肺 will go towards healing your lungs.
你的孩子在等着你 Your baby's waiting for you.
凯兰 未接来电
皮特 跟上他 Pete, follow him.
皮特 跟上他 他有斧子 Pete! Follow him! He's got the axe.
刚刚有人开枪打我 I was getting shot at.
掩藏好踪迹 重新装弹 然后去塔那边 Well, stay low, reload, and head for the temple.
别晃悠了 Stop messing around.
AG24 你怎么了 你还好吗 AG24, what's up with you? You okay?
我挺好的 我在凌晨三点 Yeah, yeah, I'm hunting for the legendary Tusk of Ganesh
打象神之牙这套传奇装备 因为一切都棒极了 at 3 in the morning because everything's just super.
我出不去家门 睡不着觉 上不了班 Can't go out, I can't sleep, I can't go to work.
新冠时期就这样 什么事都一团糟 Welcome to COVID. Everything sucks.
行 这话可真振奋人心 Great. Good... good pep talk.
你们都一个人睡吗 You all sleeping in an empty bed?
对 Yeah.
感觉就像我杀了条小奶狗 It's like I killed a puppy or something.
皮特 皮特 小心 Hey, Pete. Pete, heads up.
那个堡垒里很可能有... The fortress is a perfect place for an...
行 皮特死了 Okay. Pete's dead.
你应该道个歉 You should apologize.
接着玩吧 Just play the game.
哪怕只是嘴上说说呢 Not saying you have to mean it.
我觉得你该道个歉 Just saying you should apologize.
你可真行 That's... that's great.
教我做伪君子 Be a hypocrite.
你结婚了吗 You married?
我才15岁 I'm 15.
那可真谢谢你分享的人生经验了 Oh, well, thank you for a lifetime of wisdom.
之前我女朋友无缘无故地对我发脾气 My girlfriend was pissed at me for something I didn't even do,
可我道歉了 所以现在我们和好了 but I said sorry, and now we're back together.
就算我是个伪君子 Maybe I'm a hypocrite,
我也是个有女朋友的伪君子 but at least I'm a hypocrite with a girlfriend.
快起来了 我们得中午前赶去市中心 Up and at 'em. We gotta be downtown by noon.
我们赶不上抗议活动了 Oh, yeah, we're late for the protest.
必须得解除州里得紧急状态 Gotta get this state opened up...
脉搏血氧是82 Well, pulse ox is 82.
其他指标看起来不错 Everything else looks okay.
当然 除了我的氧含量持续下降 Sure, other than my steadily declining oxygen levels,
我简直就是健康的范本 I am the picture of health.
咱们想想口号吧 Let's start making signs. Oh.
我想了一个 I'm thinking...
「不要践踏我杀你的权利」 "Don't tread on my right to kill you."
「让我自由 让我死亡」 怎么样 How about, "Give me liberty and give me death"?
我得走了 I need to go.
没有 Nothing.
十多年都没有叫索金的病人 We haven't had a patient named Sulkin in over 10 years.
死亡并不会因为你所爱的人 Being dead doesn't change
想得到纪念物而改变 because your loved one gets a memento back.
总是不断怀念死去的人 And fixating on dead people
并非生活 it's not a life.
怎么会有不重要的员工 How can anyone not be answering their phone right now
现在不接电话呢 if they're not an essential worker?
你想打给哪个不重要的员工 Well, what nonessential worker are you trying to reach?
莉亚 Lea.
现在大家不出门了 People don't go out anymore,
但还是得去厕所 but they do still go to the bathroom.
这已经是这一个小时内 This is the second time in an hour
她第二次没接电话了 克莱尔 she hasn't picked up, Claire.
我们在不断了解这个疾病 We keep learning more things about this disease.
这 It's...
我不知道 I don't know.
这不对 It's not right.
我们爱你 外婆 We love you, Grandma.
妈 我很抱歉 Mom, I'm so sorry.
我爱你 I love you.
我想让你知道 我们会没事的 And I want you to know that we'll be okay.
我们爱你 We love you.
他走了 He's gone.
她走了 She's gone.
他们走了 They're gone.
紧急状态
第九周
并不总是快乐的 It's not always fun.
不管你指什么 对 不总是 Whatever you're talking about, no, it isn't.
但是你指什么 But what are you talking about?
你爱米娅吗 Do you love Mia?
当然爱 Of course I do.
你爱她什么 What do you love about her?
我爱她 因为她爱我们的儿子 I love that she loves our son.
我爱她和他说话的样子 I love how she talks to him,
她知道他想些什么 需要什么 how she knows what he's thinking, knows what he needs.
我也觉得 I thought so.
你觉得什么 You thought what?
你爱凯兰 You love Kellan.
喂 你好吗 Hello. Are you okay?
对不起我没有接你的电话 I'm sorry I didn't pick up when you called.
我不想让你心烦 I didn't wanna upset you.
-这样没用 -我嗓子疼 - It didn't work. - I had a sore throat,
所以我去检测了新冠 是阴性 so I got tested for COVID, and I'm negative.
新冠检测的假阴性率很高 COVID tests have a high percentage of false negatives.
肖恩 我感觉很好 Shaun, I feel fine now.
那不代表你没有得新冠 That doesn't mean you don't have COVID.
我得去上班了 I need to go to work.
你的新工作适应得怎么样了 How are you adjusting to your new specialty?
挺好的 我喜欢做内科医师 It's great. Love being an internist.
我差点就信了 Well, I'm convinced.
你真的不太擅长和清醒的人打交道 Dealing with conscious people isn't really your thing.
我挺好的 I'm fine.
你有点无礼 粗鲁 You're rude, abrasive,
但现在却必须要友善待人 and now you've gotta hold people's hands and be nice.
这是个很大的调整 It's a huge adjustment,
我被弄得疲惫不堪 and I find it completely draining.
你满意了吗 You happy?
「友善待人」有很多种不同的方式 There's a lot of different approaches to "nice."
不然我也不能坚持做护士四十年 Otherwise, I wouldn't have lasted 40 years as a nurse.
你会找到你自己的方式 You'll find your own.
也有可能不会 Or maybe you won't.
总的来说 一切都在好转 Overall, everything's looking up.
入院的病人变少了 Fewer patients coming in.
当他们来的时候 我们越来越 When they do, we're getting better at...
伙计 Hey, buddy.
很抱歉我一直没接你的电话 I'm sorry I keep missing your calls.
我有个病人 I've got this patient.
你记得我跟你说过的那个产妇吗 You know the mom of the baby I told you about?
我基本上是让她进入了假死状态 I basically put her into suspended animation,
但是看起来好像没有用 but it doesn't seem to be helping.
你什么时候来凤凰城 When are you coming to Phoenix?
我还不知道 I still don't know.
但是你会来我的毕业典礼的 对吧 You're going to make my graduation party, though, right?
我觉得可能不行 I don't think so.
-这个病人需要 -你 - This patient needs... - You?
没有其他人可以照看她了吗 No one else can take care of her?
我有点冒险了 I kind of went out on a limb on this one.
如果你做出了承诺 那么 Oh, well, if you made a commitment, then...
通话结束
你丈夫的鼻胃管里有血 Your husband has blood in his NG tube.
他正在经历肝素诱发的血小板减少症 He's developed heparin-induced thrombocytopenia.
我们需要停止给他用肝素 We need to stop the heparin.
但那不会让他面临再次得血栓的危险吗 But doesn't that put him at risk for another clot?
是的 如果他不用肝素 Yes, if he's not on the heparin,
他可能会中风 he could have a stroke,
如果他用肝素 他可能会出现致命内出血 and if he's on it, he could have a fatal internal bleed,
而且他依然感染了 and he still has an infection,
所以不能停用抗生素 so we can't stop the antibiotics
不然他会死于败血症 or he'll get sepsis and die.
你所做的只是告诉我我的丈夫可能会怎么死 All you do is tell me new ways that my husband might die.
每次我和你通话 你都会告诉我新的可能性 Every time I talk to you, there's another way.
你知道你在做什么吗 I mean, do you even know what you're doing?
你这样做有什么意义 你太没用了 What is the point of you? You're useless.
我们理解你的沮丧 We understand your frustration.
新冠可能会感染很多器官 COVID targets so many organs.
-严格来说 这是你的错 -肖恩 - Technically, this is your fault. - Shaun.
马丁从没离开过公寓 Martin never left the apartment,
但他还是得了新冠 but he still caught COVID.
一定是你让他感染上的 You must have exposed him to it.
另一方面 我们已经 On the other hand, we are doing
-竭尽所能 -够了 够了 - all that we can to... - That's enough. That's enough.
我们都在经历糟糕的事 We're all going through crap,
但是那位女士的丈夫可能要死了 but that woman's husband may be dying.
她可以发脾气 She's allowed to lash out.
但你不可以 You aren't.
对不起 I'm sorry.
为什么 Why?
什么 What?
你为什么说对不起 What are you sorry about?
所有事 Everything.
吵架 The fight and
你睡在另一间房不理我... you sleeping in the other room and you ignoring me...
所以你为我的行为道歉 So you're sorry because of the way I've been acting.
我在道歉 I'm apologizing.
我觉得你没有 I don't think you are.
我不明白 你赢了 I don't get it. Uh, you won.
我不知道你想要什么 I... I don't know what you want.
我们的意见不能有分歧吗 We... we can't have a difference of opinion?
对 在你是否 No, not when we disagree
对我太刻薄这件事上不能有分歧 on whether you've been mean to me or not.
是你对我刻薄 You've been mean to me.
空中骑兵在越战期间使用机动部队作战
三次任务 Three tours.
直升机飞行员 Helicopter pilot.
他在那次任务中拿到了勋章 Oh, he's got a medal in that one.
看这里 又是这家伙 Hey, look at this, same guy again.
有意思 好像他们是同一个部队的 Funny. Almost as if they were in the same unit or something.
格雷格·拉文 Greg Lavin...
入院病人名单 已故
死在这里 因为新冠 一个月前 ...died here. Covid, one month ago.
喂 是伊妮德·拉文吗 Hello. Enid Lavin?
你好 我是圣何塞圣文德医院的 Hi. This is Dr. Claire Browne
克莱尔·布朗医生 from San Jose Saint Bonaventure.
我对你失去亲人感到很遗憾 I'm so sorry for your loss.
我只想告诉你 I just wanted you to know that
我们找到了你父亲的一些物品 we have found something of your father's.
他服役时的纪念品 军牌 A memento of his service. Dog tags.
不 不是他的 No, not his.
是一个名叫唐纳德·索金的男人 A man by the name of Donald Sulkin.
唐纳德·索金 Donald Sulkin.
谢谢 Thank you.
真奇怪 That's odd.
对 Yeah.
你父亲怎么会带着其他人的军牌五十年 How does your father carry someone else's dog tags for 50 years,
而你却从没听说过这个人 and you have never even heard of him?
你感觉如何 How are you feeling?
我儿子 My son
打算搬去蒙大拿 plans to move to Montana.
要把我孙女带去一千六百多公里以外的地方 Take my granddaughter 1,000 miles away.
为了更好的学校 更清新的空气 The schools are better, air's cleaner.
所以这一切的好处就是 So the upside of all this is...
我不用搬去蒙大拿 I don't have to move to Montana.
这就是你不同意我们 Is that why you haven't okayed us
在你需要时给你上呼吸机的原因吗 putting you on a ventilator if you need one?
我知道呼吸机有什么作用 I know what ventilators do to people.
你记得皮特凯恩医生吗 Do you remember Dr. Pitcairn?
是皮特斯坦 Pitstain.
对 Exactly.
记得我当住院医师第一年时 Remember when I was a first-year resident?
我是两位女性中唯一的有色人种 One of two women, only woman of color.
有人警告我他会让我生不如死 I'd been warned he'd make my life hell.
果然 第二周 And sure enough, second week,
皮特斯坦开始数落我 Pitstain starts tearing into me
缝合的间距不一致 about the spacing of my sutures being inconsistent,
在我快要在众人面前崩溃时 and I'm about to fall apart in front of everybody,
您出现了 but then you stepped in.
指出他在制图中犯的错误 Brought up some charting error he'd made.
一个非常小的错误 A tiny blip of a mistake.
他从来不大写「STAT」 He never capitalized "STAT."
重点就是要让它突出 The whole point is for it stand out.
您以其人之道还治其人之身 Well, you put him back on his heels in front of everybody.
您给了我时间 You gave me time,
让我重新冷静 to regain my composure.
他从没见到我哭 He never got to see me cry.
拜托 如果真的到了那一步 Please, if it comes to it,
请再给我点时间 give me a little time again.
让我来帮您 To help you.
不 不 不 No, no, no!
我不知道该怎么做 I don't know what to do.
我爱莉亚 我想让她爱... I love Lea, and I wanted her to love...
好了 好了 我马上下来 Okay, okay. I'll be... I'll be right down.
好吗 Okay?
我不知道该怎么办了 I don't know what to do.
我爱莉亚 I... I love Lea,
我希望她能爱上我 and I wanted her to love me back,
现在她喜欢我了 但我们不能在一起 and now she does, but we can't be together.
为什么两情相悦却让事情变得更糟糕了 How can loving someone who loves you back make things worse?
这是 Well, that's a...
这是个好问题 That's a good question.
让我们先想想是什么让事情变得糟糕吧 Let's start with what's making things worse.
我觉得 I think...
我可能有点暴躁 I think I may be... cranky.
我以前不暴躁的 I've never been cranky before.
我不喜欢这样 I don't like it.
我想莉亚了 I think I miss Lea.
我担心她得了新冠 I think I'm worried that she has COVID.
所以你会因为见不到某个人而抓狂 So you're going crazy because you can't see someone.
我该怎么办 What am I supposed to do?
在新冠结束之前 我是不是不该和莉亚聊天 Should I not talk to Lea until the pandemic is over?
这是个办法 Well, that's an option.
这是你想要的吗 Is that what you want?
不 不 我不想 我一点也不想这样 No, no, I don't... I don't want that at all.
但是我也不想有这种感觉 But I don't want to feel like this, either.
我想让这种感觉消失 I want this to be over.
我们都不想有这种感觉 肖恩 Well, we all want it to be over, Shaun.
我们都对自己感到厌倦 I mean, we're... we're sick of ourselves,
也厌倦了彼此 we're sick of each other,
或者我们会渴望着一个不能在一起的人 or we're pining for someone we can't be with.
我们感到困惑 不舒服 We're confused. We're uncomfortable.
最重要的是 And on top of everything else,
我们害怕世界再也回不到原来的样子 we're scared that the world will never be the same again.
我不知道 肖恩 I mean, I don't know, Shaun.
我不知道如何解决这种事情 I don't have a map for this kind of thing.
我只能说 Best I can say is...
要善良 be kind.
善待你自己 也善待 Be kind to yourself. Be kind
每一个人 to everyone.
因为还能怎么做呢 'Cause what else is there?
BGM: Total Eclipse of the Heart by Bonnie Tyler
♪ Every now and then I get a little bit lonely ♪
♪ And you're never coming 'round ♪
♪ Turn around ♪
♪ Every now and then I get a little bit tired ♪
♪ Of listening to the sound of my tears ♪
这首歌不错 Oh, this is a nice song.
♪ Every now and then I get a little bit nervous... ♪
我讨厌这首歌 I hate this song.
很好 我也就是客气客气 Good. I was being kind.
马丁也讨厌这首歌 Martin hates it, too.
那 那是我们第一次聊天 It was... It was the first conversation we had,
聊这首歌有多奇怪 talking about how weird this song is.
谁是那双闪亮的眼睛 它又为何举足轻重到 Who is Bright Eyes, and why is it so important
被他们转来转去 that they turn around?
♪ Turn around, bright eyes ♪
♪ Every now and then I fall apart ♪
现在这首歌只是让我想到他 Now it just reminds me of him.
♪ And I need you now tonight ♪
♪ more than ever ♪
也许你是对的 You're probably right.
是我把新冠传染给他的 That he got COVID from me.
♪ We'll be holding on forever ♪
很难 It's hard
想到你爱的人 to think of someone you love
当你不能陪伴在他身边时 when you can't be with them.
♪ Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time ♪
♪ All of the time ♪
他似乎患了胫后动脉血栓 He seems to have a posterior tibial artery thrombosis.
什么 那听起来很糟糕 What... That... That sounds bad.
是的 是一种动脉阻塞 It is. It's a blockage in the artery,
会使他下肢末梢组织缺血从而导致 causing ischemia to his lower extremity tissues due to lack of...
我想对你友好 我想解释 I want to be kind to you, I want to explain,
但这说来话长 but it's a very long explanation,
我也没时间让你生气和难过 and I don't have time for you to get mad and upset...
快去救我丈夫 Just go help my husband.
好的 Okay.
你的各项指标都在下降 Your numbers are falling.
我知道 I know.
你得上呼吸机了 You need a ventilator.
我知道 I know.
我钱包里有个小袋子 There's a pocket in my purse.
拿给我 Reach into it.
「2003年 第七场 美国联盟冠军赛」 "Game 7, 2003, American League Championship."
格雷迪让佩德罗多打了一局 Grady let Pedro go one inning too long.
袜队在系列赛输给了该死的洋基队 The Sox handed the series to the damn Yankees.
我和儿子抱头痛哭 My son and I cried in each other's arms.
从那时起 我就一直带着它们 I've kept them with me ever since.
就好像吉米一直和我在一起一样 It's like Jimmy's always with me.
你并不孤单 You're not alone.
我们都与你同在 You're stuck with all of us.
你能把耳机拿出来吗 Can you take your earbuds out, please?
我不认为我哪里做错了 I don't think that I've done anything wrong,
但也许我想错了 我猜是我错了 but I may be wrong about that. I suspect that I am.
我最近一直想不通 I haven't been thinking straight lately.
医院这是怎么了 What with everything going on at the hospital,
病患不断离世 而我 却在这 people are dying, and I'm... here.
这让我感到无助 And that makes me feel weak.
然后是恐惧 这就让我觉得 And then I feel scared, and that makes me feel
更无助 even more weak.
但后来我觉得待在这 And then I feel relieved and safe
安心又安全 that I'm here,
但这又让我觉得自己是个懦夫 and that makes me feel like a coward.
谢谢你 Thank you.
谢谢吗 "Thank you"?
我只是需要些彼此坦诚的时刻 I just needed an honest moment.
吐露心声 Something
让我知道你实际上是需要我的 to let me know that you actually need me.
另外 And...
对不起 I'm sorry.
我也很抱歉 I'm sorry, too.
儿子 Hi, buddy.
爸爸 Hey, Dad.
对不起 I'm sorry.
我不应该因为你没来凤凰城就生气 I shouldn't have gotten angry about you not coming to Phoenix.
这对你不公平 It wasn't fair.
谢谢你 Thank you.
是你妈妈让你这样做的吗 Did your mother put you up to this?
她是对的 She was right.
我根本没有那么在意那个聚会 I don't even really care about the party that much.
那么问题出在哪儿 Then what was the issue?
咱们没必要聊那个 We don't have to talk about that.
我想知道你在烦恼什么 I wanna know what's bothering you.
我知道你的工作十分重要 I... I know your job is important,
但有时候我只是想感受到 but sometimes I just wanna know
你在意我多过在意工作 you care about me more than you care about the job.
当年你妈妈怀孕时 When your mom got pregnant,
我超级紧张 I was so nervous.
一切都瞬间变得那么真实 Suddenly, everything was real.
突然之间我就重任在肩了 Suddenly, I had a commitment.
我并不确定我准备好了 And I wasn't sure I was ready.
然后你就出生了 And then you were born.
那一刻 真的 就那一瞬间 And in that moment, I mean, that moment,
一切都不一样了 everything changed.
我完完全全地死心塌地地爱你 I was instantly head-over-heels in love with you.
你是我最好的朋友 You were my best friend.
我抱着你 And, uh, I held you,
脱口而出 我说 「你好啊 小家伙」 and the words just came out. I said, "Hi, buddy."
我这辈子从没叫过别人「小家伙」 I'd never called anyone "buddy" before in my life.
但是 But
你就是我的小家伙 you were my buddy.
也许我一次又一次地出错 I may make mistakes over and over again,
但你千万不要那样想 but don't ever think
绝不要认为你不是我生命中最重要的存在 you're not the most important thing in my life.
所以 也就是说 So, basically, you're saying
你对我的爱完全是化学反应是吗 your love for me is like chemical, right?
是的 Yeah.
感谢来电 Thank you for your call.
你的丈夫还在昏迷中 再见 Your husband is still unconscious. Bye.
他怎么样 手术结果如何 How is he? How was the surgery?
安德鲁斯医生将会给您详细说明 Dr. Andrews will explain,
除此之外我不便多说了 but I'd rather not say anything more.
前两次我告诉你那些噩耗时 你都吼了我 The last two times I gave you bad news, you yelled at me.
噩耗 是什么噩耗 Bad news? What... What is the bad news?
好吧 Okay.
我们截掉了马丁的脚和踝关节 We amputated Martin's foot and ankle.
我们现在在尝试再引入凝血剂 We are now trying to reintroduce anticoagulation
让他别再出现更多血栓 so he won't have more clots,
但是他还是会有出血风险的 but he will be at risk for more bleeding.
谢谢你 Thank you.
你确定听懂了吗 Are you sure you understand?
他还带着呼吸机 而且脚也截掉了 He's still on a ventilator, and he... he lost a foot.
你昨天很难过 You were very upset yesterday.
昨天我以为他要死了 Yesterday, I thought he was dying.
但今天他还活着 But today he's alive.
谢谢你 So, thank you.
不用谢 You're welcome.
我可以挂了吗 Can I hang up now?
可以 谢谢... Yes. Yeah, thank...
我猜你厌倦了只能听到我一个人的声音 I figured you're bored of just hearing my voice,
所以我带来了我们共同的朋友 so I brought a mutual friend.
她感染的风险很小 而且不管你还有多少时间 The risks are minimal, and whatever time you have,
都该花点时间和家人在一起 some of it should be with your family.
对 我在找一个叫唐纳德·索金的人 Yes, I'm trying to track down a Donald Sulkin.
查不到 这里没人叫这个名字 Nope, no one here by that name.
好的 抱歉 打扰了 Okay, sorry to bother you.
你打算给北美所有叫D·索金的都打一遍电话 Your plan is to call every D. Sulkin in North America,
就为了让一套军牌物归原主吗 all to return a set of dog tags?
您已接通黛安娜·索金的电话 请... You've reached Diana Sulkin, please...
你想让这个家伙有个圆满的结局 You want a happy ending for this guy.
因为你和我没有结局 'Cause you and I didn't have one.
因为我们永远无从知晓我们的结局 Because we'll never know how our story could've ended.
你好 Hello?
唐纳德·索金在吗 Is Donald Sulkin there?
-抱歉... -你这么做改变不了任何东西 - Sorry... - This doesn't change anything.
什么都改变不了 This can't change anything.
你错了 有改变 You're wrong. It changes things.
这让我感受到了除了悲伤以外的情绪 It makes me feel something besides sad.
我需要那样 我需要走出悲伤 And I need that. I need to not feel sad.
因为一切都糟糕透了 'Cause everything sucks.
一切都让人非常痛苦 Everything hurts like hell.
有人得了新冠 People are sick with... with COVID,
有人患有癌症 有人满心悲伤 with cancer, with grief,
而我们帮不了他们 and we can't help them.
有人死去而我们帮不了他们 People are dying, and we can't help them,
而且更糟的是 你不在这里 and what is worse, you're not there!
痛苦是难免的 It has to hurt.
巨大的痛苦 A lot.
会持续一段时间 For a while.
你妈妈去世的时候 你尽了最大努力 When your mom died, you did everything you could
不去感受任何情绪 to not feel anything. At all.
但这一次 你在直面你的情绪 But this time, you're facing it.
你在伤心 You're grieving.
你在自我治愈 You're healing.
紧急状态
第十二周
时间到了 It's time.
不 不是今天 No. Not today.
就是今天 Today.
我们爱你 妈妈 We love you, Mom.
抱歉 I'm sorry.
没关系 It's okay.
妈妈... Mom...
我爱你 I love you.
再见 Good-bye.
三周后
BGM: Lovely Day by Bill Withers
♪ When the day that lies ahead of me ♪
♪ Seems impossible to face ♪
♪ And when someone else instead of me ♪
♪ Always seems to know the way ♪
她一直在耐心等待 She's been waiting patiently
给她起的名字 to learn her name.
阿里亚 Aria.
我给她取名为阿里亚 I'm going to call her Aria.
♪ My, just one look at you ♪
♪ And I know it's gonna be ♪
♪ A lovely day ♪
♪ Lovely day, lovely day ♪
♪ Lovely day, lovely day, lovely day, lovely day ♪
♪ A lovely day ♪
♪ Lovely day, lovely day, lovely day, lovely day ♪
♪ Lovely day, lovely day ♪
亲爱的 Honey!
♪ A lovely day ♪
♪ Lovely day, lovely day, lovely day, lovely day ♪
我妈妈以前经常提起你 You know, my mom used to talk about you.
很多次 A lot.
她告诉了我你在地震中的所作所为 She told me what you did in the earthquake,
你付出的代价 the price you paid.
她说如果你身边 She said you can rest easy
有个「坚强的雷兹尼克」 if you've got that
你就可以放心了 "tough Reznick" in your corner.
我猜这不是她的原话吧 I'm thinking she didn't exactly phrase it that way, did she?
是的 不是 No. She didn't.
唐纳德·索金 Donald Sulkin?
你有什么事吗 How can I help you?
我是克莱尔·布朗医生 I'm Dr. Claire Browne.
格雷格·拉文上个月在我所工作的医院去世了 Greg Lavin died at my hospital last month.
格雷格 Greg...
他去世时随身戴着这个 he had this with him when he passed.
我在战争结束时把这个给了格雷格 I gave these to Greg at the end of the war.
我们是 We were...
朋友 friends.
谢谢你 Thank you.
刚刚那一幕真美好 That was beautiful.
那对人的故事是那么的简短 That room is filled with stories that were cut short.
就像我们一样 Like ours.
但是你 But you,
你还有大好人生 you have an amazing story ahead.
我等不及要看了 I can't wait to see it.
你能回家吗 You can come home?
我能回家 I can come home.
但是 But...
但是 But?
你爱我吗 Do you love me?
我当然爱你 Of course I love you.
你爱我什么 What do you love about me?
我爱你深爱着我们的儿子 I love that you love our son.
我爱看你们俩聊天 I love watching you two talk.
我爱凯兰和你在一起的那种兴奋 I love the way Kellan lights up when he's with you.
我也爱你 I love you, too.
跟你一样地爱着你 For all the same reasons.
我们都想陪在凯兰身边 And we both wanna be there for Kellan.
事实也如此 And we are.
但是 But...
你和我不在一起也能做到这件事 You and I don't need to be together to do that.
你觉得... Are you okay if...
也许我们不必再来了 Maybe it's time we stopped coming here.
你准备好向前看了吗 You're ready to move on?
没有 No.
但他依旧在我们身边 不是吗 But he'll still be with us, right?
不管我们身处何处 Wherever we are.
他改变了我 He changed me.
这点是不会消失的 That's not gonna go away.
我过夜的装备都带好了 I have everything I need to stay overnight,
包括这个 新冠的阴性检测报告 including this... Negative for COVID.
我知道阴性检测报告不可靠 I know negative tests are unreliable,
但这已经是我这三天里做的第三次检测报告了 but it's my third in three days.