1995年6月
意大利 米兰
我安排了一次访谈 I've arranged an interview.
和谁 With who?
《倡导者》 The Advocate magazine.
美国的杂志 The American publication.
专门面向同性恋者的 For gay readers.
谈什么 To say what?
我从没说出的 I've never said it.
我是基 I'm gay.
印出来 让大众看到吗 To print? To publish?
是的 Yes.
我负责公司的公关 I handle publicity for this company.
这是我的责任 This is my responsibility.
是的 但这与你无关 Yes, but this is not about you.
也远不止是你自己的事 And this is about more than you.
怎么说 In what way?
这本杂志的发行量适中 The magazine has a modest circulation.
你怎么能不问我就擅作决定呢 How can you decide this without consulting me?
问你 Uh, consulting you?
好吧 我问问你 Okay, I'm consulting you.
你会怎么建议 What would you advise?
是啊 你怎么建议 Yes, what would you advise?
原来是你的主意 Ah, this is your idea.
你想出名 You want to be famous.
让全世界都知道你是范思哲的情人 Known around the world as Versace's lover?
13年了 我被误认为是詹尼的助手 For 13 years, I've been mistaken for Gianni's assistant.
所以你的自尊比公司还重要 And your pride is more important than this company?
我被人忽视 I've lived unseen.
但活得舒舒服服 这可以肯定 In great comfort, that's for sure.
我从没想过 I never imagined
被世人承认 being publicly acknowledged.
和你不同 我知道我的地位 I know my place, unlike you.
那我什么地位啊 And what is my place?
够了 你们俩都够了 Enough! Enough, both of you.
我不要为此争吵 I will not... fight over this.
这是我的主意 我的主意 It was my idea, it was my idea.
多娜泰拉 陪我走走 Donatella, walk with me.
来吧 Come.
我希望你能支持我 I want you to support me.
你明白的 You know that.
这些人的生机都依赖于你 All these people's lives depend on you.
我们店所在的有些国家 同性恋是违法的 We're opening stores in countries where it is illegal.
是一种犯罪 Where it is a crime.
你还得去那些国家 You have to visit those countries.
你可能会入境被拒 They might refuse your entry,
签证被拒 生意被拒 refuse a visa, refuse to do business with you.
跟我说实话 Tell me, honestly...
你觉得会发生什么 ...what do you think could happen?
那些摇滚明星 演员 The rock stars, the actors,
对我们非常重要的皇家支持 the royalty whose endorsements we cherish...
可能都不再会想跟我们扯上关系 they might not want to be associated with us.
艾尔顿·约翰 英国同性恋歌手
至少艾尔顿不会跑 是吧 Well, at least we keep Elton, no?
你开玩笑吗 You joke?
开玩笑的吧 Joke?
现在说的可是公司的生死存亡啊 We're talking about the survival of the company.
你是这么想的吗 Is that what you believe?
你生活在象牙塔里 You live in isolation.
身边都是美丽和善良 Surrounded by beauty and kindness.
你已经忘了这个世界能有多丑恶 You have forgotten how ugly the world can be.
那些我们为她们设计衣服的女人 The women we design for,
她们都很坚强 不是吗 they're strong, yes?
无所畏惧 They're fearless.
从不为自己羞耻 They're not ashamed.
-这不一样 -不一样啊 - This is not the same. - It's not the same.
难道范思哲这个牌子比我这个人要强 Is the brand of Versace braver than the man?
你是气我 还是气这个世界 Are you angry with me or with the world?
我们公司在美国证券市场上市的时候 When we list the company on the New York Stock Exchange,
你的上市费会是多少 what will your admission cost?
一百万 一个亿 $1 million? $100 million?
还是公司一文不值呢 Or will it make this company worth nothing?
你夸张了 别搞笑 You're exaggerating. Don't be ridiculous.
派瑞·艾力斯 Perry Ellis.
那场秀他走上T台 因为得了艾滋 When he walked onto the runway dying of AIDS,
身体太虚弱 鞠躬的时候助手不得不扶着他 so weak, his assistants caught him when he took a bow...
-那也许是他最重要的一场秀 -之后 - Perhaps his most important show. - After that,
-人们就不再买他的衣服了 -有些人而已 - people stopped buying his clothes. - Some people.
不 詹尼 是很多人 No, Gianni, a lot of people.
不 不 有些人罢了 No, no, no. Some people.
有些人 Some people.
回答我 为什么是现在 Answer me this: why now?
因为我病了 Because I was sick.
但没死 And I didn't die.
我有了第二次机会 I have a second chance.
我能活下来就是个奇迹 It's a miracle that I'm alive.
我每天都问自己 And yet I ask myself every day,
我做了什么能配得上这个机会 what have I done to deserve this?
我为什么还活着 Why am I still here?
去畏手畏脚吗 To be afraid?
不 No.
我活下来了 我必须利用好 I'm alive and I must use it.
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库南安先生 我只能说 Mr. Cunanan, I appreciate
圣地亚哥 加州
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我只再需要一笔贷款就够了 All I need to do is make one more purchase,
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█ 网易见外
就是西北航空前往明尼阿波里斯的 and that's for a one-way ticket to Minneapolis
单程票 on Northwest Airlines.
先生 美国运通还 Sir, American Express is not
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█ 人人译视界
没有贷款业务... in the business of loaning...
我一到明尼阿波里斯 一切就都能解决了 Well, once I get to Minneapolis, I can fix everything.
我会再成为你最优质的客户的 Then I will be your very best customer again,
翻译 草草 子V
我保证 I promise you.
这不好说 明尼阿波里斯有什么 I don't know. What's in Minneapolis?
我的两个挚友 My two best friends.
翻译 冰岛豆腐
我要搬去和我朋友大卫住了 I'm moving in with my friend David,
杰夫还欠了我一万美元呢 and Jeff actually owes me more than $10,000.
只要我拿到那笔钱 他们就会帮我 But once I get that money, they're gonna help me
校对 冰岛豆腐
恢复正轨的 turn my life right back around.
你会还钱的吧 Will you be making a repayment?
时间轴 风吹来的那片云
是的 只要我到明尼阿波里斯 Well, yes, once I get to Minneapolis.
库南安先生 我再重复一遍 Mr. Cunanan, to be clear,
您申请美国运通 you're requesting that American Express
后期 拉图
将您的限额增加到一张单程票的额度 extend your credit to cover a one-way ticket
为了使您能还上款 是吗 in order to make a repayment, correct?
总监 爵士年代蓬蓬裙
是的 我就这个要求 Yes, that's all I need.
我和主管领导谈一下 Let me talk to my supervisor.
我等着 I can hold.
《倡导者》 詹尼·范思哲
明尼阿波里斯 明尼苏达州
我能过去吗 May I?
你当过兵 You serve?
是的 先生 Yes, sir.
-海军陆战队 -海军 - Marines? - Navy.
我在葛瑞德利号上 I was on board the USS Gridley.
陆军师第一队 海湾战争 1st Infantry Division. Gulf War.
-杰夫 -萨姆森 - Jeff. - Samson.
陆军师当时在哪儿 Where was the Gridley?
92年在波斯湾 Persian Gulf in '92.
后来 我们在圣地亚哥登陆的 After that, we were docked in San Diego.
本来是要改装船的 后来改了主意 They were refitting her, but they changed their minds
决定让她退役了 and decided to decommission her.
我到现在都很难过 那是条好船 Still makes me sad. She was a good ship.
你想念吗 You miss it?
每天都想 Every day.
为什么退役 Why'd you leave?
不知道 I don't know.
但肯定是后悔的 I regret it, for sure.
我永远当不了军官的 Well, I was never gonna become an officer,
-所以我想... -我是军官 - so I figured... - I was an officer.
是吗 You were?
毕业于安纳波利斯 Graduate from Annapolis.
我哥哥是海军看护兵 姐姐在空军 My brother's a navy corpsman, my sister's in the air force.
结婚了吗 You married?
没 No.
还在等真命天女 Waiting for the right one, I guess.
为什么退役 Why'd you leave?
我还没听说过军官会选择退役 I haven't heard of many officers leaving
选择这种工作的 to work at a place like this.
-这地方挺好的 -当然 挺好 - This place is okay. - Sure, it's okay.
但对去过安纳波利斯的人嘛 For a man who went to Annapolis?
我就是这么决定的 I made the decision.
是啊 Right.
我老婆总说我问题太多了 My wife always says I ask too many questions.
我做了决定 好吗 I made the decision, okay?
我冒犯你了 对不起 I offended you. I'm sorry.
那就不提了 Why don't we leave it there?
我做的决定 I made the decision!
杰夫 Jeff.
有个叫安德鲁的人打电话给你 留了信 Someone named Andrew called, left a message.
说会在机场见你 Says he'll see you at the airport.
没想到你会来 Didn't think you were gonna show.
我也没想到 I didn't think so, either.
你知道他为什么要来吗 Do you know why he's coming here?
-不知道 -我也不懂 - Nope. - I don't get it.
周末没什么事啊 Nothing's happening this weekend.
他没有朋友 一无所有 He's got no one. He's got nothing.
他对你所说的一切都是谎言 Everything he's told you about his life's a lie.
你知道的 是吧 You know that, right?
你不喜欢他吗 Do you even like him?
他曾帮过我 He was there for me once.
我欠他的 不一样 I owe him. It's not the same.
-我对他有点愧疚 -别 - I feel kind of sorry for him. - Don't.
-他孤零零的 -是有原因的 - He's lonely. - For a reason.
听着 看在老交情的份上 我周末陪他 Look, I'm gonna give him this weekend, for old times' sake,
然后就跟他一刀两断 and then I'm done with him.
他要住三晚 He's here for three nights.
明晚可以住我那儿 He can have my apartment tomorrow night.
我找我姐姐 I'll stay at my sister's.
但别告诉他我在哪儿 好吗 But don't tell him where I am, okay?
他是疯子 可能会找过去 He's so crazy, he might just show up.
三个老朋友 The Three Amigos!
你好吗 How are you?
很好 很好 Oh, good. Good.
-杰夫 -安德鲁 - Jeff. - Andrew.
周末我们会玩得开心的 Oh, we're gonna have so much fun this weekend.
就像以前一样 It's gonna be just like old times.
不会像以前一样的 Not like old times.
干嘛这么说 Why would you say that?
我今晚不能陪你们了 I'm not gonna be able to hang out with you guys tonight.
为什么啊 Oh, why not?
因为你做的事啊 Aside from everything you've done?
我干了什么 What did I do?
我公司有销售会 My company has a sales conference.
我周日前都不在 I'm away till Sunday.
但我会给你写明信片的 But I'll be sure to write you a postcard.
你还在生气吗 Oh, are you still annoyed about that?
我以为我们谈过了 我说了... I thought we talked about this. I expla--
我不小心给杰夫爸爸寄了张明信片 I accidentally sent Jeff's dad a postcard.
我把斯坦·特雷尔写成了杰夫·特雷尔 I put "Stan Trail" Instead of "Jeff Trail."
他们不知道他是同性恋 And they don't know that he's gay,
而我最后的签名是 爱你 小鲁 亲亲 and I signed it "Love, Drew. Kiss-kiss."
我搞错了 对不起 I made a mistake. I'm sorry.
那又怎么样呢 So what?
你明晚可以住我那儿 You can stay at my place tomorrow night.
我反正不在家 I won't be at home.
我干嘛要找地方住 Why do I need a place to stay?
我明晚很忙 I'm busy tomorrow night.
忙什么啊 Doing what?
见个朋友 Seeing a friend.
谁啊 什么朋友 Who? What friend?
你不认识 No one you know.
伙计 好啊 Hey, buddy. Hey.
你好啊 今天过得好吗 Hey, you. Hey. How was your day?
今天过得好吗 How was your day?
想我了吗 You miss me?
这是什么 What's this?
我给你买了东西 I got you something.
打开吧 Open it.
打开啊 Open it.
大卫 David?
大卫 David.
听我说 Listen to me.
大卫·马德森 我希望和你 David Madson, you are the man that I want to spend
共度余生 the rest of my life with.
你愿意和我结婚吗 Will you marry me?
-安德鲁 -你不用现在就给我答复 - Andrew! -Y ou don't have to give me an answer right now.
下面几天你可以考虑考虑 You can think about it for the next few days.
-我们不能结婚 -为什么 - We can't get married. - Why not?
因为不合法 It's against the law.
-谁在乎啊 -每个人 - Who cares about that? - Everyone.
我不在乎 Well, I don't.
不可能的 太疯狂了 It-it can't be done. It's insane.
好吧 好吧 我们换个说法 Okay, okay. We'll call it something else.
我们就说... 就说... We'll call it, um... we'll call it, uh,
承诺仪式 a-a commitment ceremony.
什么 不 不 不是... What? No. No, it-it's not...
说法的问题 the term...
那是什么 Then what is it?
你和我在一起的想法 The idea of you and me.
考虑一下嘛 Think about it.
下面几天好好想想 Think about it for the next few days.
周末的时候想想看 Think about it over the weekend,
不管什么原因 如果你还是不答应 and if, for whatever reason, it's-it's a no,
你还是可以收着这块表的 then you can keep the watch, regardless.
为什么 For what?
因为你改变了我的人生 F-For-for turning my life around.
我有了新工作 I got a new job.
我在旧金山有了新公寓 I got a new condo in San Francisco.
我完全不同了 I'm a whole new person.
我需要的只是... A-And a-all I need is...
一个能陪伴在我身边的人 is someone to be a new person for.
给我 Give it to me.
给 Here.
我不想给你添麻烦 I don't want to be any trouble.
不麻烦 你来了我很开心 No trouble. I love that you're here.
怎么来我这儿了 Why are you here?
我在躲安德鲁 I'm avoiding Andrew.
给爸爸寄了明信片 想要让你出柜的人吗 The guy that sent Dad the postcard, trying to out you?
他说是不小心搞错了 He claims it was a mistake.
我一生犯过很多错 I've made a lot of mistakes in my life.
可从没寄错过明信片 Never sent a postcard by mistake.
-你这辈子都没犯过错 -是啊 - You've never made any mistakes in your life. - No.
我知道 I know.
我不会和他出去的 I'm not gonna hang out with him.
你不该让他那样控制你 You shouldn't let him have that kind of control over you.
他是用明信片威胁你 He was threatening you with that postcard.
为什么不跟爸妈坦白自己的同性恋 Why don't you just tell Mom and Dad you're gay?
我知道他们会怎么想 I know what they're gonna think.
-他们爱你 -现在时机不对 - They love you. - It's not the right time.
永远没有对的时机 It's never the right time.
我不想毁掉这个 I don't want to ruin this.
毁掉什么 我生孩子吗 Ruin what? Childbirth?
他们会非常高兴的 They're gonna be so happy.
我... I...
我希望你这么做 这是我的宝宝 I want you to do it, and it's my baby,
所以作为你的上级领导我命令你 坦白吧 so I'm ordering you, as your superior officer: tell them.
让我想想 Let me think about it.
你想得够多了 You've thought about it enough.
肯定的 That's for sure.
我好期待当叔叔 I'm looking forward to being an uncle so much.
我从没来过扑克酒吧 Never been to a polka club before.
这点子真棒 很新颖 Such a great idea, it's so original.
我喜欢这个 Ooh, I like this.
感觉很特别 This... this-this feels special.
很难忘 It's memorable.
不是我挑的 It wasn't my choice.
什么意思 What do you mean?
我在等我朋友 I'm waiting for my friend.
她品味很奇特 She has quirky taste.
什么朋友 What friend?
琳达 Uh, Linda.
是我同事 I work with her.
大卫 Oh, David.
-还好吗 -很好 - How are you? - I'm good,
-你呢 -我也是 - How are you? - I'm good.
琳达 这是我朋友 安德鲁 Uh, Linda, this is my friend Andrew.
朋友吗 Friend?
我可不止是朋友 I'm more than a friend.
是你送的吗 You got him that?
就是为了让他知道 他对我有多重要 Just to show how much he means to me.
一万块呢 It's worth $10,000.
你是做什么工作的 So, what do you do?
片场设计 I make movie sets.
现在我正在给《泰坦尼克号》做场景 Right now I'm building the sets for the Titanic movie,
在墨西哥 in Mexico.
你来是为了大卫吗 And you're here for David?
他是我的挚爱 There's no one I love more.
他是个好人 He's a great guy.
我们正在聊电影片场和芝加哥 Um, we were just talking about movie sets and Mexico.
墨西哥吗 Mexico?
我们跳舞吧 Let's go dance.
安德鲁 Andrew.
我不需要一整个周末去考虑那件事 I don't need the whole weekend to think about it.
我听不到 I-I can't hear you.
音乐声太大了 The music's too loud.
我不需要一整个周末去考虑那件事 I don't need the whole weekend to think about it.
听不到啊 跳舞吧 I can't hear you, let's just dance.
我们不能结婚 We can't get married.
不能 We can't.
明白吗 You understand?
即使可以 我们也不能 I mean, even if we could, we can't.
我不知道还能说什么 I don't know what else to say.
抱歉 I'm-I'm sorry.
真的很抱歉 I'm really sorry.
睡不着吗 Couldn't sleep?
是的 No.
你在干什么 What are you doing?
安德鲁 Andrew.
你身上有很棒的品质 There's something great about you.
我一直都是这么想的 I've always thought that.
你很慷慨 You're generous.
但我留着这个是不对的 But it's not right that I keep it.
我知道你手头并不宽裕 I know money is tight.
是的 No, it's not.
请人帮忙很正常的 It's okay to ask for help.
而不是编造那些疯狂的故事 Instead of telling all these crazy stories.
什么疯故事 What crazy stories?
你不在墨西哥工作 You're not working in Mexico.
你也没有为《泰坦尼克号》设计场景 You're not making the sets for the Titanic movie.
你在旧金山没有公寓 You don't have a condo in San Francisco.
安德鲁 你不开心 Andrew, you're unhappy.
你帮过很多人 You know, you've helped a lot of people.
让我帮你吧 Let me help you now.
而不是和你结婚 Not by marrying you.
我不知道那是怎么回事 I don't know what that is.
那不可能 It's-it's not possible.
不真实 那是... It's-it's not real, it's just...
什么 What?
另一个疯故事罢了 Another crazy story.
我今晚要见个朋友 I was gonna see a friend tonight,
但我可以取消 but I can cancel.
我们可以聊聊 You know, we can talk.
-任何事 -我说了 - About anything. - I told you,
我要去旧金山开始新生活了 I-I'm gonna start a new life in San Francisco.
我需要有人和我一起分享 And I just need someone to share it with.
周日见 I'll see you Sunday.
是杰夫吗 Is it Jeff?
你要见的朋友 That friend you're seeing?
不是 No.
杰夫 Jeff?
这可能是美国军队在海湾战争后 It may be the military's biggest fight
面对的最大争论了 since the Persian Gulf War.
军队中的同性恋 Homosexuals in the military.
你对军队中的同性恋者怎么看 How do you feel about gays in the military?
我觉得出于他们自身的安全 I don't think faggots should serve in the military,
基佬不该进军队 for their own safety.
如果哪个基佬看我 Look, if a faggot looks at me,
我会把他扔水里的 I'm throwing him in the water.
所以军队里的同性恋 So gays in the military
比战争还让你感到害怕 scare you more than going to war.
是的 先生 是的 Yes, sir, they do.
我们还与一个未出轨的同性恋者聊了 We also sat with a closeted gay man,
但为了继续服役 他只能匿名 who must remain anonymous in order to serve.
目前军队里的同性恋士兵 Are there gay soldiers currently serving
有公开自己性取向的吗 who are open about their sexuality?
军队里的大部分同性恋者 The majority of gays in the military
都没有出柜 are closeted, and...
也会一直保密下去 will always be closeted.
那你呢 What about you?
我不得不这么想 和你交谈 I can't help feeling that, by talking to you,
就等于军队生涯的结束 it's the end of my career.
但也许我的职业生涯早在很多年前就已经完了 But maybe my career actually died a long time ago.
因为人们其实知道 Because they know.
他们怎么知道的 How do they know?
我曾救过一个水手的命 I saved a sailor's life once.
他因为是同性恋 被差点打死 He was being beaten to death for being gay.
如果我不出手 如果我没有阻止他们 And if I hadn't done it, if I hadn't have stopped them,
就没人会怀疑我 no one would have suspected me.
我不知道多少次想象过 And I can't tell you how many times I've dreamt
时光倒流回那一刻 about taking that moment back.
让他死好了 And letting him die.
1995年 11月
杰夫·特雷尔凶杀案 两年前
旧金山 加州 葛瑞德利号
长官 Sir.
基佬 Faggot!
基佬 基佬 Faggot! Faggot!
住手 住手 Break it up, break it up.
放开他 Get off of him.
怎么回事 What's the problem here?
这基佬碰了我 Faggot brushed up against me.
威廉姆斯 Williams.
好吧 我想是个意外 All right, I'm sure it's an accident.
我们都很累了 天又热 We're all tired, it's hot,
今天很累 下面空间又小 it's been a long day, there's no space here.
大家都消停消停吧 Let's forget about it, huh?
你跟这基佬说 如果他再碰我 Well, you tell that faggot, if he touches me again...
对不起 I'm sorry.
-我碰你了吗 -你们扯平了 - Did I touch you? - You're even!
够了 回去工作 That's it! Back to work!
住手 走开 走开 Hey, get off! Move out! Move out!
都走开 回床铺去 Get out of here. Back to your bunks.
你们都要被记过 You'll get written up...
怎么了 What?
天啊 Jesus.
撑住 撑住 伙计 Come on. Come on, buddy.
我们走 Let's go.
我得给你叫医生 I need to get you to a doctor.
那要写报告的 And write a report?
投诉 Make a complaint?
-解释原因 -你受伤了 - Explain why? - You're hurt.
需要医生 You need a doctor.
我要出去 I need out!
让我走 Get me out.
让我退伍 Get me reassigned.
求你了 Please.
我在跟米勒说 他们看到基地里有军官 I was just telling Miller, they caught an officer on the base,
在洗澡间的隔间里 你知道吗 in the men's cubicles between Piers Five and Six, you know it?
我知道那地方 I know Piers Five and Six.
基佬们瞎搞的地方 It's a hookup place for fags.
然后军事警察就来了 So they sent the military police in,
便衣的 抓了个人 undercover, arrested a man.
那人被开除了吗 They kick him out?
他们搞了个协议 They cut him a deal.
只要他提供所有和他搞过的人名单 No dishonorable discharge if he draws up a list of names
就不用被开除军籍 of every fag he's ever blown.
只是他不知道名字 Only, he doesn't know names,
有些只记得他们身上的纹身 and some he only knows by their tattoos.
所以提供不了名字 他就提供了纹身的单子 So, instead of names, he's gonna provide a list of tattoos.
你有纹身吗 杰夫 You have any tattoos, Jeff?
特雷尔中尉 Lieutenant Trail.
船长要在他房间见你 Captain wants to see you in his quarters.
是 长官 Aye, sir.
进来 Enter.
特雷尔中尉前来回话 长官 Lieutenant Trail, reporting as ordered, sir
字幕 At ease. Have a seat.
-特雷尔中尉 -是 长官 - Lieutenant Trail. - Yes, sir.
《尊严和尊重》
您给我这个有什么原因吗 长官 Is there some reason why you're giving this to me, sir?
所有的军官都有 It's being given to all officers.
你不认为这很重要吗 You don't consider it important?
重要 长官 It is important, sir.
有问题吗 Have any questions?
没有 长官 No, sir.
你还没看呢 You haven't looked at it.
规定600-200条 Regulation 600-20.
同性恋行为的定义是服役人员的 Homosexual conduct defined as the act or statement
行为或言论表现出 by a serviceman demonstrating
同性恋倾向或同性恋意图 a propensity or intent to engage in homosexual acts.
你是把所有规定记在脑子里的吗 特雷尔中尉 Do you know all regulations from memory, Lieutenant Trail?
大部分吧 长官 Most, sir.
打开书 Open the book.
有什么问题吗 Do you have any questions?
没有 长官 No, sir.
这是为了维护我们的标准 These are about protecting our standards,
我们的行为准则 our code of conduct.
是的 长官 Yes, sir.
没有规矩 我们一无是处 Without a code, we're nothing.
-是的 长官 -所以我们达成共识了 - Nothing, sir. - So we're understood?
是的 长官 Yes, sir.
-想要点什么 -请给我来瓶啤酒 - What can I get you? - A beer, please.
好的 Sure.
第一次 First time?
有那么明显吗 That obvious, huh?
有些地方可以看出来 There were a few clues.
我也不知道我来这儿做什么 I don't know what I'm doing here.
你只知道你需要来这 是吗 You just knew that you needed to be here?
大概是吧 I guess so.
好吧 我坚信 Well, I'm going to have to insist
今晚会是一个很棒的夜晚 that you have a much, much better evening than that.
是吗 Is that so?
我是安德鲁 I'm Andrew.
杰夫 Jeff.
等一下 Wait, wait a second,
这是你第一次到同性恋酒吧来吗 第一次 this is your first time in any gay bar? Ever?
如果我说是的话会怎样 What if I said yes?
好吧 那我有责任 Well, I-I'd be duty bound
马上告诉这酒吧里的工作人员 to inform the bar staff immediately.
他们有很多的那种室内烟火 You know that they keep a supply of indoor fireworks
专门用于这种场合 for occasions just like this.
他们会让整个酒吧都被闪烁着的烟火包围着 They cover the entire bar with sparklers and fireworks...
不不 没有必要这样做 Oh, no, no, no, that's not necessary.
不不不 很棒的 是种完整的体验 Oh, no, no, no, it's wonderful. It's a whole thing.
他们会用一串黄色的火花来拼出你的名字 They-they spell out your name in a, in a shower of yellow sparks.
你在开玩笑吧 You're joking?
我的天啊 Oh, my God.
你太可爱了 You're too cute.
-你太可爱了 -好吧 - You're too cute. - Okay.
好吧 谢谢你 Well, thank you.
为什么要谢我 For what?
因为你 我今晚才没那么丢脸 For stopping this night from being a humiliation.
如果没有你 我可能五年内都不想再尝试了 I might not have tried again for another five years.
这是我的荣幸 Oh, it's... it's my honor.
真的 Really.
我觉得我成为了你人生中的一段 I feel like I'm part of your history.
你会记住这刻的 You're gonna remember this moment.
我会的 Yes, I will.
-我可以问个问题吗 -这问题让我很紧张 - Can I ask? - Oof, that question makes me nervous.
你当兵的吗 Are you military?
是的 Yeah.
肯定很辛苦 Must be hard.
没错 Yeah.
规定要求 你今晚喝的其他的酒 Rules require me to purchase you drinks
我都请了 不要再喝啤酒了 for the rest of the evening, and no more, no more beer.
别 把你的钱收起来吧 Please, no... Put your money away.
等一下 所以哥伦比亚广播公司想要采访你 Wait, so CBS News wants to interview you?
-这是如何做到的 -他们游说了整个基地 - H-How does that, uh, happen? - They canvassed the base.
现在正在采访那些性取向正常的士兵 They're interviewing straight soldiers.
他们想要听点不同的声音 They want to hear from the other side.
你疯了吗 Are you crazy?
你会被开除的 They'll kick you out.
我会在暗处 没人会看到我的脸 I'll be in shadow. No one will see my face.
多伤人啊 How humiliating.
所有性取向正常的士兵 All the straight soldiers,
都说军队里没有同性恋 the ones saying, "No fags in the military,"
他们能堂堂正正的 对吧 穿着制服 they get to be out in the open, right? With their uniforms on.
看起来自尊满满 Looking dignified.
-对 -而你 你只能躲在暗处 - Yes. - And you, you get to be in the shadows,
声音被扭曲地像罪犯一样 with your voice distorted like a criminal.
没错 Yeah.
海军部队会对你穷追猛打的 杰夫 The Navy, th-they are going to witch-hunt you, Jeff.
这肯定的 不管你做什么 For sure, it doesn't matter what you do,
不管你如何防范 it doesn't matter what precautions you take.
换做你 你不会去吗 You wouldn't do it?
不会 No.
谁会在意你说什么呢 Who cares what you have to say?
你不是上将 也不是什么战争英雄 You're not a general. You're not a war hero.
- 你不是名人 -我是海军部队的一名军官 - You're-you're not famous. - I'm an officer in the Navy.
这也改变不了什么 It's not gonna-- nothing's gonna change.
我也说不清楚 I can't explain it.
我就是得接受这个采访 It's something I need to do.
我只能这样表达了 I can't explain it any better than that.
我的心脏 My heart.
-跳得好快 -我也是 - Beating so fast. - Mine, too.
我做过多少采访 How many interviews have I done?
数不清了 I couldn't count.
没有一次像这样 None like this.
-特雷尔先生 -你好 - Mr. Trail. - Hi.
谢谢你接受采访 来 请坐 Thanks for doing this. Come on, have a seat.
范思哲先生 我是布兰登·莱蒙 Mr. Versace, I'm Brendan Lemon,
来自《倡导者》杂志 for The Advocate.
人们只能看到你在暗处的大致轮廓 All we'll see is your outline against the backdrop.
部队不会强迫你 And the military police can't
告诉他们我的身份吧 force you to tell them who I am?
我从不泄露我的信息来源 I-I'd never reveal my sources.
我需要确认一下 你是否同意 I also need to make sure that you're comfortable
整个访谈被录音 with the fact that this interview will be on the record.
可以 Yes.
好的 Okay.
在12月21日 On December 21
国防部 the Department of Defense,
在总统比尔·克林顿的要求下 under orders from President Bill Clinton,
颁布了指令1304.26 issued Directive 1304.26,
名为"不问 不说" known as "Don't ask, don't tell,"
内容是禁止军队中的同性恋行为 defined as prohibiting homosexual conduct.
作为一名在武装部队里服役的同性恋军人 As a gay man serving in the armed forces,
军中生活对你有多重要 how important is life in the military to you?
那是我人生的全部 It's all I've ever done.
是我从孩提时代 It's all I've ever dreamed of doing,
就梦想要做的事 ever since I was a child.
那是... 我的生命 Um... it's my life.
我只能这么说 That's the only way I can say it.
它 它就是我的生命 It's... it's my life.
目前军队里的同性恋士兵 Are there gay soldiers currently serving
有公开自己性取向的吗 who are open about their sexuality?
军队里的大部分同性恋者都没有出柜 The majority of gays in the military are closeted
也会一直保密下去 and will always be closeted.
所以 So,
我想我们先从... I think I'd like to start...
莱蒙先生 我可以打断一下吗 Mr. Lemon, would you excuse me for a moment?
当然 Absolutely.
安东尼奥 Antonio.
莱蒙先生 向你介绍一下安东尼奥·达米科 Mr. Lemon, let me introduce you to Antonio D'Amico.
-布兰登·莱蒙 -见到你很高兴 - Brendan Lemon. - Pleasure.
我们在一起13年了 We have been together for 13 years.
如果可以的话 我希望我们一起接受采访 If that's okay, I would like to conduct the interview together.
当然可以 Absolutely.
请 Please.
你呢 What about you?
我不得不这么想 和你交谈 I can't help the feeling that, by talking to you,
就等于军队生涯的结束 it's the end of my career.
但说实话 也许我的职业生涯多年前就已经完了 But, honestly, maybe my career died a long time ago.
因为人们其实知道 Because... they know.
我从来没得到升职 They have never promoted me.
我是个很好的水手 但... I'm a good sailor, but...
也只能是个好水手了 I'm a good sailor going nowhere,
因为他们知道了 because they know.
他们怎么知道的 How do they know?
我曾救过一个水手的命 I saved a sailor's life once.
他因为是同性恋 被差点打死 He was being beaten to death for being gay.
如果我不出手 如果我没有阻止他们 And if I hadn't have been there, if I hadn't have stopped them,
就没人会怀疑我 no one would ever have suspected me.
我明明做了件好事 I did a good thing,
那是我做过的最勇敢的事 the bravest thing I've ever done...
但我不知道多少次想象过 ...and I can't tell you how many times I've dreamt
时光倒流回那一刻 about taking that moment back...
让他死好了 ...and letting him die.
那样就不会有人知道我的秘密了 Just so that people wouldn't know about me.
1997年4月27日
杰夫·特雷尔被杀当天
明尼阿波利斯 明尼苏达州
-你翻我的东西了 -我想要整理一下 - You went through my stuff? - I was going to tidy up.
你动了我的制服 You touched my uniform.
那又怎样 我会放回去的 I'll put it back. So what?
那又怎样 So what?!
我不明白你为什么一直留着它 I don't know why you keep it around.
你从来没当过兵 你不会理解的 You never served your country. You don't understand.
不 我不理解 看看他们是怎么对待你的 No, I-I don't understand. Look how they treated you.
除了你自己 你从来不信任任何人 You have never believed in anything except yourself.
我信任你 不是吗 I believed in you, didn't I,
-在他们都不信任你时 -你给我的一切 - when they certainly didn't. - Everything you gave me--
酒吧 食物 男人 都毫无意义 the bars, the meals, the men-- it means nothing.
我想要回我原来的生活 I want my life back.
真正的生活 当一个军人 My real life, my life as a soldier.
他们不想要你 他们从来都不想要你 They don't want you. They never wanted you.
杰夫 我想要你 Jeff, I-I wanted you.
我不了解你 I don't know you.
我不知道你代表了什么 I don't know what you stand for.
我根本不了解你 I don't know who you are.
你是个骗子 You're a liar.
你 你... 你毫无荣誉可言 You ha-- you ha-- you have no honor.
荣誉 Oh, honor?
拜托 你已经不在海军部队了 宝贝 Oh, please, you're not in the Navy anymore, sweetie.
你是一个失败的同性恋 做着糟糕的工作 You're a washed up queer in a shitty job
在一个糟糕的公寓里发着牢骚 in a shitty condo bitching about
说着本可以拥有不同的人生 how you could have been someone.
这点你没说错 You're not wrong about that.
那晚我在酒吧遇到你的时候 When I found you that night at the bar,
我帮了你 I was there for you.
我拯救了你 I saved you.
你毁了我 You destroyed me.
我真希望我从未踏足那家酒吧 I wish I'd never walked into that bar.
我希望我从未遇到过你 I wish I'd never met you.
你糊涂了 You're confused.
我能看出来 你现在很混乱 I can see it. No, you're-you're confused,
你看不清楚现实 and you-you can't even see it.
我能看清 我能感受到 我讨厌这一切 I see it. I feel it. I hate it.
不 我这么爱你 No. I loved you so...
没人想要你的爱 No one wants your love!
安德鲁 Andrew.
怎么了 Yes?
我没听到按铃器响 I-I didn't hear the buzzer.
我不想让你下去跑一趟 I didn't want you to have to come down.
我跟在别人后面溜进来的 I just slipped in behind someone else.
你应该把那个按铃器修好 You should get that buzzer fixed.
好 我会给你打电话的 Yeah, uh, I'll call.
好吧 Okay.
-关于你上次说的 -我说了什么 - About what you said... - What did I say?
你说我需要帮助 That I needed help.
对 Okay.
我们谈谈怎么样 How about we talk?
今晚 Tonight.
可以 Sure.
-喂 -你的枪在我这 - Hello? - I have your gun.
我要借用一下 因为跟踪大卫的人回来了 I needed to borrow it because David's stalker's back in town,
我要借把枪来保护他 and I needed to borrow it to protect him.
你疯了吗 Are you out of your mind?
你有持枪执照吗 Do you even have a license?
那把枪一直在公寓里 That gun never leaves the apartment.
好吧 我会过去一趟把枪从你那拿走 All right, I'll come over there, I'll get it off you,
但是我们之间结束了 but I'm done with you.
我们结束了 你听到没 I'm done with you. You hear me?
你说过一遍了 You said that already.
你能开一下门吗 Could you get the door?
你在逗我吗 Are you kidding me?
杰夫现在对我态度很差 Well, Jeff is very hostile at the moment.
我不想跟他在门口 I don't want to have to get into an argument
争论起来 with him in the doorway.
你不能觉得对不起他 You can't feel sorry for him.
为什么 Yeah? Why not?
你之前就是 You did.
现在不会了 Not anymore.
我再也不想见到他了 I never want to see him again.
那你干嘛过来 Then why'd you even come over?
他从我公寓里拿了件东西 He took something from my apartment.
他拿了什么 What'd he take?
我的枪 My gun.
小印 Prints...
你好 小兄弟 Hey, buddy.
安德鲁 Andrew?
安德鲁 Andrew!
你会没事的 You got it.
年轻人 深呼吸 Take a deep breath, kiddo.
你好 我是杰夫 Hey, it's Jeff.
我现在不方便接听电话 I can't make it to the phone,
所以请在听到滴声后留言 so please leave a message after the beep.
杰夫 我是妈妈 - -Hey, Jeff, it's Mom.
你姐姐要分娩了 Your sister's gone into labor.
我们正在往医院赶 We're heading into the hospital.
医院见 We'll see you there.
杰夫 我是妈妈 Hey, Jeff, it's Mom.
你在哪 Where are you?
杰夫 还是我 Hey, Jeff, it's Mom again.
你姐姐刚刚生了一个漂亮的小女孩 So, your sister just delivered a beautiful baby girl.
母女平安 She's doing well, the baby's well.
我们都在这 过来看看你的小侄女吧 Hey, kid, we're all here. Come and see your niece.
快过来 Come on.
我们爱你 待会见 拜拜 We love you. See you soon. Bye-bye.