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现代爱情 第一季 第３集
翻译 NETFLIX 校对 MINDY 特效 小布 压制 JASON肖
接受我本来的样子 不管我是谁
我是谁 Who am I?
我是... I'm...
很难形容 hard to describe.
大家都很难形容 对吧 I mean, everyone's hard to describe, right,
但我这人真的很难形容 but I'm really hard to describe,
因为我有一点… because I've got this little...
毛病 小毛病而已 thing. It's a little thing.
不是什么大毛病 Nothing more. Not like a big thing.
是有点大啦 Well... it's big-ish.
看你怎么看 Depending on the way you look at it.
不算小 也没到很大 It's-it's-it's not tiny, but it's not huge.
反正就是个毛病 但是... It's a thing, that's all, but...
该怎么形容才好呢 But, but... how to tell you about it?
噢 Oh!
想知道我是谁 听好 You want to know who I am? Here's who I am.
几年前 我去超市 想买桃子 I'm in a supermarket, years ago, looking for some peaches.
渴望吃桃子 Like, a craving for peaches.
你知道 有时早上醒来 You know the way you wake up sometimes
突然超想吃桃子 with, like, a crazy, crazy craving for peaches?
就像那样 Well, like that,
我整个人容光焕发 and I'm shimmering.
我是真的闪闪发光 But literally shimmering, as I've chosen,
就像我挑的这身清晨超市装 as my early-morning supermarket-visit attire,
我爱死这件亮片上衣 a sequin shirt that I absolutely adore
一直找不到机会穿它 and which I can never find the right occasion for.
跟我当下的心情超搭 It matched my mood.
我那时心情真的很好 I was in a really good mood.
这就是问题所在 Which is kind of the problem.
就在我以为 心情不可能再更好时 And then, when I thought my mood couldn't get any better,
我看到… I spied...
蔬菜柜 vegetable counter.
我表面上在找桃子 My ostensible search for peaches was in reality
其实是在寻找冒险 a search for adventure.
更是寻找爱情 Maybe even love.
只是那时我还不知道 I just didn't know it at the time.
在清晨的超市找到的爱情 If you can find love in a supermarket
一定够可靠 early in the morning, you know you can trust it.
这里不会有人来找浪漫 No one's here to pull, no one's looking
不会有人来约炮或找一夜情 for an easy lay or a one-night stand.
男人不会喝醉或嗑嗨 Guys aren't buoyed by Dutch courage or high on cocaine.
在这里男人是真男人 Men are the real deal in here.
而且万一被拒绝 Plus, if you strike out, you don't have to skulk off
也不用像个败将 只能空手飘走 into the night, empty-handed like a total loser.
这里可是超市 It's a store.
永远有更好的选择 There's still bargains in here.
我喜欢紧致多汁的 I like mine firm and juicy.
-还要没碰伤的 -你在找什么 - And no bruises. - So what are you looking for?
我突然超想吃水果沙拉 不要预先做好的 I had a hankering for a fruit salad, but, um, not preprepared.
-要非常新鲜的 -是吗 - Like, super fresh, you know? - Right?
因为有点浪费 每种都要买一份 Because there's so much waste, because you have to buy,
等你下次又想吃水果沙拉 like, one of everything, and then, by the time you want
每种味道都走了样 fruit salad again, everything's gone off just a little bit.
我的良心不准我做单人份水果沙拉 My conscience won't let me make fruit salad for just me.
除非 你家有一堆小孩 Unless, of course, you have a load of kids
跑来跑去 还有个老婆帮你吃 running around and a wife to help you eat your fruit.
所以你有老婆小孩帮你吃水果吗 So, do you have a wife and kids to help you eat your fruit?
我吗 没有 Me? No, no.
-没有吗 -我没有 -No? -I don't, no.
-我也没有 -噢 - Hmm. Me, neither. - Ooh.
那就是你在找的吗 Is that what you're looking for?
或许吧 I guess.
终有一天... Ultimately, uh...
不是 我是说桃子 No, I-I meant the peach.
桃子呀 Oh, the peach.
-对 -对 - Yeah. - Yeah.
对啦 Right.
我就是来买桃子的 Right. Yeah. No, totally came in for peaches.
对呀 Yeah, sure.
你… 还好吗 You, um... you okay?
你好像有点... 过嗨 You seem sort of... crazy energized.
应该是今早吞的8颗药害的 Oh, well, that'll be the 8-ball I took this morning.
什么 What?
没啦 我好几个晚上没睡了吧 No, I've been up for a couple of nights.
-大概... 3天晚上 -不会吧 -Like, um... like, three nights. -No way.
你是在赶稿之类的吗 What, you got, like, a deadline, or something?
不是 没有 我只是… No. No, I just...
生活太好玩 舍不得睡觉 Uh, life's just too interesting to sleep sometimes.
-懂我意思吗 -明白 - You know what I mean? - Right, right.
去跟冬眠熊说吧 Tell that to bears.
不过知道那种事还不错 It's good to know that other stuff, too, though.
哪种事 What other stuff?
就是你会想要 You know, that you want those things.
小孩 老公 Kids. A husband.
怎么说 Why is that?
打算跟某人约会时 It's just good to know those things
知道这种事还不错 when you're going on a date with someone.
真的 是好事 Yeah. Yeah, it's useful.
那... 我们去哪 So... where we going?
都好 跟你就好 Anywhere. With you.
-真的吗 -真的 - Really? - Yes.
你照亮我的世界 I mean, you just, like, totally brightened up my day.
我很累 I was all, like, tired.
熬夜 今早起来很哀怨 没有方向 Late night. Woke up dejected, directionless,
来到超市 丽塔·海华丝[电影明星]走向我 and Rita Hayworth walks up to me in the supermarket.
拜托 I mean, come on.
傻瓜才会 You just don't let stuff like that pass you by
放过这种好机会 in life, unless you're a fool.
-我爱你 -什么 - I love you. - What?
我爱你说话的样子 I love the way you talk.
好喜欢 I-I-I love it.
谢谢你 Oh. Thank you.
谢谢你今天走进超市 And, uh, thank you for coming in here today.
不客气 You're so welcome.
那就周四晚上见 So, um, I'll see you Thursday evening.
没问题 Perfect.
那个… You know...
我突然没什么兴致工作 Suddenly, work doesn't seem that interesting to me.
要不要… 一起吃个早餐 Do you want to... you want to grab breakfast?
-我们刚认识 -你都要跟我约会了 - I just met you. - You're going on a date with me.
对 但约会是吃晚餐 Right, but a date is dinner.
早餐很私密 不一样 Breakfast is intimate. It's different.
早餐就是 披头散发 Breakfast is, like, bed head
憔悴厌世… and tired and gloopy and...
大素颜 亮堂堂 It's no makeup, bright lights.
可能会大出错 It can go hideously wrong.
-晚餐也有可能 -所以才要喝酒 - So can dinner. - That's what alcohol's for.
好吧 Okay.
那喝杯咖啡怎么样 Um... how about coffee?
-咖啡我可以 -好 - I can do coffee. - Okay.
可以吃个司康吗 Um, can I get a scone?
不行 那是早餐 No, that's breakfast.
周四见 I'll see you Thursday.
好了 够了 Okay, okay, enough.
又不是在演爱乐之城 This isn't La La Land.
我很开心 但这还是现实生活 I'm happy, but it's still real life.
你懂我的意思 You get the idea.
智慧财产权的案子 The I.P. File.
-提醒我一下 -饶舌歌手告男孩团体 - Remind me. - The rapper suing the boy band.
盗用音乐 Over the sample they never paid for.
对 我知道那个饶舌歌手告某个团体 Right. I know that a rapper is suing a band.
乱七八糟 他们要我接吗 It's so topsy-turvy. They want me on it?
他们坚持找新来的杀手 They insist on our new hotshot.
-他们真用那个词了吗 -当然 - Did they use those words? - Of course.
你没来之前我是那个杀手 I was the hotshot until you arrived.
看看你 活像只志得意满的红毛猫 And look at you-- like a ginger cat who got the cream.
你这样好像丽塔·海华丝 You look like Rita Hayworth.
你是今天第二个这么说的人 You're the second person to say that to me today.
-第一个是谁 -一个男人 - Who said that? - A guy.
-好男人吗 -好到爆 - Nice guy? - Very nice.
哪里认识的 昨天半夜认识的吧 Where did you meet him? Somewhere late, I presume,
你今早十点悠哉晃进来 because you swanned in here at 10:00 a.m.
看起来昨晚没回家 And you look like you haven't been home last night. Wha...?
超市 今早 The supermarket, this morning.
什么鬼 What?
超市也能钓男人 真的吗 Who gets a date at the supermarket? Really?
我当时在生肉起司柜 他在水果蔬菜柜 I was in cold meats and cheese. He was in fruit and veg.
-我们一见钟情 -改天约出来看看 - We knew it was love. - Maybe we can meet this one.
你不是跟那个音乐人进行中 I thought you were seeing that musician guy.
本来是 但我们没戏 I was. It wasn't a match.
你太挑了 You're way too choosey.
噢 Oh. Oh.
对了... Oh, uh...
人事要我提醒你 HR asked me to mention to you.
你20天里面旷工4天 You missed, like, four days out of 20.
很明显是上个月 Last month, apparently.
我知道 I know. I know, I know.
都怪肠躁症 It's that irritable bowel syndrome.
是吗 真令人难过 Really? I'm very sorry to hear that.
不管你工作能力多强 It doesn't matter how good you are at your job.
这种旷工法 I just can't defend anyone
我无法跟上面交代 missing days like that to our bosses.
我明白 我一定改进 I know. I'm totally on it.
很好 我可不想失去你 Okay. Because I don't want to lose you.
你刚来不久 我蛮喜欢你的 You just got here, and I kind of like you.
我也蛮喜欢你的 I kind of like you, too.
下班喝一杯 聊聊那男的 Drinks later, you can tell me all about him?
-说定了 -好 - Date. - Okay.
问题就这样出现 And this is where the problem starts.
我不知道是怎么开始的 I don't know what kicks it off.
血糖 荷尔蒙 Blood sugar? Chemical?
精神病 天知道 Psychological? Who knows?
但就是来了... But it comes...
彷彿老黑白电影跑出来的怪物 like a monster from an old black and white movie, walking,
不管你跑得多快 他就是能追上你 and no matter how fast you run, he keeps up with you.
只有一个地方他找不到你 And there's only one place he can't find you.
喂 莱西 Hello, Lexi?
是 Uh-huh.
我是杰夫 It's Jeff.
我打来确认你家地址 I was just ringing to confirm your street number.
这样 Uh-huh.
除非你想取消 Unless you want to cancel.
我… 你还有两分钟 I... I mean, you still have two minutes.
不要 No.
过来吧 Come over, yeah.
来约会 For the date.
所以... So...
丽塔·海华丝要约会了呢 Rita Hayworth got herself a date, huh?
嘿 Oh, hey.
嗨 杰夫 Hi, Jeff.
糟糕 Oh, shit.
对不起 Shit, I'm sorry.
没关系 It's okay.
这不是个好的开始 It's not getting off to a great start.
-还好吗 -还好 -You okay? -It's fine.
什么东西 What is that?
小小的木雕桃子 It's a little wooden carved peach.
梣木做的 Out of ash.
你是木匠 You're a woodturner?
不是 我不是木匠 No. I-I'm not a woodturner.
我在一家店看到的 I passed it in a store.
感觉有点象征意义 It seemed symbolic.
噢 Oh.
真贴心 That's sweet.
走吧 Let's go?
好的 Okay.
你想去哪里 So, uh, where-where do you want to go?
无所谓 随便找个地方 I don't care. Just somewhere casual.
你没事吧 You okay?
没事 Hmm? Sure.
你想吃什么 So, what do you want to eat?
牛奶什锦麦片 Muesli.
这时间可能有点难 That might be hard right now.
现在... It...
我知道一个地方 走吧 I know a place. Come on.
-来啦 莱西 -谢了 辛西亚 - Here you go, Lex. - Thanks, Cynthia.
你不会刚好有个双胞胎姐妹吧 You don't have a twin... by any chance?
没有 No.
-麻烦你 谢谢 -没问题 - Thanks so much. Appreciate it. - Of course.
这是… This was, uh...
要不要吃... Do you want to get...
冰淇淋 ice cream?
好呀 Okay.
好呀 没问题 Sure, yeah. Yes. Yeah.
好 Cool.
要不要上来喝杯咖啡… So, do you want to come up for coffee...
-或做个爱之类的 -你知道吗 -or sex or something? -You know what?
其实没关系 I'm okay, actually.
我明白 Yeah, I understand.
我不打扰你了 Yeah. No, I-I should just leave you to it.
打扰我什么 To what?
打扰你今晚在做的 To whatever it is you're doing this evening
某个更好玩的事 that's more interesting than this.
你其实不用勉强的 You shouldn't feel obliged to do this.
没有 不是这样 No. No, no, no, it's not that.
我没… 我不… It's... I'm not... I don't feel ob...
好吧 我是有点勉强 Okay, I do feel obliged a little bit,
但真的不是你想的那样 but it's really not what you think.
是… 我… It's, you know, I've...
我生病了… I'm s.... I'm sick, and, uh...
我感冒了 I mean, I've had the flu,
什么都不想做 and I just, I don't really feel up to much.
真糟糕 Oh, I'm sorry.
你怎么不早讲... Why didn't you say that earlier at...
你… You...
这样吧 我睡一睡 Yeah, yeah. I'll-I'll sleep it off,
我们好好重来一次 and we'll do this again properly, you know?
再打给我 Call me?
这样好了... I'll tell you what, um...
要的话你打给我吧 you call me, if you want.
你有我的电话号码 You have my number.
一切是从高中开始的 It began in high school.
有天我突然不想起床 One day, I wanted to stay in bed.
我爸妈没管我 猜想我生病了 My parents let me, presumed I was sick,
因为我实在无法把自己拖下床 as I couldn't physically pull myself out of bed.
21天后 我还在床上 21 days later, I was still there.
小孩应付新信息的方式很神奇 Children have an amazing way of dealing with new information.
他们不知道事情 They don't know certain things aren't
原本该是怎样 the way they're supposed to be.
所以我想出一个解套的好办法 This is where I figured out the knack for living with this.
用优异表现来弥补这个毛病 I could make up for it with intense bouts of productivity.
我要成为顶尖学生 I would become a star student.
所以我才能缺席一半时间 This is how I could miss 50% of the year--
因为另一半时间我够厉害 by being brilliant the other half.
追寻梦想吧 Follow your dreams! Whoo!
念瓦萨学院时也一样 Same at Vassar.
几个礼拜窝在宿舍不出门 Weeks in my dorm not coming out,
几个礼拜窝在图书馆猛读书 and then weeks in the library making up for it,
拿超厉害的成绩 getting killer grades.
你是怎么回事 What is wrong with you?
接着搬来纽约 And then moving to New York.
在无数公司打败竞争对手 I beat out the competition in numerous firms.
后来一家接着一家 Until, one by one,
他们发现我优秀的专业能力 they all realized my forensic attention to detail,
我接案时的挑灯夜战 卯足全力 burning off gallons of midnight oil when I'm on a case,
全都弥补不了我悲惨的出勤纪录 simply wouldn't make up for my disastrous attendance records.
我经历无数心理咨询 Over the course of all this was the countless couches--
心理分析电击疗法 the analysis, the electroshock therapy,
认知行为疗法 the cognitive behavioral therapy,
药物疗法 应有尽有 the drug therapy, you name it.
同时 我隐瞒... Meanwhile, I kept...
老板 家人和朋友 employers, family and friends
找一堆藉口搪塞 blissfully unaware with excuses,
只在状况好的时候见人 only showing up when I was sure to impress.
于是生活变成了这副模样 This was how life became.
没人真正了解我是谁 And no one really knew who I was.
你好 莱西·多诺霍 Yes. Lexi Donohoe.
好的 我… Absolutely, yes. I am...
明天之前 Uh, uh, by tomorrow?
明天之前可以 好的 没问题 Oh, yeah, I could have it by tomorrow. Okay, no problem.
不过... But...
只要乌云终会散尽 as long as the clouds ultimately passed,
我还可以应付 I could deal with it.
说起来… Uh, speaking of which....
完美的早晨 A perfect morning.
窗外鸟儿吱喳 Birds tweeting outside my window.
满室新割草香 The smell of fresh-cut grass.
杰夫 Jeff!
杰夫 世界上最美好的男人 Jeff, the nicest man in the world.
拥有最甜的笑容 Jeff with the loveliest smile
充满无限可能 and all the potential in life
带来无限希望的杰夫 and the promise in one, single human being.
清晨六点半打给他会不会太早 Was 6:30 in the morning too early to call Jeff?
不会 没关係 No, it's fine.
喂 Hello?
-杰夫 -是 - Jeff? - Yeah?
我是莱西 It's Lexi.
真的吗 Really?
会不会太早 不会吧 Is it too early? It isn't too early, is it?
-告诉我不会太早 -什么东西太早 - Tell me it's not too early. -Too early for what?
吃早餐 这次你吃牛奶什锦麦片 Breakfast. This time, you have the muesli,
我吃牛排 and I'll have the steak.
你就爱反其道而行是吧 Are you the reverse of everything?
说不定喔 Actually, you know what, maybe I am.
你还好吗 Are you okay?
你那天晚上到底怎么了 What was really up with you the other night?
没事啦 我只是太累 Oh, nothing, nothing. I was just tired.
疯狂投入工作 不过现在不重要了 I've been crazy busy at work. That doesn't matter now.
今晚可以见面吗 要不要去吃晚餐 Can I see you tonight? Do you want to have dinner?
或看电影 或上夜店 Go to a movie? Go to a club?
都好 我想见你 I don't know, I just want to see you.
糟糕 今晚不太方便 Aw, shit, tonight's kind of tricky.
周二好不好 how about Tuesday?
周二 好像还有好久 Tuesday? Tuesday's a-a lifetime away.
谁知道我们能不能活到周二 Who even knows if we'll make it to Tuesday?
明天就是周二 我们应该很有机会 It's tomorrow. I think we have a good chance.
就凭现在这个总统 With you-know-who in power?
不行 24小时就可以发生很多事 No, no, no, anything could happen in 24 hours.
今晚有什么问题吗 Let's just, come on, what's wrong with tonight?
好 今晚有什么特别的事吗 Okay, okay. What's so special about tonight?
因为我想早一天认识你 'Cause I don't want to waste another day of not knowing you.
真感人 That's nice.
那今晚见吗 So, see you tonight?
来我家 我下厨 My place? I'll cook?
好吧 Okay.
好 再见 Okay. Bye.
我不知道你怎样 但... 当我处于这种状态时 I don't know about you, but... when I'm in this kind of mood,
我感觉自己在主演片头 it's like I'm in the title sequence
名叫"莱西秀" from my own TV show.
莱西 今天好吗 How are you doing today, Lexi?
心情好或坏 Up or down?
你说呢 亚历克 What do you think, Alec?
哇 Wow.
我得消灭躁郁症的痕迹 I got to clean the bipolar out of this place.
纯粹的美好在此 Here was pure joy.
好莱坞一代荡妇 Hollywood at its absolute, shameless best.
根根发丝都到位 Every hair in place.
举手投足皆是画 恰到好处 Every move a picture. Not a step wrong.
然后我记起 丽塔·海华丝的名言 Then I remembered an oft quoted line by Rita Hayworth:
"每个男人都在姬黛怀里沉沦 "Every man I knew went to bed with Gilda
在我怀里清醒" and woke up with me."
我顿时觉得好哀伤 And I felt very sad.
拜托 Please.
别这样 别这样 Come on. Come on.
别这样 Come on.
别这样 别这样… Come on, come on, come on, come on.
别这样… Come on, come on. Come on.
就这样 And there it is.
寂静 The silence.
又一个男人走出我生命 让人恶心的寂静 The sickening silence of another man walking out
连大门都没来得及踏进 of my life before getting past the porch door.
我一手造成的寂静 A silence of my own making.
就像嫉妒发狂的母亲 Like a jealous, crazy mother shooing teenagers
赶走门口的小伙子 将女儿束之高阁 from her doorstep with her daughter locked upstairs.
他会留下来吗 Would he have stayed?
杰夫 Jeff?
会吗 如果他知道了 If he had known?
如果那天在超市我就老实说 If I came clean that time in the supermarket and said,
"对了 我有郁躁症 "Oh, by the way, I'm bipolar.
我在治疗 你能接受吗" I'm dealing with it. Will you?"
他会不会拔腿就跑 跑去冷冻食品柜 Would he have run for the hills or the frozen food section
丢下"了解" 外加礼貌微笑 with an "okeydokey" and a polite smile?
这男人不爱有碰伤的桃子 Here was a man who didn't want his peaches bruised.
怎可能接受有瑕疵的灵魂 How would he deal with a damaged psyche?
拜托回来 不要回来 Please come back, don't come back.
拜托... 回来 Please... come back.
然后 我摊在床上 And then, lying there,
让一个完美到不行的男人 with a perfectly sweet,
渐行渐远... beautiful man walking away from my door...
有声音告诉我一切必须到此为止 something told me this had to stop.
不是指我的病 病不会好 Not the illness-- that'll never stop--
而是别再剥夺人们 but-but not giving people a chance
了解我的机会 to make up their own mind about me.
至少让他们自己做决定 To giving them at least some cards in the game.
这世界一定有个人 Surely, there's someone out there
会接受我本来的样子 who will take me for who I am.
一定有个人会接受我体内的两个我 One human being who accepts the two people in you.
不可能永远只用其中一面示人 You can't show only one part of yourself to someone.
那是好莱坞才有的事 那是姬黛 That's Hollywood. That's Gilda.
如此美好... And it's beautiful...
但无法长久 but it can't last.
嘿 Hey.
等一下 Wait up.
你不打算跟我说再见吗 Weren't you gonna say goodbye?
当然要 只是… 我… Of course. I ju-- you know, I...
我不想把事情搞大 I just didn't want to make a big deal about it.
很遗憾 上面做了这个决定 Hey, I'm sorry the decision didn't go your way.
你走了我会很难过 I'm gonna be lost without you here.
没关系啦... It's fine. It's fine. Uh...
反正我喜欢新挑战 I like moving on anyway.
新环境 够刺激 Someplace new; it's exciting.
要不要一起喝杯咖啡 Can we get coffee?
好呀 当然 Yeah, sure, of course.
好 等我一下 Okay. One second.
你是说现在 Oh, you meant now.
你要换去哪 So where you gonna go?
不知道 I don't know.
我有点存款 Um, I have some savings, so I don't need to find
不用马上找新工作 a job right away, but, uh,
可能先休息一阵子 出去旅行 I might take some time off, maybe do some traveling.
跟你的超市男吗 你们进展如何 With your supermarket boy? How's that going, by the way?
没了 Oh, uh, that didn't take.
-遗憾 -对呀 - Oh, I'm sorry. - Yeah.
你的感情世界还真精彩 You really get through them, don't you?
看起来是这样 I guess it looks like that.
可能你觉得青春苦短吧 Well, I guess you're only young once.
我有郁躁症 I'm bipolar.
是吗 Really?
是的 Yes.
从我15岁开始 I have been since I was 15.
你之前为什么不告诉我 How come you never told me?
拜托 娱乐圈法律部所谁会想 Come on, who wants to hire someone
雇用一个疯子 with a mental illness in entertainment law?
这圈子还不够疯吗 Aren't we crazy enough?
抱歉 Sorry.
那现在为什么要告诉我 So why are you telling me now?
因为你不只是个同事 Because you're more than work.
你该知道你面对的是什么人 And you should know what you're dealing with
如果我们会在办公室外碰面的话 if we're gonna see each other outside of the office.
我希望可以 Which I would like.
但我有时候会非常低落 But I have incredibly low periods.
低到无法动弹 So low that I can barely move.
我不会陪着你 I am impossible to be around.
我不会接电话 I, uh, can barely answer the phone.
完全就是个不可靠的朋友 I'm totally unreliable as a friend-- in fact, in some ways,
说真的 可能是你交过最烂的朋友 I'm probably the worst friend you could ever have.
没半点够格当朋友 Uh, I don't check a single box.
我五分钟前本来要开会 I have a meeting five minutes ago.
-好吧 -菲利斯 - Okay. - Phyllis?
我办公室里那些行政人员 Hey. Those guys from admin in my office,
跟他们说今天的会取消 tell them we have to cancel today.
改到明天 I'll see them tomorrow.
我知道 跟他们说我很抱歉 Yeah, I know, tell them I'm really sorry.
要不要一块吃午餐 You want to get lunch?
好 Mm-hmm.
麻烦给我菜单 Can we get a menu?
你现在状况如何 心情方面 So where are you right now, mood-wise?
正在脱离低潮 I'm coming off of a low.
今晚我会很嗨 Tonight I'll be pretty manic.
你是第一个知道这件事的人 You're the first person I've ever told about this.
说出来感觉怎么样 How does it feel telling me?
感觉胸口的大象 Like-like an elephant's taken one
拿开了一只脚 of its feet off my chest.
很开心你愿意告诉我 I'm so glad you've told me.
好多疑问都有了答案 It explains so much.
不知道这件事 If anything, not knowing
搞得我们之间 made it a little difficult
没办法完全交心 to connect with you fully,
我本想好好认识你 the way I would have wanted.
改天你想一起去喝一杯吗 So you want to get a drink sometime?
一起去看电影 You want to go to the movies?
一起去玩 You want to see people?
全都想 All of the above.
你是我交过最可爱的朋友 You are the most fun I've ever been around.
我不会放过你 I'm not letting that go.
谢谢 谢谢你 Thank you. Thank you.
我才要谢谢你 Thank you.
一个值得信任的真心朋友 It's amazing what trusting
能带来神奇的改变 one true friend in your life can do.
跟西尔维娅坦白后 Once I told Sylvia,
似乎有点一发不可收拾 it seemed like the cat was out of the bag.
我打给这些年来的前男友们 I rang old boyfriends from over the years,
我莫名其妙不再联络的前同事们 colleagues I had just stopped calling for no reason.
我差点以自己的毛病为荣 I felt almost proud of my condition.
其实是因为我有郁躁症 It turns out I'm bipolar.
我莫名觉得好疗癒 好舒压 It was cathartic, strangely healing,
他们是如此宽容 如此体谅 how forgiving and understanding they were.
我竟然这么不信任他们 And how little credit I had given so many people.
我答应自己 And I promised myself no person
不再对人隐瞒每一个我 would not know the full story of me.
好的 坏的... The good, the bad...
天呐 难以置信 Oh, my gosh, that's unbelievable.
...疯狂的 ...and the mad.
她最近怎么样 How's she doing?
杰夫的事过去两年了 Jeff was a couple years ago.
长达两年 Two long years since,
我努力寻找适合的医生 of searching for just the right doctor
适合的药物 and just the right dose.
我知道我脑中的荷尔蒙失调没解药 I know there's no cure for the chemical imbalance in my brain,
就像爱情也没解药 any more than there's a cure for love.
但有我超爱的小小黄色药丸 But there is a little yellow pill I'm very fond of,
淡蓝色药丸 and a pale blue one,
还有几颗漂亮的粉红色胶囊 and some pretty pink capsules,
和其他颜色的胶囊 and a handful of other colors
大大改变了我的生活 that have turned my life around.
心情仍有起伏 但... I have moods, but...
不会再让我变身成另一个人 they don't send me spinning into an alternate persona.
然后我又重返约会界啦 And I'm back in the dating circle.
很明显 毕竟你正在看这篇文章 Obviously, seeing as how you're reading this.
我想过用探探社交 后来还是决定 I thought about Tinder, but then I just settled
用传统网络交友模式 for the old-fashioned Web dating service.
所以我出现在这里 And so here I am.
这就是我 This is me.
如果你没被吓跑 If this doesn't scare you off,
欢迎留言给我 then feel free to leave me a message.
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