「良医」前情回顾 Previously on "The Good Doctor"...
收到妈妈的语音留言 Message received from Mom.
宝贝 我收到你的短信了 Hey, baby. I got your text.
我们应该庆祝一番 一会儿见 We're gonna celebrate. I'll see you soon.
我为你骄傲 宝贝 I'm so proud of you, baby!
我有花和巧克力 Here are flowers and chocolates.
你在约我出去吗 Are you asking me out?
是的 Yes.
我很愿意 I would love to.
我们会在放广告的时候一直这样做吗 Will we be doing this during all the commercials?
有可能 It's possible.
病患是走名人通道进来的 Patient came in through the celebrity track.
他是从装卸区旁的一个入口送进医院的 He was admitted through an entrance by the loading dock.
不能向任何人透露他的名字 同事也不行 You're not to mention his name even to your colleagues.
他叫什么名字 What is his name?
米切尔·斯图尔特 Mitchell Stewart.
那个阴谋论者 他也是名人了吗 The conspiracy theorist? That's a celebrity now?
就是认为911是内部人所为的那家伙 A guy who thinks 9/11 was an inside job?
他是个混蛋 He's an ass.
他是个需要肝脏手术的混蛋 He's an ass who needs liver surgery.
站在那里别动 Hold it right there.
没事的 德克斯 他们在名单上 It's okay, Dex. They're on the list.
莫菲 朴 安德鲁斯医生 Drs. Murphy, Park, Andrews.
米切尔·斯图尔特 Mitchell Stewart.
我通常不会盲目地 I don't blindly turn over my well-being,
把我的安危或任何东西交给掌权者 or anything else, to those in authority,
所以我调查清楚了你们的背景 so I ran background checks on all of you.
包括维兰纽瓦护士 Including Nurse Villanueva.
维兰纽瓦护士不是掌权者 Nurse Villanueva is not a person in authority.
人们可能会被收买 被贿赂 被威胁 People can be gotten to -- bribed, threatened.
在我没弄清要给我注射什么之前 And don't bother trying to hook up that IV
你们就别费劲挂那个静脉注射袋了 until I know what you want to pump into me.
只是常规的静脉注射液 斯图尔特先生 They're normal IV fluids, Mr. Stewart. Please.
你们肯定以为不管给我开什么 I'm sure you consider whatever you give me
都是常规的治疗手段 但众所周知 to be normal medical treatment, but we all know
医生是受雇于制药公司的推手 that doctors are pushers in the pay of the drug companies.
那里面有等渗晶体液 The bag contains an isotonic crystalloid
0.9%的氯化钠溶解在无菌水中 composed of 0.9% sodium chloride dissolved in sterile water.
还有鉴于我们马上要 Also, given that we will soon be
用麻药使你进入昏迷 drugging you into unconsciousness
切开你的身体 and cutting into your body,
你不该信任我们一下吗 don't you have to trust us a little?
你肯定是那个有自闭症的吧 You must be the autistic guy.
很好 一针见血 Good. No bull.
可能都不知道我说的什么意思 Probably doesn't know what bull is.
我猜你的父母肯定给你打了某个组合疫苗 Bet your parents got one of those combination vaccinations.
没有联系 Not connected,
没有科学证据支持自闭症和什么有关 because science does not support an autism link.
那是他们告诉你的 Yeah, that's what they told you.
斯图尔特先生 我们该专心于 Mr. Stewart, suppose we focus on what we'll be doing
治疗由你基因引起的肝脏损伤 to halt the liver damage caused by your genetic condition.
特发性门静脉高血压可能造成 Idiopathic portal hypertension can cause --
我的肝脏是受损了 但不是基因造成的 My liver is damaged, but that's not the cause.
我被下了毒 I've been poisoned.
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他的内科医生也听过他这套说辞 His internist heard the same theory.
毒理学检查呈阴性 Tox screen came back negative.
KCNN3基因测试证实了 And KCNN3 genetic testing confirmed the cause
特发性门静脉高血压的病因 of his idiopathic portal hypertension.
他从他母亲那里遗传的 He inherited it from his mother.
要再做一次毒理学检查吗 Worth running that tox screen again?
这家伙在网络节目里说 The guy has a Web show where he claims
孩子死于校园枪击案的孩子的父母 the parents of children who died in school shootings
是被雇佣的「危机演员」 are "Crisis actors."
他树敌不少 He's earned some enemies.
一旦我们开始怀疑测试结果 Once we start doubting the tests,
就没有什么是可信的了 then you can't trust anything
也就没什么意义了 and there's no point in anything.
我们知道病患需要肝分流术 We know our patient needs liver shunt surgery.
我们得给他做手术 We're doing the surgery.
你迟到了 You were late.
你妈妈吵得你睡不着 Your mom keeping you up?
又在晚上唱歌了吗 Singing at night again?
没有 No.
她挺安静的 She's been quiet.
巴斯托女士 我是布朗医生 Ms. Barstow, I'm Dr. Browne.
这是雷兹尼克医生 This is Dr. Reznick.
是哪里不舒服 What seems to be the trouble?
真的没什么 Nothing much, really.
我觉得没必要来这 但乔纳斯坚持让我来 I feel silly for coming here, but Jonas insisted.
因为你都没有好转 Because you aren't getting any better.
莉莉总是不重视她的问题 Lily likes to downplay her problems.
她是个厉害的 我才是那个没用的 She's the rock, and I'm the wimp.
大题小做 Ah, fuss, fuss, fuss.
我只是这几天有点吃不下东西 I've just been a little off food for a few days.
你还发烧了 You also have a fever.
很有可能是感染了 Most likely, it's an infection.
天啊 莉莉 Oh, my God! Lily!
-先生 退后 -躺下 - Sir, please step back. - Lay back for me.
给你做超声波检查 We're gonna do an ultrasound.
她的脉搏在上升 Her pulse is up.
血压也上升了 Blood pressure's up, too.
她的阑尾破裂了 Her appendix is ruptured.
-天啊 -立即呼叫麻醉科 她得进手术室 - Oh, my God. - Page anesthesia stat! We're taking her to the O.R.
我们来拿术前化验结果 We need pre-op lab results.
病患名称 Patient name?
我们不能告诉你 Oh, we can't tell you.
名人通道来的 可以用身份号找他的结果 Celebrity track. You'll find the results under the ID number.
政治 艺术 商业 Politics, arts, business?
是总统吗 Is it the President?
我给你个提示 I'll give you a hint.
他没那么受欢迎 He's less popular.
那真是令人失望 Well, that's disappointing.
把这里清理完后得弄清楚 Once we get this cleaned up, we need to figure out
她的大脑为什么收不到正确的求救信号 why her brain isn't getting the right distress signals.
布朗医生 我们该怎么做 How should we go about that, Dr. Browne?
功能性磁共振 We do an fMRI.
施加刺激 看她的大脑如何反应 Stimulate her and see how her brain reacts.
抱歉 你问的克莱尔 但我赶着去吃午餐 Sorry. You asked Claire, but I have lunch plans.
我有个问题 I have a question.
我希望是个简单的问题 Well, hopefully, it's a quick one.
我得空出今天其余的时间 I've cleared my schedule for the rest of the day.
我和黛比要去市政厅 Debbie and I are going to City Hall
结婚 to get married.
不会搞什么大排场的 Not gonna make a big fuss out of it.
就是打扮一下 显得隆重一些 You know, get dressed up, turn it into a big event.
毕竟我们也不是孩子了 After all, we are not kids anymore.
这时候你该说恭喜 This is where you say "Congratulations."
恭喜 Congratulations.
谢谢 Thank you.
你和黛比牵手吗 Do you and Debbie hold hands?
牵 怎么了 Yeah. Why?
是卡莉想和你牵手吗 Is that what Carly wants to do?
是的 Yes.
她试过两次 She tried twice.
你给她解释了为什么这对你很困难吗 Have you tried to explain why it's difficult for you?
没有 No.
那你可以从这个开始 Well, I -- I'd start with that.
牵手为什么这么重要呢 How can this be important?
只是件小事 It's a little thing.
我和卡莉在很多大事上都合拍 Carly and I are compatible on so many big things --
孩子 地理位置上的偏好 children, geographic preferences,
工作的优先度 耳机的使用 work priorities, the use of headphones,
房子的色彩设计 potential color schemes for our home --
你有个清单 You have a checklist?
是的 Yes.
我和卡莉还在试图了解对方 Carly and I are still learning about each other.
跟你和黛比不一样 It's not like you and Debbie.
你们已经知道这些事了 You already know these things,
不然也就不会结婚 or you wouldn't be getting married.
四 Four?
五 Five?
我感觉有点疼 I'm feeling some pain.
我们可以停了 We can stop.
我们什么信号也没看到 We're not getting anything.
她没事 She's fine.
我们需要反馈 We need feedback.
八 Eight.
九 Nine.
克莱尔 她感觉不到痛 Claire, she's not feeling pain.
只有颅顶骨有反应 The only activity is in the parietal.
大脑边缘叶没有 Nothing in the limbic,
前扣带回皮层里也没有 nothing in the anterior cingulate cortex.
她有触觉 She's feeling touch.
-那她刚才为什么说 -我猜 - But why did she just say - My guess
是因为她从没感觉到过疼痛 because she's never felt pain.
她不知道那是什么 She doesn't know what it is.
睡眠呼吸暂停 Sleep apnea.
什么 What?
那个可怜的家伙 我想他有睡眠呼吸暂停 That poor guy over there, I think he's got sleep apnea.
可能他只是累了 Maybe he's just tired.
这是他人生中最重要的一天 It's -- it's one of the most important days of his life,
而他却不能保持清醒 and he can't stay awake.
也许你可以告诉他 Maybe you could -- you could tell him
有方法可以治疗的 that there are treatments.
我 Me?
不然他一辈子都会因为打鼾 Otherwise, he's gonna keep his wife awake snoring
让他的妻子睡不着 for the rest of his life.
那会毁了他们的婚姻 It's gonna destroy their marriage.
你说得跟真的一样 You seem very sure about that.
再没有比让人晚上睡不好觉 There's literally no greater torture
更折磨人的了 than not getting a good night's sleep.
好吧 首先我觉得你不是真的认为 All right, first of all, I don't think you mean
这是最折磨人的了 literally no greater torture.
不 这是真的 Oh, no. It's true.
我以前在商船队的时候 Once when I was in the Merchant Marine --
你在商船队待过 Merchant Marines?
只有一个 It's -- it's "Marine." No "S."
你在商船队待过 You were in the Merchant Marines?
我们在亚速尔群岛驻守 And we were stationed off the Azores,
每晚都会听到嘈杂的哽咽声 and every night, we were driven crazy
我们都被逼疯了 by these loud, just, like, strangled sounds.
最后发现只是一群猛鹱在叫 Turns out it was just a bunch of cagarro birds.
我们觉得真的很像 We were literally hearing the sound
达菲鸭溺水时的叫声 of Daffy Duck drowning.
当然跟在瓦尔帕莱索 'Course, that was nothing
发生的事比根本不算什么 compared to what happened in Valparaiso.
你还好吗 Are you okay?
对不起 Sorry.
我只是 我觉得不太舒服 It's just, I -- I'm not feeling so good.
你觉得不舒服吗 You're not feeling well?
我做不到 I can't do this.
什么 What?
好了吗 Is that it?
结束了吗 Are we finished?
是的 马上把你弄出来 Yeah, we're gonna get you out.
能再问几个问题吗 Uh, just a couple more questions?
你母亲在66岁时死于心脏病发 Your mother died age 66 of a heart attack.
当时你在场吗 Were you there when that happened?
是的 我叫的救护车 Yes. I called the ambulance.
等救护车的时候她就去世了 She died while we were waiting.
看看前扣带回皮层 Check the anterior cingulate cortex.
生理和情感痛楚都是在 Physical pain and emotional pain are processed
同一区域处理的 through the same areas.
没反应 Nothing.
但我们不知道她跟母亲的感情如何 But we don't know how she feels about her mother.
那是你母亲 It's your mother.
她去世时 大脑都会一片空白 When she goes, there is a vacuum.
那你丈夫呢 What about your husband?
他最近有过什么问题吗 Has he had any problems lately?
一年前他得过一次癌症 He had a cancer scare about a year ago.
这里有轻微的活动 但非常微弱 Slight activity here, but it's pretty weak.
你想用她既不爱母亲也不爱丈夫 You want to argue that she doesn't like her mother
来反驳我吗 and her husband?
她就像...一位超级英雄 She's like...a superhero.
没有什么能真正伤害到她 Nothing can really hurt her.
一切还好吗 Is everything okay?
你的右手发红了 Your right hand is red.
有点肿 Starting to swell.
那是什么意思 What does that mean?
感染 Infection.
你好 Hello.
你的手术很成功 Your surgery went well.
如果没有延迟性并发症 If there are no delayed complications,
过几天你就能出院了 you should be discharged in a few days.
很好 那总体来看呢 That's great, but what about the big picture?
我一离开这里 回去还是会被下毒 Once I'm out of here, I'll go back to being poisoned.
你的很多公开发言被证明是错的 You make many statements that have been proven wrong.
你真的相信你所说的吗 Do you really believe them?
你想搞清楚哪些是真话 哪些是作秀 You want to untangle what's real and what's for show?
你问吧 Now you're talking.
好 Okay.
你觉得预防接种的损害被掩盖了吗 Do you think vaccination damage is being covered up?
是的 Yes.
你觉得 Do you think
孩子死于校园枪击案的父母都是 the parents of children killed in school shootings
「危机演员」吗 are "Crisis actors"?
我的回答不代表他人 I can't answer for individuals,
但我确实相信这个国家有一股势力 but I do believe there's a force in this country
想诱骗人们 that wants to scam our people
放下武器 into laying down their arms.
但我不再认为 But I no longer think
那个披萨连锁店的地下室里 there's a pedo-slave-ring
有个恋童癖圈子[指谣传的披萨门事件] in a basement under that pizza joint.
那件事我搞错了 That was a wrong call.
当你意识到 What did you do
自己的错误时 你做了什么 when you realized you'd made an error?
什么都没做 Nothing.
不道歉 不承认错误 No apologies, no admissions.
只要你说自己错了 The second you say you were wrong,
他们就会觉得你说的一切都是错的 they'll make it seem like everything you know is wrong.
你不能给他们这种把柄 You can't give them that ammunition.
所以你说的并不一定是事实 Then you're not really offering the truth.
也许如果人们看到你承认错误 Maybe if people saw you admit you were wrong,
他们反而会更相信你 maybe they'd believe you more.
不可能 No.
不存在中间地带 There is no middle ground.
妥协就是一种欺骗 Compromise is a scam.
如果只有一边能得偿所愿 When only one side can get what it wants,
确保那是你这边 make sure it's yours.
我们必须手术切除所有感染的组织 We have to surgically remove all infected tissue.
立即 防止感染扩散 Immediately. Stop it from spreading.
我们发现莉莉感觉不到疼痛 We discovered that Lily can't feel pain,
所以阑尾炎没有得到及时治疗 which is why the appendicitis went untreated,
导致大面积感染 causing a widespread infection.
我感觉不到...痛 I can't...feel pain?
这没道理啊 That makes no sense.
不管你的神经受到怎样的刺激 Whatever stimulation your nerves receive,
你的大脑都不会把它识别为疼痛 your brain doesn't acknowledge it as pain.
不 我能感到痛 No, I feel pain.
是吗 我正在掐你 Do you? Because I'm pinching you.
我感觉到了 I feel it.
但你没跳起来也没有任何反应 But you didn't jump or react.
你觉得这是触摸 You felt it as a touch.
不管是生理还是感情上的痛都是这样 Physical or emotional pain, it doesn't matter.
好吧 我们走 二号手术室 Okay, let's go. O.R. 2.
别躲了 Stop hiding.
我没躲 我在想事情 I'm not hiding. I'm thinking.
我已经想过了 我想到的是 Well, I've done my thinking, and what I've come up with is,
我应该得到一个比 I deserve a better explanation
「我做不到」更好的解释 than "I can't do this."
因为那句话太羞辱人了 Because that was humiliating.
对不起 I'm sorry.
对不起 You're sorry?
这是什么意思 What does that mean?
我们是明天再去 Are we going back tomorrow?
再也不去了 还是怎样 Never? What?
是你向我求的婚 You are the one that proposed to me.
是你告诉我 You're the one that told me
跟我在一起 你多么开心 how happy our being together makes you.
我是很开心 真的 It makes me happy. It does.
但我向你求婚的时候 But when I proposed to you,
你还说「我不了解你」 y-you even said, "I don't know you."
就是因为这个吗 Is -- is that what this is about?
因为我... Because I was...
因为我曾经在商船上满世界跑 Because I was in the Merchant Marine?
我是说 是的 好吧 我... I mean, yes, okay, I -- I -- I --
惊讶于你有多少我不知道的事 it makes me wonder what else I don't know about you.
但更重要的是 这让我意识到 But more importantly, it makes me realize
你对我一无所知 you don't know anything about me.
我真的挺烦人的 I am really annoying.
我是个暴脾气 I'm easily irritable.
比如有人用「真的」这个词来描述 Like when people use the word "literally"
并非真实的事情时 about things that aren't literal.
没人能忍受跟我生活 I am impossible to live with.
也许这是真的 Maybe literally.
这一点我早就明白 That's been made very clear to me in the past.
我不希望我们的婚姻只持续两年就结束了 I don't want to go two years and get divorced.
跟你离婚会让我很伤心 Divorcing you would hurt.
谢谢 Thank you.
但这都是废话 But that's a bunch of crap.
你知道的 对吗 You know that, right?
我们的处事风格完全不同 We have different personal styles.
你喜欢方方面面都考虑周全 You like to examine things from every angle,
而我 时不时喜欢纵身跳入黑暗的深海 and I -- I like to take a leap into the dark every now and then.
你说得对 You're right.
我不敢纵身一跃 I am not a leaper.
我只会伸出脚尖试探 I am a toe-dipper.
即使海水很温暖 我也要试探两小时 Takes me two hours to get into the ocean
再下水 even when it's warm.
我知道你是为我好 I know that you're good for me.
而我知道 我也是在为你好 亚伦 And I know that I'm good for you, Aaron.
自从遇到我 Since meeting me,
你就跳下船了 离开你舒适的工作 you've jumped ship from a comfortable career
因为你已意识到自己错过了某些东西 because you decided that you were missing something.
而且 And...
你请求一个你完全不了解的人 you asked a complete stranger
嫁给你 to marry you.
谁知道接下来会怎样 Who knows what's next?
我猜你还要继续思考 I guess you'll have to keep thinking.
布朗医生 扩大清创范围 Dr. Browne, widen the debridement.
向近端延伸切口 Extending the incisions proximally.
她丈夫觉得她是块石头 Her husband thought she was a rock.
现在看来她确实是块石头 Turns out she's a rock
因为对她来说什么都不重要 because nothing matters to her.
你这只是假设 You're making assumptions.
我们监测过她对疼痛的反应 We were monitoring her reaction to pain.
爱不在监测范围内 Love wasn't part of the test.
你在乎 就会受伤 You care, you hurt.
也许莉莉不是这样 Maybe not Lily.
她嫁给了这位男士 跟他一起生活多年 She married this man. She stayed with him for years.
也许对她而言没有失去的疼痛也可以有爱 Maybe for her, love can exist without the pain of loss.
像天堂一样美好 That would be paradise.
这里的坏死组织比我预料的 There is way more necrotic tissue here
要多得多 than I expected.
这只手保不住了 She's gonna lose the hand.
愿所有人对坏消息都能淡然应对 Well, if anyone can handle bad news...
你要牵我的手吗 Are you going to take my hand?
现在不牵 不 Not right now, no.
我不喜欢牵手 I don't like to hold hands.
在牵不牵手的问题上 Either we hold hands or we don't.
没有妥协 There's no compromise.
我们中只有一个人能得偿所愿 Only one of us can get what they want.
我觉得是这样 I guess that's true --
那个人应该是我 It should be me.
牵手会让我不舒服 Holding hands makes me uncomfortable.
但不牵手不会让你不舒服 Not holding hands doesn't make you uncomfortable.
我们那天晚上看的那个剧 That show we watched the other night --
有个大团圆结局 it had a happy ending.
因为故事在美好的时候就结束了 Because they stopped the story in a good place.
但在现实生活中 But in real life,
生活会变得又黑又冷 it's gonna get dark and cold out there.
我们所拥有的 All we have...
就是这双手 is this.
牵手代表我们在一起 This says we're in it together,
我们互相支持 we've got each other's back,
并且尽所能地支持彼此 that we'll hold each other up for as long as we can.
我可以用嘴说这些 I can say all those things verbally.
你可以喊出来 You could shout them,
但不会比这个更有力量 and it wouldn't say it as loud as this.
你说不牵手不会让我不舒服 You said that not holding hands wouldn't make me uncomfortable,
但是会 but it would.
我会觉得 I would feel...
有阻隔 ...separate.
没关系 It's all right.
考虑到你没有疼痛警告系统 You've actually been lucky,
你其实是幸运的 considering you have no warning system.
你需要做自我检查 You need to be doing self-checks --
膝盖 脚 手肘 手 knees, feet, elbows, hands.
寻找瘀伤 褪色的地方 Look for bruises, discolorations.
任何改变都可能是危险的 Anything at all that changes could be dangerous --
危及生命的 life-threatening.
但还有另外一个选择 But there's another option.
纳洛酮影响中枢神经系统 Naloxone affects the central nervous system.
它已被证明会阻断 It's been shown to block the action
降低疼痛的内啡肽发挥作用 of pain-lowering endorphins.
它能让你感到疼痛 It could give you the ability to feel pain.
我不明白你的意思 到目前为止我还好 I don't see the point. I've been fine so far.
听起来有点傻 Guess that sounds a little silly.
我知道 我刚失去了一只手 I know -- I just lost a hand.
但现在我知道如何检查自己 But now I know about checking myself,
我会更加小心的 and I'll be a lot more careful.
为什么一个动作那么重要 Why is one gesture so important?
卡莉还在逼你牵手 Carly still pushing you to hold hands?
没有 No.
我试了 她说没关系 I tried, and she said it was all right.
你应该告诉你刚才是什么意思 You should give me context for that "Huh."
她想要 She wants it.
她只是放弃了 She's just given up.
很好 Good.
不是 No.
如果这会影响到 Not if it's gonna bother her
你们以后可能 for the rest of your relationship,
不会太久的关系 which may not be very long.
我们需要影像检查来确定不是分流术的问题 We need to do imaging to make sure the problem isn't the shunt,
然后检查是否有血栓引起逆流 then check there isn't a clot causing backup --
手术很成功 但还有人在给我下毒吗 The surgery was a success, but I'm still being poisoned?
不 No.
手术很成功 The surgery was a success,
但是你的肝脏还在恶化 but your liver's still deteriorating.
我们不知道为什么 We don't know why.
珍 给我办出院 换家医院 Jen, check me out of here. Find another hospital.
我不能同意 斯图尔特先生 I can't approve that, Mr. Stewart.
你的身体还不能离开医院 You're in no condition to leave the hospital --
你刚证实医院里有人在给我下毒 You just confirmed that someone in this hospital is poisoning me.
你想让我和嫌疑犯合作 You want me to cooperate with the suspects?
另一家医院解决不了你的问题 Another hospital wouldn't solve your problem.
人们可能会被收买 People can be gotten to
被贿赂 被威胁 bribed or threatened.
没错 Right.
这里有人想要杀害我 Someone here wants to kill me.
-没人想要 -控制不定因素 - No one is trying - Let's constrain some of these variables.
只有一个人可以碰我 One person touches me.
他 Him.
他不知道怎么撒谎 He doesn't know how to lie.
我可以撒谎 Oh, I can lie.
对 但没成功 不错的选择 Yes, but not successfully. Good choice.
我能打网球吗 Will I be able to play tennis?
最终可以 Yes -- eventually.
有意思 我从来不会打 Funny, I never could before.
你总是能泰然面对一切 You always take things well.
我们不得不从达拉谟搬走 We had to pick up and move from Durham.
那是为了你的工作 Well, that was for your job.
对此闷闷不乐是没有意义的 No sense in moping about it.
流产 The miscarriage.
你从未提起过 所以 You never talked about it, so...
我从未提起 我是不想伤害你 I never talked about it, I didn't want to hurt you.
但...你不提起 But...did you not talk about it
是因为你根本没在意过吗 because you just weren't thinking about it?
问这些问题是为了什么 What are all these questions for?
我以为我们一起背着重担 I thought we were carrying the load together,
知道彼此的感受 knowing how each other felt.
这不是关于我们 This isn't about us.
这只是医学症状 This is just... a medical condition.
如果我死了 你会在意吗 If I died, would you care?
你会想念我吗 或者 Would you miss me, or, uh,
还是你就向前看了 would you just... move on?
你想让我痛苦吗 Would you want me to be miserable?
我想你能重视 I want it to matter.
当然重视 Of course it matters.
你知道我爱你 You know I love you.
乔纳斯 Jonas.
也许 Maybe...
你觉得这是爱 但就像疼痛一样 you think it's love, but it's like the pain --
只是没有那么深 it just doesn't go that deep.
但我爱你难道就一定要 But isn't it possible for me to love you
被痛苦包围折磨吗 without it being all wrapped up in suffering?
但爱就是这样 But that's how it works.
当你失去挚爱时不该像你失去手这样 When you lose someone, it shouldn't be like your hand.
爱会痛 It should ache.
这才是对的 不是吗 That's right, isn't it?
这就是失去的感觉 That's what loss feels like?
我得出去透口气 I need to get away for a while.
抱歉 I'm sorry.
接下来 我们将检查你的 Next, we're going to test you
自身免疫性肝炎和脂肪肝 for autoimmune hepatitis and fatty liver.
这些疾病的症状与现在的症状相同 Those are diseases whose symptoms overlap yours.
它们可能被 They might have been masked
你的特发性门静脉高压所掩盖 by your idiopathic portal hypertension.
维兰纽瓦护士 欢迎 Nurse Villanueva. Welcome.
但是你知道我不会碰的 But you know I'm not gonna touch that.
营养师帮你点的 他们只是让我送过来 The dietician ordered it for you, and I'm required to bring it.
如果你拒绝医院的食物 你会吃什么 What are you eating if you're refusing hospital food?
每天八十克蛋白质 80 grams of protein a day.
羽衣甘蓝和菜心 Kale and baby greens.
「豹之春」 "Leopard Spring."
珍 德克斯 你们出去一下 Jen, Dex, you mind stepping out?
这是中药 It's Chinese herbs.
让你感觉更年轻 更有活力 更 To make you feel younger, more energetic, more...
阳刚 virile.
你感觉不阳刚 You don't feel virile?
我当然有 但想让自己更阳刚并没有错 Of course I do, but there's nothing wrong with feeling more virile.
我需要力量来战斗 I need strength for the fight.
你没说话了 这有问题吗 You're not talking. Is there a problem?
没有 这些药草是无害的 No. These herbs are harmless.
你问了关于我的阳刚之气 You asked about my virility.
我很好奇 I was curious.
我们要检查你的自身免疫性肝炎和脂肪肝 We're going to test you for autoimmune hepatitis and fatty liver.
怎么了 What's up?
我检查了一个病患的 I tested a patient
自体免疫性肝炎和脂肪肝 for autoimmune hepatitis and fatty liver.
你们怎么样 What's up with you?
我们的病患决定服药 Our patient decided to take the drugs.
因为我想丈夫的离开会让她印象深刻 Because I guess a husband walking out can make an impression
即使她感觉不到痛苦 even on a woman who feels no pain.
这两项检查的资料太多了 That's a lot of paperwork for two tests.
结果都是阴性 They were negative.
我以为我能从他母亲的病史中 I thought I might find something
找到一些有用的东西 但是没有 in his mother's old records that could help, but no, no.
她的情况很简单 Her case was straightforward.
他的父母都嗜酒 His parents were both alcoholics,
但她的肝脏功能已因病症素减弱了 but her liver was already weakened by her condition.
父母都嗜酒 Parents both alcoholics?
难怪他认为掌权者喜欢否认真相 No wonder he thinks people in authority like to deny the truth.
他现在长大了 克莱尔 He's grown up now, Claire.
不再那么想了 No longer in that position.
世界上仍然还有很多谎言 There's still plenty of lying going on in the world.
这不是你长大后就能摆脱的情况 That's not a situation you outgrow.
没错 Yes.
是有很多谎言 There is a lot of lying.
想听我的看法吗 Want to hear my theories?
首先和母亲吵架 Fight with your mother is number one.
你在考虑要不要把她赶出去 You're debating whether to throw her out.
这个看法解释了什么 This theory explains what?
为什么通常富有同情心的克莱尔·布朗医生 Why the usually compassionate Dr. Claire Browne
会嫉妒一个没有痛苦的女人 envies a woman who feels no pain.
你很痛苦 很伤心 You're miserable, torn.
你不知道该怎么做才能让自己的痛苦消失 You don't know what to do to make your own pain go away.
想听我的看法吗 Want to hear my theory?
除你以外的人都做得很好 People that aren't you are doing great,
所以你在找一个可以弄坏的玩具 so you're looking for a toy you can break,
一个可以折磨的宠物 a pet you can torture.
-她痛吗 -没有 - Is she in pain? - No.
她的生命体征怎么样 What are her vitals?
体征都很正常 Vitals are fine.
那她怎么处于危险期 Then how can she be in crisis?
我不知道 但确实有事 I don't know. But she is.
莉莉 Lily?
你还好吗 Are you okay?
莉莉 Lily?
我从来没有注意到这些墙有多难看 I never noticed how ugly the walls are.
我发现了你肝脏问题的原因 I've discovered the cause of your liver problem.
真的吗 脂肪肝 自身免疫性肝炎 Really? Fatty liver? Autoimmune?
我从未有症状 I've never had any symptoms of --
不 你中毒了 No. You were being poisoned.
什么 What?
谁 你知道谁干的 怎么下毒的 Who? Do you know who? How?
我想也许药瓶上的中药剂量是错的 I thought maybe the dose of herbs listed on the bottle was wrong --
这有中毒剂量 There's a toxic dose in there?
不是 这里根本没有中药 No. There are no herbs at all in here.
这里面有西地那非 It contains sildenafil.
它是伟哥中的活性成分 It's the active element in Viagra.
它能促进血液在阴茎里的流动 It promotes blood flow in your penis.
我知道它的作用 I know what it does.
他们说这是天然草本植物 They say it's natural herbs.
他们撒谎了 They lied.
你的特发性门静脉高压症 Your idiopathic portal hypertension
意味着你的肝脏更容易受伤 means your liver is vulnerable to abuse.
瓶子里伟哥的剂量通常不会致人死命 The amount of sildenafil in here wouldn't kill most people,
但一个肝脏之前问题的人 but if someone with pre-existing liver issues
天天吃的话 took it every day...
你说得对 You were right.
你一直在给自己下毒 You've been poisoning yourself.
这是好消息 It's good news.
这些社会主义混蛋 Those Communist bastards.
我想这药是在圣佩德罗产的 I think they're based in San Pedro.
巴斯托先生 Mr. Barstow.
莉莉还好吗 Is Lily all right?
她在用药 缓解她的无痛症状 She's on medication to reverse her pain-free condition,
但这对她打击很大 but it's hit her hard.
她从未经历过负面的想法和情绪 She's being wrung out by all the negative thoughts and feelings
而我们早已对此习以为常 the rest of us have all built calluses against.
但她做得对是吗 But she made the right choice?
她需要这样来确保安全 I mean, she needs this to be safe.
我觉得她这么做不是为了安全 I don't think she's doing this to be safe.
我觉得她这么做是因为你走了 I think she's doing this because you walked out.
为什么 Why?
你们幸福了这么多年 You were happy for years.
现在你非得让你妻子改变才能幸福吗 Now you're sure you can't be happy unless your wife changes?
我想让她感受到我感受的一切 I want her to feel everything I feel.
爱 疼痛 一切 你不这么想吗 The love, the pain, everything. Wouldn't you?
这家医院的住院医生总加班 你知道为什么吗 The residents in this hospital work long hours. You know why?
因为管事的外科医生在他们 Because the surgeons in charge worked long hours
还是住院医生时也加班 when they were residents.
他们受了苦 所以我们也要受苦 人性使然 They suffered, so we have to suffer. It's human nature.
-这和... -但你妻子 - What does that -- - But someone like your wife,
如此脆弱 so invulnerable,
就好像她逃过了一劫 it's -- it's like she's gotten away with something.
很难去怨恨她 It's hard not to resent her.
当然 我们想「治愈」她 Sure, we want to "cure" her,
但这其中有多少是为了给她疼痛警告系统 but how much of it is -- is to give her a warning system,
有多少是因为 and how much is because
我们想让她和其他人一样经受地狱般的折磨 we want to pull her down into hell with the rest of us?
你现在是已婚人士了吗 Are you married now?
没有 No.
我退缩了 I chickened out.
显然我不喜欢改变 Apparently, I don't like change.
改变让我很紧张 Change makes me very nervous.
我不是世上最容易相处的人 I'm not the easiest man in the world to live with.
我的第一任妻子表达得很清楚 My first wife made that very clear.
没错 It's true.
你有时脾气很不好 You can be very irritating.
你是说我不该结婚吗 Are you saying I shouldn't get married?
你在问我的建议吗 Are you asking for my advice?
对 Yes.
你以前从没问过我 You've never really asked before.
这是个重大的决定 And this is an important decision.
你的幸福与此相关 Your happiness depends on it.
这很重大 This is huge.
所以呢 Well?
我没有建议 I don't have any advice.
我根本不理解这事 I don't even understand the issue.
我也不理解为什么 I also don't understand why you asked
你都决定了还问我 when you've already made up your mind.
什么 What?
你通常叫她前妻 You usually call her your ex-wife.
但你刚喊她「第一任」 You just called her your "first."
这暗示了有第二任 It implies a second.
你干嘛盯着后备箱 Why are you staring in your trunk?
里面有解决你问题的答案吗 Something in here the answer to your problem?
瑜伽垫 Yoga mat...
健身包 gym bag..
备用运动鞋 extra sneakers...
还有地震应急包 Here's a little earthquake kit.
真周到 So sensible.
脏毛巾 Dirty towel.
-这是什么 -放回去 - What's this? - Put it back.
这是我妈妈 It's my mom.
黛比 向左看
你怎么跳来跳去 Why are you jumping?
不是跳来跳去 是在蹦 I'm not jumping. I'm leaping.
来吧 和我一起蹦 Come on. Come leap with me.
我们不能都上去蹦 We both can't leap on that thing.
你还好吗 Are you okay?
从没更好过 Never better.
你愿意和我一起蹦去 Will you leap with me...
市政厅吗 to City Hall?
我愿意 Yes, I will.
还有 我也许伤到脚踝了 Also, I may have done something to my ankle.
你想让我叫人吗 Do you want me to... call someone --
我不该后悔 宝贝 Shouldn't regret nothing, baby.
我留下香槟 I left the champagne
因为我准备好获胜了 because I was so ready for victory.
现在我都不知道该拿骨灰怎么办 Now I don't even know what to do with the damn ashes.
在柜里和备用毛巾放一起吗 Leave them on a shelf in the closet with the spare towels?
扔进垃圾箱吗 Put them down the disposal?
她想怎么办 What did she want done with them?
太傻了 她肯定是在开玩笑 It was stupid. I'm sure she was joking.
对 大家都在遗嘱里开玩笑 Yeah, everyone jokes in their will.
海洋科学中心 The Marine Science Center.
她喜欢海狮 She loved sea lions.
她经常带我去看它们 是我俩的秘密 She'd take me to see them all the time. It was a thing.
每到一座城市她都会问「不知道这里有没有海狮」 Any city we were in, "I wonder if they have sea lions."
你得去做 立刻 You need to do it. Now.
不 不行 No. No.
这么做毫无意义 It is a pointless gesture
因为我妈已经死了 而且她不在乎 because my mother is dead and she doesn't care.
完美 中心今晚正好有场关门后的活动 Perfect. The center's open this evening for an after-hours event.
我们得换身衣服 We'll have to dress up.
今晚最酷炫海洋生物的赢家是 The winner of tonight's vote for Most Fabulous Sea Creature,
吸血鬼乌贼 the vampire squid!
我感觉好傻 I feel ridiculous!
你看起来很棒 You look great.
你都可以和吸血鬼乌贼媲美了 You could give the vampire squid a run for her money.
我们去找海狮吧 Now let's find the sea lions.
你回来了 You came back.
对 Yeah.
谢天谢地 Thank God.
我们停止治疗 We'll stop this.
会没事的 It'll be all right.
医生 你得把输液管里的这些玩意拿走 Doctor, you got to get this stuff out of her IV.
你不需要 You don't need it.
如果你要小心不受伤害 If you have to be careful about getting hurt,
我会在你身旁帮你 I'll be there to help you.
那些「玩意」之前就撤走了 The "stuff" was removed some time ago.
布朗医生下班前 Before Dr. Browne went off-shift,
她告诉我莉莉遇到了一些问题 she told me that Lily was experiencing some problems.
所以我想最好先不继续药物治疗 So I thought it best to discontinue the medication for a while.
她和你离开时一样 She's as she was when you left her.
你从不哭 You never cry.
当我看到你坐在那里 When I saw you sitting there,
我这辈子没这么开心过 I've never been so happy in my whole life.
我还以为你不想「搞大排场」 I thought you didn't want to "make a fuss."
是啊 Yeah.
谁能想到呢 Who knew?
这感觉好奇怪 This seems weird.
确实奇怪 It is weird.
大部分人死后都会有人举行特定的仪式 Most people have some kind of ritual all ready for them
所以他们无需担心这些事 so they don't have to think about this kind of stuff.
你有祷词吗 You got a prayer?
我没有信仰 I'm not religious.
我妈也没有 Neither was my mom.
大家都有信仰 Everybody has a religion.
不是所有人都信神 但大家都有信仰 Not everybody has a god, but everybody has a religion.
音乐 Music.
你妈妈的信仰是音乐 Your mother's religion was music.
唱吧 Sing.
在变装派对的海狮馆吗 By the sea lion colony at a drag pride party?
或者你可以直接撒了 继续感觉奇怪 Or you can just dump it out and feel weird.
你决定 Your call.
♪奇异♪ ♪ Ama-- ♪
BGM: Amazing Grace by Antonia Thoma
好吧 Okay.
♪奇异♪ ♪ Ama... ♪
♪恩典♪ ♪ ...zing grace ♪
天哪 Oh, God.
♪何等♪ ♪ How sweet ♪
♪甘甜♪ ♪ The sound ♪
♪我罪♪ ♪ That saved ♪
♪已得♪ ♪ A wretch ♪
♪赦免♪ ♪ Like meeeeeeeeeeee ♪
♪我曾♪ ♪ I once ♪
♪迷失♪ ♪ Was lost ♪
♪今被♪ ♪ But now ♪
♪寻回♪ ♪ Am found ♪
♪眼盲♪ ♪ Was blind ♪
♪今得♪ ♪ But now ♪
♪看见♪ ♪ I seeeeeeeeeee ♪
♪如此恩典♪ ♪ 'Twas grace that taught ♪
♪使我敬畏♪ ♪ My heart to fear ♪
♪使我心得安慰♪ ♪ And grace, my fears relieved ♪
♪初信之时♪ ♪ How precious did ♪
♪即蒙恩惠♪ ♪ That Grace appear ♪
♪真是何等♪ ♪ The hour I first ♪
♪宝贵♪ ♪ Believed ♪
♪奇异恩典♪ ♪ Amazing grace ♪
♪何等甘甜♪ ♪ How sweet the sound ♪
♪我罪已得♪ ♪ That saved a wretch ♪
♪赦免♪ ♪ Like meeeeeeeeeeee ♪
♪我曾迷失♪ ♪ I once was lost ♪
♪今被寻回♪ ♪ But now am found ♪
♪眼盲♪ ♪ Was blind ♪
♪今得看见♪ ♪ But now I see ♪