「良医」前情回顾 Previously on "The Good Doctor"...
我们只抱在一起 好吗 Can we just hold each other for a little bit?
在你真的变成这样之前 Deal with your crap
处理好你的破事 before this is who you really become.
抱歉在你下班后还约你见面 I'm sorry for making you meet me after hours like this.
我的大门总是为病患敞开 I'm always available for my patients.
来吧 Come on in.
你爸爸被确诊为胰腺癌 Your dad's been diagnosed with pancreatic cancer.
你和其他人不一样 You're not like other people.
你就像个被宠坏的小孩子 You're like a spoiled, little baby.
肖恩 Shaun?
你还好吧 You okay?
我们必须早上七点到机场 We have to be at the airport at 7:00 a.m.
如果你坐从卡斯珀出发的首班飞机 I think when you're taking the first flight out of Casper,
你不需要提前一个半小时到 you don't need to be there 90 minutes early.
可能也需要 Or maybe you do.
你想谈谈昨夜的事吗 You want to talk about last night?
我觉得应该谈 I think we should.
为什么 Why?
因为你当时状态很糟糕 Because you were in a pretty bad place,
我能理解 which is totally understanda...
我觉得好些了 I feel better now.
谢谢你 Thank you.
很高兴我能帮上忙 I'm glad I could help you.
但我还是觉得 But I also think
不能让别人知道我在这里呆了一整晚 we shouldn't tell anyone I stayed here all night.
别人可能会想歪 People might get the wrong idea.
好吧 Okay.
我们一起睡了 We slept together.
你们做好安全措施了吗 Did you use protection?
不不 我们没发生关系 就是睡了一觉 N-no. We did not have sex. We just slept.
一起 Together.
抱成一团 Held each other.
我很不安 莉亚安慰了我 I was upset, and Lea comforted me.
和她一起躺在床上 Lying in bed with her,
我觉得 it felt...
和卡莉一起躺着的感觉不同 Different than it does with Carly.
也许因此你一开始邀请的 Well, maybe that's why you invited Lea
是莉亚而不是卡莉 instead of Carly in the first place?
莉亚和我只是普通朋友 Lea and I are just friends.
她也说得很清楚了 Yeah, she's made that very clear.
有时一个人所做的比他们所说的 Sometimes you learn more about someone
更有助于你了解他们 by what they do than what they say.
当然了 谁都不知道她想要什么 Of course, who the hell knows what she wants.
但更重要的是 你想要什么 But more importantly, what do you want?
我不知道 I don't know.
那你最好尽快想出答案 Well, you better figure it out soon.
不管有没有发生关系 现在箭在弦上 Sex or no sex, the wheels are in motion.
不行动就要吃苦果了 And someone's about to get run over.
他们有卖棉花糖巧克力曲奇 They had Mallomars.
我们走吧 Let's roll.
良 医
第三季 第十一集
呼吸治疗技术员请到东三区 Respiratory tech to 3 East.
肖恩 你这就回来了 Shaun, y-you're back already?
为什么还不回来 我喜欢呆在这里 Why wouldn't I be? I like being here.
肖恩 Shaun.
对于你父亲的病情我很遗憾 I'm really sorry to hear about your father.
你还好吗 How are you doing?
他死了 He died.
飞机上的座位很不舒服 And the seat was very uncomfortable on the flight,
所以我没法睡觉 so I couldn't sleep.
他们只有咸味花生 And they only had the salty peanuts
没有我喜欢的椒盐卷饼 and not the pretzels I like.
是啊 生活不易 Yeah. Life sucks.
这里需要医生 We need a doctor!
我们当时在山地骑车 We were mountain biking.
她跌下了乱石坡 She fell down a rocky slide.
她的腿 Her leg...
我们需要做X光和核磁共振 We'll need an X-ray and an MRI.
得用些比冰块更有效的 Let's also get you something stronger
-止痛药 -不 - than this ice pack for the pain. - N-no.
我以前拔智齿时他们给我用过维柯丁[止痛药] Uh, they gave me Vicodin when I had my wisdom teeth pulled.
我吐了两天 I was sick for two days.
我们还有其他止痛药 We have other painkillers...
真的 我没事 Really, I'm fine.
我生孩子时也没用止痛药 Look, I made it through childbirth without drugs.
我可以挺过去 I can make it through this.
骨折没有生孩子痛吗 That hurts less than childbirth?
一触即痛 已肿胀 Tender and bloated.
你得住院治疗 拍X光片 We should get you admitted, get an X-ray.
没事的 给我开点泻药就行了 That's all right. All I need are laxatives.
如果不治疗 肠梗阻可能会致命 Intestinal blockage could be fatal if we don't treat it.
求你了 Please.
我没工作 现在也没有保险 I'm unemployed, and I don't have insurance right now.
这样如何 How about this...
我们不拍X光片 给你开药 We skip the X-ray, give you the meds.
但作为交换 你得答应住院 But in exchange, you agree to stay here
一直待到你排便 till you've had a bowel movement,
这样我们才能安心 and we have peace of mind.
好 Deal.
肖恩 你回来了 Shaun, you're back.
你好 卡莉 见到你很高兴 我很想你 Hello, Carly. It's good to see you. I missed you.
我和摩根有个病患 Morgan and I have a patient
小腿粉碎性骨折了 with a comminuted leg fracture.
我们得马上做个全血细胞计数和血液凝固化验 We need a rush on a C.B.C. and coagulation panel.
肖恩 你爸的事我很遗憾 Shaun, I'm sorry about your Dad.
你为什么不回我的电话和短信 Why didn't you return any of my calls or texts?
我太忙了 I was very busy.
你有时间给我发短信的 You had time to text me.
我不知道该说什么 I wasn't sure what to say.
肖恩 我知道你有时候不理解别人的感受 Shaun, I know that you don't always understand people's feelings.
但你心里一定明白 But a part of you had to understand
你不理我就会伤害到我 that ignoring me would be hurtful.
我现在也不知道该说什么 I'm not sure what to say now.
我的病患在做核磁共振 My patient is getting an MRI.
我得回去找他们 I need to get back to them.
你要把这些样本拿进去吗 Are you going to take the samples?
创伤后应激障碍 PTSD.
这是个有趣的话题 It's an interesting topic.
我只是在整理笔记 方便以后写病例报告 Just organizing some notes for a potential case report.
不错 希望能读到你的报告 Nice. Look forward to reading it.
我开始看心理医生了 I started seeing a therapist.
很好 Good.
希望这对你有所帮助 I hope you find it helpful.
她觉得 我可能有创伤后应激障碍 She thinks I, uh... I might have PTSD.
听起来有点严重了 Sounds a bit excessive.
你肯定经历过一些童年创伤 You've definitely dealt with some childhood trauma.
你觉得她说得对 You think she's right?
我觉得医生都是最糟糕的病患 I think doctors make the worst patients.
最好的病患会问很多问题 The best patients are the ones who ask a lot of questions.
保持开放的心态 And keep an open mind.
我们给了他泻药 We gave him the laxatives,
结果他立马就想离开 and right away, he tried to leave.
最后吐着晕倒了 Ended up passing out and vomiting.
我没事 我回家吃药就好了 I'm fine. I can take care of this at home.
我们得带他去放射科 We need to get him to Radiology.
要马上做腹部CT We need an abdominal CT stat.
不 你们不能强... No. You can't keep me...
你们不能强留我 Can't keep me against my will.
不管你要去哪 之后再说 Wherever you need to be, it can wait.
你现在需要救助 You need help now.
你在运送什么 What are you transporting?
痛苦的便秘 精神紧张 Painful constipation, nervous agitation,
拒绝CT扫描 refusing scans...
你显然是在运毒 You're obviously packing drugs.
装毒品的球囊要么造成了肠道完全阻塞 The balloons have either created a complete obstruction
要么其中的一个已经破了 or one of them burst.
拜托 我只想回家 Please, I just want to go home.
卢卡 我们是医生 不是警察 Luca, we're doctors, not cops.
他听起来很像警察 He definitely sounds like a cop.
我们不会报警 我保证 We won't call the police, I promise.
无论发生什么事 让我们帮助你 Whatever is wrong, let us help you.
卡莉怎么样了 How's Carly?
她没有因为你和莉亚在怀俄明州时 She wasn't upset about you ghosting her
你没有联系她而生气吗 while you were with Lea in Wyoming?
她说她很受伤 She said it was hurtful.
你算是逃过一劫了 You got off easy.
你就这样奇怪地跟卡莉分手 再和莉亚在一起 Is this your weird way of breaking up with Carly to get with Lea?
我不想和卡莉分手 I don't want to break up with Carly.
但你确实想和莉亚在一起 But you do want to get with Lea.
我没有那么说 I didn't say that.
没说出来而已 Not out loud.
而且你犯了个大错误 And you're making a big mistake.
卡莉又聪明又漂亮 Carly's smart. Pretty.
她愿意接受你的一切 And the fact that she's willing to deal with all your stuff
所以你应该感谢你的祈祷成真 means you should be thanking whatever God you pray to
上天让你遇见她 that you ever met her.
而莉亚比较古怪 While Lea is... Well, a flake.
她不是古怪 She's not a flake.
她出现在你的门口 She showed up on your doorstep
甚至没有告诉你 without even giving you a heads-up
她要回圣何塞 that she was coming back to San Jose.
然后她要搬出去 后来又搬进来 Then she needed to move out, but then she moves in.
更不用提 Not to mention the whole
她那「让我们喝个大醉 我教你如何接吻 "Let's get drunk on tequila and I'll teach you how to kiss,
但我只想做朋友」的一派胡言 but I just want to be friends" nonsense.
她不是古怪 She's...not a flake.
有创伤性韧带撕裂 There is traumatic avulsion of the ligaments.
她需要做手术 She's going to need surgery.
我们要钉一根钢钉穿过髓管 We hammer a long rod through the medullary canal
把骨折的两端连在一起 to hold the two ends of the break together.
这是腿骨折 It's a broken leg.
你们就不能打个石膏或者别的吗 Can't you just put a cast on it or something?
很显然 你会睡着的 不会有任何感觉 Obviously, you'll be asleep. You won't feel anything.
我撒谎了 I lied.
关于维柯丁让我恶心的事 About the vicodin making me sick.
我丈夫不知道此事 My husband doesn't know.
我是个类鸦片瘾君子 I'm an opioid addict.
我已经戒了十年 I've been clean for 10 years,
但一剂就可以让我重新上瘾 but one dose could send me right back.
尽你所能治好我的腿 Do whatever you need to do to fix my leg,
但你不能用任何麻醉剂 but you can't use any narcotics.
甚至不能用硬膜外麻醉 Not even an epidural?
她最多只让我们用泰诺 Strongest thing she'll let us give her is Tylenol.
氯胺酮 氯胺酮怎么样 Ketamine? What about Ketamine?
它不具有麻醉作用 让人处于游离状态 It's non-narcotic and can create a dissociative effect.
它会致幻并且可能会让人上瘾 It's mind altering and potentially addictive.
催眠已被证实有效果 Hypnosis has been shown to be effective.
只有与麻醉剂一起使用才有效果 Only when used in conjunction with narcotics.
有研究表明播放病人最喜欢的音乐 Studies say playing the patient's favorite music
可以帮助控制一些手术中的疼痛 can help manage pain in certain surgeries.
我们在她的胫骨上钉一根 Yeah, we hammer a nine-inch rod
二十三厘米的钢钉 through her tibia,
但她没事因为她在听 but she's okay because she's listening
《汉密尔顿》的原声带 to the soundtrack from Hamilton.
我说的是「一些手术」 I said "Certain surgeries."
好了 这就是答案 Okay. That's the answer.
音乐 Music?
换一种手术 A different surgery.
用别的方法把她的腿接上 Some other way of putting her leg back together.
外部固定 An external fixation.
我们钉两根针穿过胫骨近端 We put two pins through the proximal tibia.
另外两根在远离骨折位置的胫骨远端 Another two in the distal end of the bone beyond the fractures.
恢复需要更长的时间 Healing will take much longer,
还会增加感染 and there's an increased risk
以及永久残疾的风险 还有 of infection and permanent deformity and...
还有 小钉子比大钉子更能减少痛苦 And small pins are much less painful than a huge nail.
我给她做准备 I'll get her prepped.
我被解雇了 I got laid off.
我需要钱 我就干这一次 I needed money, and this was just a one-time thing.
但这是个错误 愚蠢的错误 But it was a mistake. It was a stupid mistake.
你不说话效果最好 This works best if you don't talk.
我们计划在你腿部用钢钉固定金属框架 Our plan is to attach a metal frame with pins into your leg.
这样能固定骨折 It'll stabilize the fractures,
而且我们可以不用镇痛性麻醉 and we can do it without narcotic anesthesia.
我知道她担心过敏反应 I know she's worried about an allergic reaction,
但难道没有其他药能给她用吗 but aren't there any other drugs you can use?
鉴于你妻子的病史 Given your wife's medical history,
这是最佳策略 this is the best strategy.
别担心 亲爱的 Don't worry, sweetie.
记住 我很强壮 和神奇女侠一样 Remember... I'm strong like Wonder Woman.
他的回盲肠闸门处 There's over 50 latex balloons
卡住了五十多个球囊 lodged near the ileocecal junction.
需要做手术才能移除 They'll need to be surgically removed.
我们需要通知圣何塞缉毒部门 And we need to alert San Jose Vice/Narcotics.
不行 No.
他同意治疗 The only reason he agreed to treatment
只是因为我们保证不会报警 is because we promised we wouldn't do that.
我没有保证 梅伦德斯医生也没保证 I didn't promise that. Neither did Dr. Melendez.
我们不会因为 We don't call the police
病患用药过量或是瘾君子而报警 on overdose victims or addicts.
他肠道里有大约两公斤的 He's got probably two kilos
我确信是海洛因的东西 of what I'm sure is heroin in his gut.
他不是瘾君子 他是贩毒者 He's not an addict. He's a dealer.
我知道你同情这个家伙 I know you feel for this guy.
但医院规矩很明确 But hospital policy is clear.
再深呼吸几次 Take a few more of those deep breaths for us.
还有两个就好了 Just two more to go.
凯莉 你得把腿伸直了 Kerry, we need you to somehow keep your leg still.
BGM: Claire de Lune by Royal Philharmonic Orchestra
血压190/110 B.P. is 190/110.
静脉推注β受体阻断药 Push I.V. beta blockers.
-等等 不行 -别担心 不是麻醉药 - Wait, no! - No, they're not narcotics.
我们只是给你些降压的药物 We just need to give you something to reduce the pressure.
血压回到150/80 Back to 150/80.
-凯莉 感觉如何了 -好多了 - Kerry, how are we doing? - Better.
等我们把最后一个装好 就结束了 We'll get this last one in, and you'll be good to go.
不 你答应过我 No. You promised me.
是啊 你最珍视诚信和道德了 Yeah. You value honesty and morality over all else.
如果你现在离开医院 你会死 If you leave this hospital now, you will die.
我宁愿冒这个险 I'll take my chances.
你知道如果有个球囊破了会怎么样吗 You know what'll happen when one those balloons bursts?
刚开始你会感觉虚弱 慢慢发冷 You'll start feeling weak, get cold.
很快 分泌物会充满你的肺部和呼吸道 Soon you'll have secretions filling your lungs and airway.
你想呼救 但发不出声音 You'll try to scream for help, but nothing will come out.
你能去拿出院表吗 Can you get the release paperwork?
我一会儿回来 I'll be back in a few minutes.
卢卡 我理解你的境遇 Luca, I understand where you're coming from.
你是个医生 You're a doctor.
我之前的工作是个勤杂工 Last job I had, I was a busboy.
我在拖车里长大 I grew up in a trailer.
其实是好几辆拖车 A bunch of 'em, actually.
我妈不是那种未雨绸缪的人 My mother wasn't the type to save for a rainy day.
但我们从来没放弃 But we never gave up.
就算你觉得自己孤身一人 其实并不是 Even when you think you're alone, you're not.
我想帮助你 I want to help you.
你只需要给我多一点时间 You just have to give me a little more time.
一个小时 One hour.
如果我没想出如何治疗你 If I can't figure out how to treat you
并不让你坐牢的方法 你可以离开这里 and keep you out of jail, you can walk out the door.
一个小时 One hour.
过时我就要出院 And then I'm gone.
接下来几周你会感到有些不舒服 You'll have some discomfort for the next few weeks,
但现在你只需要休息 然后你应该就可以 but all you need right now is rest, and you should be able...
妈妈 Mommy!
天啊 这太酷了 Oh, my gosh, that's so cool.
谁都会吹嘘自己的另一半是最坚强的 Everyone says their spouse is the strongest person they know.
但我现在有真凭实据了 But I have actual proof now.
早说了 Told you.
我是神奇女侠 Wonder Woman.
这太荒唐了 This is absurd.
如果这是个肿瘤 我们会取出来扔掉 If this was a tumor, we'd take it out and toss it.
这次碰巧是毒品 This time, it just happens to be drugs.
对 因为癌症不是重罪 Yeah, because cancer is not a felony.
你不能把毒品跟医疗垃圾一起扔出去 You can't just toss out the drugs with the medical waste.
他不是歹徒 也不是惯犯 He's not a gangster or a hardened criminal.
他只是一个胆战心惊想要活下去的人 He's just... he's just a scared guy trying to survive.
你相信他告诉你的一切都是真的 You're assuming anything he's told you is true.
就算是 And even if it is,
不是每个缺钱的人都会用身体运毒 not everyone who needs money becomes a drug mule.
你无法想象在那种贫困环境中 You can't imagine what it's like
长大是什么感觉 to grow up in that kind of poverty.
你不该痛斥他这种行为吗 Shouldn't you be judging this guy the harshest?
你不也在没触犯法律的前提下成功了吗 You made it out just fine without breaking the law.
并不全是 That's not exactly true.
我妈过去也经常干这种事 My mother used to go on these trips.
我从学校回来 她就不见了 I would come home from school, and she'd be gone.
有时几小时 有时几天 Sometimes hours, sometimes days.
我身上一毛钱都没有 I didn't have any money.
当我需要从商店搞点生活必需品和食物时 So when I needed supplies and food from the store,
我会偷偷把它们放进背包里 I would sneak them away in a backpack.
一天 包破了 One day, the bag broke
所有我偷的汤料和燕麦片 and all of the soup and oatmeal that I had stolen
一股脑地掉在了保安面前 fell out right in front of a security guard.
她看了看我 And she looked at me,
我的脸 我的衣服 at my face, at my clothes,
然后她帮我捡了起来 and then she helped me pick them up
警告了一下就让我走了 and let me go with a warning.
她如果没放我一马 If she hadn't given me a break,
我今天就不会作为名医生站在这 I wouldn't be standing here, as a doctor,
跟你们说这些了 discussing this with you.
或许有两全的办法拯救卢卡 Maybe there's a way to save Luca
既不会毁了他 又不违反规定 without ruining his life or breaking policy.
肖恩 Shaun.
你要坐电梯就进来吧 You need the elevator. Use the elevator.
我哪里做错了吗 What am I doing wrong?
我不知道跟你相处的尺度在哪里 I never know where I stand with you.
前一分钟 我们还在彼此分享 One minute, we're sharing
内心深处自己的恐惧 deep, personal fears with each other,
下一分钟 你就跑了 and the next, you're running away
因为你受不了我碰你 because you can't stand to touch me.
老实说 Be honest...
你跟莉亚之间发生了什么 Is there anything going on with Lea
你不想告诉我的事吗 that you're not telling me?
说话啊 肖恩 Say something, Shaun.
不一样的 It's different.
我 I...
喜欢你 卡莉 like you, Carly.
我和你在一起时 When I'm around you,
我想给你留个好印象 I want to be impressive to you.
对莉亚我就不会想这么做 I don't feel like I have to impress Lea like I do you.
我们会留下你手术过程中的 We will have to keep whatever medical waste
所有医疗垃圾去做检测 we collect during your surgery in the lab for testing.
但在病理学报告出来前 But we will discharge you
我们就会安排你出院 before the pathology report comes back.
报告出来后如有需要我们有义务通知警察 At which point we'll be obligated to alert the police.
我怎们知道你们不会前脚把我麻醉了 How do I know you're not gonna call the cops
后脚就立马报警 right after you put me to sleep?
这点上不相信布朗医生 你就是傻瓜 You'd be a moron not to trust Dr. Browne at this point.
她为了救你的小命可豁出去了 She's gone way beyond the call to save your ass.
好吧 Okay.
该说谢谢 Say thank you.
谢谢 Thank you.
卡莉
优点 有耐心 很好闻 想给她好印象
缺点 不全的文身 让我紧张 想给她好印象
莉亚
优点 人好 相处舒服 喜欢卡拉OK
缺点 乱 忽略私人空间 厕纸乱放 播放音乐太大声
莫菲医生 Dr. Murphy.
你今晚先回家吧 How about you head home for the night?
我还需要监测凯莉 We still need to monitor Kerry.
在这躲卡莉比我在家 And it's easier for me to avoid Carly here
躲莉亚容易多了 than it is for me to avoid Lea at home.
好 我只就你第一个拒绝的原因说几句 Okay, I'm only gonna respond to the first objection.
你已经忙了一周 You've had a long week,
你需要好好休息 and it's important you get some rest.
摩根会守着病房的 Morgan will take point.
你是怎么确定你的妻子就是那个对的人呢 How did you know your wife was the right woman for you?
要听我的个人建议 Personal advice?
我以为那是格拉斯曼医生的业务范围 I thought that was Dr. Glassman's domain.
格拉斯曼医生离过婚 Dr. Glassman is divorced.
他似乎对他的这段婚姻很满意 He seems happy with his marriage now,
但我无法确定 but I have no way of knowing for sure.
你比他强 You're better than him.
在这方面 For this.
我第一次和伊莎贝尔说话就知道她是那个对的人 I knew I wanted to be with Isabel the first time we spoke.
大学一年级的生物课 Freshman-year biology class.
自那之后的27年里我从未动摇过这个决心 And I have not wavered in that resolve in the 27 years since.
但是 But...
你是怎么察觉到的呢 How did you know?
每当我和她在一起 我的胃里就会涌起 It was a feeling I had in the pit of my stomach
一股奇异的感受 every time I was around her.
我觉得 I felt...
紧张 Nervous?
兴奋 Excited.
说起来老套 It's a cliche,
但每次见到她 我就会心跳加速 but my heart sped up every time I saw her.
现在还是 Still does.
不完全一样 但是 Not quite in the same way, but...
如果你不介意 我现在要回家见她了 Now, if you don't mind, I need to get home to that woman.
回来了 Hey, you.
重返岗位的第一天怎么样 How was the first day back?
有点复杂 Confusing.
是病患有问题还是与卡莉有矛盾了 Problem with a patient or Carly?
如果你不想说 那我们就不说了 If you don't want to talk about it, we can just hang.
不说这个 Let's just hang.
收到 开始沉默 Copy that. Commencing a hang.
肖恩 Sh... Shaun?
怎么了 What's up?
这只需要几秒 This will just take a few seconds.
你好 Hello?
没有好转 It didn't work.
凯丽的腿在不断胀大 Kerry's leg is swelling up.
我想她有腔室症候群 I think she has compartment syndrome.
你现在得赶回来 You need to get back here.
我们必须做之前放弃的那个手术了 We'll have to do the surgery we've been trying to avoid.
我们必须切开多个切口舒缓压力 We'll first have to make multiple incisions to relieve the pressure
然后用内部钢钉替换外部支架 and then replace the external frame with an internal nail.
如果不及时处理 If we don't act soon,
你可能会面临截肢的危险 you could be facing an amputation.
好吧 Okay.
你得打麻醉剂 You'll need to be sedated.
不 我可以承受的 No. Look, I can take it.
凯莉 你在固定过程中 Kerry, you had a blood-pressure spike
有过血压上升的情况 during the fixation procedure.
不打麻醉的话 Without anesthesia,
你很可能会出现高血压危象 you could have a hypertensive crisis,
有中风或者心脏病发作的危险 a risk of stroke, or heart attack.
术后 我们可以帮助你控制剂量 Post-op, we can help you manage the dosing.
如果复发了 我们有顾问可以 And if you relapse, we have counselors that...
不 No.
我还记得那些早晨醒来时的寒冷和孤独 I remember waking up all those mornings cold and alone,
想着我还能不能再快乐起来 wondering if I could ever be happy again,
是否值得拥有快乐 if I deserved to be happy.
任何程度的痛苦都比不上失去一切的绝望 Any amount of pain is better than losing everything again.
我的丈夫 我的女儿 My husband, my daughter...
你能瞒着你爱的人们多久呢 How long can you keep secrets from the people you love
瞒着瞒着可能就变成陌路了 before they stop being the people you love?
每一段关系都存在秘密 Every relationship has secrets.
这并不需要成为其中一个 This, it doesn't have to be one of them.
药物上瘾是一种病 Drug addiction is a disease.
你不需要为此羞愧 You have nothing to be ashamed of.
但这是由你的选择导致的 It happens because of the choices you make.
当你一无所有 When you have lost everything,
还能找到一个人 but you still manage to find someone
给你活下去的希望 who makes you want to get up and live another day,
你会倾尽一切留住他们 you do whatever you can to hold on to them,
即使这意味着 even if it means
你得牺牲一部分自我 burying a piece of yourself in the process.
如果我们不能说服她改变心意 If we can't convince her to change her mind,
或许她丈夫可以 maybe her husband can.
病人不够明智 Impracticality isn't cause
不是打破医患保密协定的理由 for breaking doctor-patient confidentiality.
这不叫不明智 This isn't impractical.
这叫野蛮而不可理喻 It's irrational and barbaric.
我们不能向丈夫透露任何秘密 We're not permitted to reveal any secrets to the husband.
但我们可以这么说 But we can tell him that.
最后一个 Last one.
怎么了 What's wrong?
和肠壁粘太紧了 It's too adherent to the intestinal wall.
可以用波茨剪刀来剥离 Could use Potts Scissors to dissect it free.
试试吧 护士 Let's give it a try. Nurse?
你出的主意 由你亲自动手 Your idea. Only fair you do the honors.
检查破损情况 Check it for perforations.
完好无损 It's intact.
生命体征稳定 Vitals are stable.
把样本容器拿去化验室 Take the specimen container to the lab.
布朗医生 你来做缝合 Dr. Browne, you're leading closure.
出现了一些并发症 There's been some complications.
我们得再做一个手术 We need to perform an additional surgery.
你们要怎么做 What do you need to do?
我不能告诉你 I can't tell you.
我不能透露任何细节 I'm unable to go into further detail.
这会侵犯你妻子的隐私 It would violate your wife's confidentiality.
隐私 Confidentiality?
你没有告诉我全部真相吗 Haven't you been telling me everything?
还是那句话 我不能透露任何细节 Again, I'm unable to go into further detail.
怎么回事 What's going on?
为何医生什么都不告诉我 Why can't the doctors talk to me?
凯莉 显然有些事 Kerry, obviously, there's something going on
你在瞒着我 you don't want me to know.
你快不行了吗 Are you dying?
不 不 不是... No. No. It's...
不是这样的 It's nothing like that.
那是怎么了 Then what?
无论如何 我想帮上忙 Whatever it is, I want to be able to help.
求你了 Please.
我有类鸦片瘾 I'm an opioid addict.
我戒毒十年了 但是... I've been clean for a decade, but...
正因此我从不吃止痛药 That's why I never take painkillers.
也因此我拒绝接受麻醉 And that's why I can't let them use anesthesia.
你怎么从未说过 Why didn't you ever tell me?
你不了解我曾经的样子 You don't know the kind of person that I was.
被毒品控制的样子 Who the drugs turned me into.
我多次尝试戒毒 I tried quitting so many times,
从未成功 but it never stuck.
直到遇见了你 Until you.
你的出现拯救了我 Meeting you saved me.
但是... But...
如果我毒瘾复发 我知道你会离我而去 if I relapse, I know I'll drive you away.
你怎么会认为我会不爱你 How could you ever think I'll stop loving you?
像你这样一个熟记「男人男孩」 The woman who knows the lyrics
所有歌词的女人 to every Boyz II Men song?
一个急匆匆赶回家 The woman who rushes home
观看家装改造直播节目的女人 to watch those stupid home-makeover shows live.
一个和我共同抚养女儿的女人 The woman I'm raising our daughter with.
一个向你窃取的女人 The woman who will steal from you,
对你撒谎的女人 the woman who will lie to you,
-伤害你... -不 - who will hurt you... - No.
一个你无法信任的女人 the woman you won't be able to trust.
不 No.
你就听医生的话 Just do what the doctors tell you.
服药吧 Take the meds.
我会陪着你 I will be there for you.
不管发生什么 No matter what happens.
我爱你 I love you.
我知道你是真心的 And I know you mean that.
但我没有你想象的那么强大 But I'm not as strong as you think I am.
宝贝 我真的不行 Baby. I just can't.
我很抱歉 I'm so sorry.
我们马上为你准备手术 We'll start prepping you for surgery.
我喜欢你的大笑 我喜欢你的微笑 I like your laugh. I like your smile.
我通常不看别人的眼睛 I don't usually look at eyes,
但我觉得你的眼睛很美 but I think yours are pretty.
我喜欢你的胸部 I like your breasts.
如果你愿意 你可以继续 You can keep going if you want to.
我喜欢和你在一起 I like spending time with you.
我喜欢你的善良 I like that you are kind.
我喜欢你有耐心 I like that you are patient.
我喜欢你这个女朋友 I like that you're my girlfriend.
你要和我分手吗 Are you going to break up with me?
不 我不打算和你分手 No, I am not planning on breaking up with you.
我们只是吵个架 We had a fight.
情侣都会吵架 Couples fight.
但是 But...
我很担心 肖恩 I'm worried, Shaun.
我很荣幸你想给我留下好印象 I'm flattered that you want to impress me,
但如果你无法和我坦白 but that is not worth anything
那这一切都没有意义 if you feel like you can't talk to me.
你说得对 You're right.
我得向你坦白一切 I have to tell you. Everything.
我在怀俄明州时很难过 I got very upset in Wyoming.
莉亚进来安慰我 Lea came in to comfort me
我们抱着躺在床上 and we hugged and laid down on the bed,
然后抱着睡着了 and we fell asleep hugging.
整件事就是这样 That's everything that happened.
我们为了躺在一起 尝试了好几周 We struggled with lying together for weeks.
可你 And you...
和莉亚只用了一晚吗 Did it in one night with Lea?
是的 Yes.
但她是我的好朋友 But sh... she's a close friend,
她想陪着我 and she wanted to be there for me.
拜托 别说了 Please, just stop talking.
肖恩 我需要一些空间 Shaun, I-I just... I need some space.
我现在不想看见你 I can't be around you right now.
肖恩 Shaun?
我想说实话 I wanted to be honest.
卡莉让我坦白 Carly said she wanted me to talk to her.
莉亚说那件事不要说出去 莉亚是对的 Lea said not to tell what happened. Lea was right.
深呼吸 坐下 Uh, take a breath. Sit down.
不行 我几分钟后就要动手术了 I can't. I have surgery in a few minutes
我无法集中注意力 and I can't focus and...
我觉得不舒服 大家都要离开我吗 and I feel sick, and is everyone going to leave me?
什么 什么 你在说什么 What? What? What are you talking about?
我爸不要我 My dad didn't want me.
我妈选择了他 而不是我 My mom chose him over me.
卡莉现在讨厌我 Carly now hates me.
-肖恩 肖恩 -莉亚会烦我 - Shaun. Shaun. - Lea will get tired of me.
-肖恩 -你会厌弃我 - Shaun. - You'll get sick of me.
-我做什么都是错的 -什么 - I do everything wrong. - What?
-肖恩 看着我 -所有人都会离我而去 - Shaun, Shaun, look at me for a second. - Everyone will go away!
-我只会惹人厌 -肖恩 - I make people upset! - Hey, hey, Shaun!
天哪 肖恩 Oh, my God, Shaun!
我让他们生气 让他们讨厌我 I make them angry! I make them hate me!
肖恩 看着我 看这里 Shaun, look at me, look at me, look at me right here.
看这里 看看我 Right here. Look at me here.
永远不要这样说你自己 Don't ever say that about yourself.
别这么说 Don't ever say that!
听到了吗 You hear me?
你能挺过去的 You're gonna get through this.
你要去做手术 完成这台手术 You're gonna go to surgery, and you're gonna get this done.
-怎么做 -怎么做 - How? - How?
因为你医术非凡 Because you're an extraordinary doctor.
你可以的 That's how.
那是你的职责 你的职责 And that's what you do. That's what you do.
我非常以你为荣 I could not be more proud of you.
听到了吗 You hear that?
我不会厌弃你 And I could never get sick of you.
你甩都甩不掉我 好吗 You're not getting rid of me, pal, okay?
我在你身边 I'm right here.
在你身边 Right... right here.
好吗 我陪着你 Okay? I got you.
我手术快迟到了 I'm going to be late to surgery.
可以放开我了吗 Can you let me go now?
好 Yeah, okay.
-好 -好了 - Okay. - Okay.
已涂好麻药膏 Numbing cream applied.
你准备好了吗 Are you ready?
我们取出了全部球囊 We were able to remove all the balloons.
你24小时后可以出院 So you should be out of here in 24 hours.
可能要等48小时 It'll likely take another 48 hours
化验才会出结果 to get the contents tested.
化验室很忙 The lab's very busy.
我知道我很令人讨厌 I know I've been a pain in the ass.
我只是习惯受人欺凌 I've just gotten used to people screwing me over.
你是第一个让我感到 You're the first person that's made me feel,
被重视的人 I don't know, seen.
或许有一天我会回报你今天所做的 对吗 Maybe one day, I'll find a way to pay it forward, right?
铰刀钻进了髓内 Reamer's in the intramedullary canal.
可以植入髓内钉了 This will make space for inserting the nail.
你表现很棒 凯莉 You're doing great, Kerry.
要开始植入了 Inserting into canal.
要开始了 准备好了吗 Here comes the nail. You ready?
-血压激增 -注射β受体阻断药 - B.P.'s spiking. - Push beta blockers.
坚持 Hang in there.
血压220/170 220/170.
心率过快 She's having a tachyarrhythmia.
不行 我们必须注射芬太尼 Screw it. We have to push the fentanyl.
-护士 帮一下莫菲医生 -不用 - Nurse, help Dr. Murphy. - No.
这样能分散她的注意力 It's helping distract her.
你确定吗 莫菲医生 You sure, Dr. Murphy?
是的 麻烦快点 Yes. Please hurry.
今天是个好日子 It was a good day.
一定很令人开心 能拯救生命 It must be very gratifying, saving lives.
我觉得我今天可能不止做到这一点 Yeah, I think I might've done a little more than that today.
我也许改变了一个人 I... I think I might have changed one.
上次我们见面 Last time we met,
你提到你母亲 you mentioned that your mother
在你小时候经常责骂你 would frequently berate you when you were young.
她是怎么骂你的 What kind of things would she say?
一定要现在讨论这个吗 Do we have to get into that right now?
我就不能开心一天吗 Can't I just have a good day?
享受一下愉悦 就这一次 You know, enjoy feeling okay for once?
克莱尔 我认为你陷入了自毁式的状态 Claire, I believe you've fallen into destructive patterns
是因为不敢正视你对母亲的感觉 precisely to avoid confronting your feelings about your mother,
对她的去世 her death.
如果你想好起来 需要正视自己的感受 Feelings that need to be confronted if you hope to get better.
心脏科护士请来急诊室 Cardiac care nurse to E.R.
他们在查监控视频 They're reviewing the security video.
员工说 有个人装作发病 Someone faked a seizure, staff responded,
另一个人打开了储藏室的门 and another person broke into the storage locker.
你觉得是卢卡 Do you think Luca...
只有他的样本不见了 The only thing missing was his specimen.
有人在盘问他吗 Is someone questioning him?
卢卡走了 Luca's gone.
警察会怎么做 What will the police do?
做不了什么 Nothing.
我们只知道一个假名 All we have is a fake name and the knowledge
和里面不知装了什么的球囊 that someone stole some balloons with unknown content.
BGM: Circles by Wildes
♪ If I weigh in ♪
♪ You'll give me a reason to say it ♪
她真是个神奇女侠 She definitely is a Wonder Woman.
你一开始说的是对的 You were right the first time.
她毫不理性 She's totally irrational.
没必要危及她的生命 Needlessly endangered her life.
但我明白为什么 But I understand why.
♪ To these motions ♪
♪ Scattered with our words never spoken ♪
♪ Ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh ♪
♪ Mm-mm-mm ♪
♪ All the circles that we move in ♪
我妈妈常说我最终会跟她一样 My mother used to say I'd end up like her...
相信错误的人 Putting my faith in the wrong people,
被利用 getting taken advantage of.
除了她没有人会真正爱我 That no one would ever truly love me except her.
这世上还有比努力发现别人优点 There are worse qualities in this world
更糟的品质 than trying to see the best in people.
如果你是个好人 If you're a good person,
偶尔你会觉得自己像个傻瓜 every now and again, you're gonna feel like an idiot.
今天你错了 Today you were wrong.
但我仍然很感激能和你共事 And I am still grateful that I work with you.
♪ Dreadful silence ♪
谢谢 Thank you.
♪ Waiting for the moment to break it ♪
♪ I've been slipping ♪
♪ But I think that I'm gonna make it ♪
你一个人冷静好了吗 Have you had enough space yet?
♪ I lost you in the smoke ♪
♪ And I've tried patience ♪
♪ But we've just overgrown ♪
肖恩 你还记得我们第一次见面吗 Shaun, do you remember the first time we met?
♪ Ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh ♪
我在做活检 I was checking on a biopsy
看肿瘤边缘是否在动脉壁 to see if the tumor margins were in the artery walls.
是的 Yeah.
你说如果我搞砸了 And you said if I didn't do it right then,
你会朝我窗户扔石头 you would toss a rock through my window.
对 Yes.
我当时觉得你在乎的样子很可爱 I thought it was cute how much you cared.
当你开始到病理部工作 我意识到 And when you started working in Path, I realized,
「这家伙可能是我认识的最真实的人了」 "This guy may be the most genuine person I have ever known."
你告诉我真相 You told me the truth.
这是好事 That is a good thing.
所以我喜欢你 That's why I like you.
所以我不想失去这份真实 That's why I don't want to lose what we have.
你伤了我 You hurt me.
我也很担心还会发生这样的事 And I worry something like that could happen again.
♪ That we move in ♪
♪ Remind me of the love... ♪
我想和你在一起 肖恩 I want to be with you, Shaun.
但如果你还和莉亚住在一起 But I don't know how this works
我不知道怎么办才好 if you're still living with Lea.
♪ Then why are we still suffering? ♪
你 You...
不想我和莉亚住一起吗 want me not to live with Lea?
我知道这个要求很过分 I know that's a lot to ask.
如果真的太过了 And if it's too much...
我也能理解 I understand.
♪ I thought love was true ♪
♪ But loneliness won, too ♪
你不用马上回答我 You don't have to answer right away.
♪ Love's been runnin' out ♪
♪ Maybe I'll find solitude without you ♪
你慢慢想 Take some time.
♪ All the circles that we move in ♪
♪ Remind me of the love we've wasted ♪
♪ If we're searching for the same thing ♪
好的 Okay.
可以吗 Okay?
我想和你在一起 I want to be with you.
我爱你 卡莉 I love you, Carly.